☆Healthy~Addictions☆'s manga / #Rape(13)

Okay… this one took me through a fucking loop it’s sad and the main character unfortunately ends up mentally fucked up and suffers from Stockholm syndrome. The ending wasn’t it for me really, from what I remember they end up living together and develop a good relationship but it doesn’t quite sit right with me. The fact that this man raped, abused, tortured, and more just ends up with him in a supposedly healthy relationship. The whole I can’t live without you also confused me maybe because I couldn’t fully comprehend this story due to my age so I will reread in the future. I just feel like it’s slightly realistic because of the Stockholm syndrome but that might’ve been one of the biggest reasons why they ended up together. I probably don’t like it that much because for one, it kinda confused me overall and second, the main character suffered from Stockholm syndrome. I know that is the main mental illness in these psychological stories but the fact that the person cannot escape their abuser and actually defend them and everything just makes me sad. I wanted the main character to say his abuser held him captive so badly but no, he said that wasn’t true. The fact that they end up living together just feels fucked up but not everything has a happy story. It wasn’t too bad compared to other books I’ve read with the psychological genre. This story reminded me of “Killing Stalking” because of the kidnapping, rape, torture, and Stockholm syndrome. Don’t forget the sad ending except both characters lived in the end with this one. This is my first ever review of a story and I will try to continue to do more to record my thoughts.

Fucking hell, this is the worst story I have ever read. I actually thought about dropping it until I had to finish it. You know why? It’s because I wanted to know what happened in the end and if it ended good or not. Just going to say it, it was fucking bad. So, first of all it started off fucked up real quick. I can’t remember but for some twisted reason black haired bf brought blonde guy to a hotel. Little did he know his bf set him up and he paid about 3 guys to rape him. This was just the beginning, years later, he meets him again. Guess what he does? He kidnaps him and rapes him everyday. Black haired guy clmes from a privileged rich family and his family is fucking stupid.

What the fuck-

HAHAHAHAH I READ THE COMMENTS AND IT SOUNDS FUCKING WEIRD BUT I’LL READ IT. EDIT: This was so fucking weird, like it had some weird delusional message behind him getting the vagina on his ribcage. Plus it was full of rape it was horrible and his ex was crazy maybe beyond it like she needs some help wtf. Near the end I just skimmed through it but the whole thing was people raping him and being like “yOu NeEd To UnDeRsTaNd HoW tO lOvE wOmEn!!!” I feel bad for the guy, I don’t know how he really treated the women he was with but that last one was strange she was obsessive and I don’t blame him for leaving her. Also the rape part is part of this author’s title, seriously, Screengrab was full of rape and this one was too. I hate how they told him he liked it and tried to make him think it was okay when it really wasn’t. At the end of the day it was still rape and they all need to go to a mental hospital like all of the characters are fucked up in the head. If I were to rate this, it would be 0 stars for many reasons and the themes it portrayed.

I can’t even begin to describe this manga…

Nah nah this manhwa is not it. I was drawn into it in the first place because of the kinks but the rest is bad. Literally this is just pure rape, all of it. This succubus girl makes an app so she can rape random men and get food from it. Another aspect is that with every fucking rapist in these manhwas is that they say “oh you like it” or “your penis says otherwise” even after they’re begging the person to stop. It’s disgusting and every man she rapes they say “stop” and “no” repeatedly. Even though I marked it as “Already read” I didn’t finish it I dropped it a while ago and I’m just now writing my review. This comment also said pretty much what I just said but I agree with it so I’ll add it here, “ Not my taste. What a TERRIBLE start for the manhwa, she forces him to ejaculate after he said stop *multiple times*, and he even ran away but she still continued. Sure, there could be tattoos and other kinky shit in here, but that doesn't make up for the rape. Did you hear him give consent? No. Did you hear him say stop? Yes. Did you see him visibly RUN AWAY in order to stop? Yes. Really, I don't care if this is because she's some anti-social succubus, this is literal trash. Dropped.”

OKAY THIS STORY WAS JUST AMAZING. Forst I have to say I will re-read because I zoomed through it like I got the just of it but I didn’t read everything just bits and pieces. With that aside, this was very cute and wholesome. One of the tags that drew me in the most was the tag “Genderfluid” because it’s not common for stories to feature characters that identify outside the gender spectrum. Arima struggled a lot with his gender especially the pressure from his mom wanting a girl. I think it was good that he stuck to his identity especially after that horrible incident with his teacher. I think he healed a bit after the incident even when it made him not want to be a girl for a while. I’m glad he could express both versions of himself. As for his relationship with the boy (forgot his name) he loved him either way. I remember in the story he said something like “I was drawn to you for the feminine version of yourself” and that upset Arima making him remember his mother’s desire for a girl. They ended up talking over it and the boy told him he liked him both ways. Another thing I liked was while I was speed reading, I processed the boys reactions as being open about his sexuality. Even when people called him gay he didn’t mind it even showing affection towards Arima was very open and to me it seemed like he did not care. I apologize for saying “seemed” or “how I understood it” because again, I sped through it so I may be wrong. If I end up being wrong on some parts then I’ll correct it when I re-read it. The last thing I want to cover is how Arima viewed the boy as his hero because of the flower he gave him reminded him of his hero from that incident. I feel like it was very sweet and I shed some tears because he had a deep connection between him because of that. I just feel like that just feels warm and healing for Arima because he has a person that is similar to his hero that makes him safe and happy when around him. I think that’s all I wanted to say and I’ll just throw in that I hope that disgusting teacher that hurt Arima got put into jail. It was a nice story and very heart-warming, only trigger warning is the rape from the incident but still a beautiful story.

Alright, I think it is now time to write my review on this manhwa. Given this is actually my first ever manhwa on mangago so I completed it in about 2020 and re-read it about 4 times. So, I don’t know where to BEGIN with this manhwa.. I can say though, it was a pretty good manhwa but that’s also coming from a murder mystery lover myself. Now the plot was pretty interesting and the twists and turns kept me reading. Now I was about 12 or 13 when O first read this so I couldn’t quite understand some of the themes featured in this story. This manhwa was actually my first introduction to “stockholm syndrome”. I think if the reader knows of the existence of such condition, they will better understand the characters. For example, being, Yoonbum. He is basically the mc of this whole story and he suffered stockholm syndrome. Ever since he got into the hands of Sangwoo he was doomed to the condition. Now I need to elaborate more on my view of Yoonbum instead of doing it later. So I had empathy and pity for Yoonbum but at the same time, he was a stalker. I sort of hate how the KS fandom portayed Yoonbum as a “sweet baby” or “smol bean” that had to be protected at all costs. He is a grown man, who stalked the man he knew from the military. But I still didn’t let that aspect of him to entirely distort my view of his character. Yoonbum was really just a victim though out his whole life, from childhood, all the way to adulthood. From the moment he was put into the custody of his grand parents, he was abused physically, mentally, and sexually. He was always picked on and judged from his appearance and behaviors. His BPD didn’t help either. He was always hurt through relationships and treated as if he were nothing. Sangwoo didn’t treat him any better than the other people did. That’s another thing that upset me is how people in the KS community was always shipping the two characters and fangirling/fanboying over their relationship. There was absolutely nothing healthy about the relationship they shared, it was purely, abusive, vile, and manipulative. People would always pull out the “Sangwoo loves Yoonbum” card when he never would’ve kept Yoonbum in his life if he didn’t look like his mother. It feels like people weren’t paying attention to the story at all and only seeing the fantasy story they wanted to see. Sangwoo has trauma from his mother and all the things she did. Forced him into a crime, raped him, attempted murder, psychological abuse, and more. I don’t know the story quite well but I think despite being afraid and disgusted by his mother, he still wanted to hold onto that mother figure, the mother figure that once treated him when he was sick, protected him from harm, and stayed by him when his father didn’t. He wanted his mother back and that explains the kidnaping of yoonbum and of all the acts he made him do, like washing the dishes and cooking dinner like his mother once did. If the hallucinations of his mother while looking at yoonbum weren’t enough, then I don’t know how else to make the viewers understand. Even when the series ended, in the author’s note, she had answered a question from a fan, “is sangwoo gay?” And she answered “no, he is not” (not verbatim but quite literally paraphrasing her response). That also proves that he only saw yoonbum as his mother and nothing else. Then again I think most of the viewers were underage like I am but I think they are just ignorant about psychology and the signs shown in the story. I know I’m no psychologist, but I just understood and came to my conclusions based on what I already know. Moving on, I don’t quite know why sangwoo went from a damaged, hurt, child to a full on manipulative, insane, serial killer, but I think the intense trauma his mother and his father pressed on him is a big reason for his out come. I mean, we’re talking attempted murder, his mother tried to suffocate him with a pillow when he was only 6 years old, and tried again when he was in high school with rat poison. I have some pity for Sangwoo but also not really. I truly think the things done to him in his childhood are not excused and that he was a victim but that doesn’t mean that it’s okay for him to just be a serial killer just because he was abused as a child. I mean, the disgusting things he did not only to all his victims but, yoonbum. Once he hung him by a rope and gave himself sexual pleasure as yoonbum as there struggling and he had no guilt or sympathy or anything for yoonbum and that continued. At some point they had fun and when to an amusement park but so??? When people say they fell in love they always mentioned the good parts of the story of their relationship later on but that does not, I repeat, does not excuse his abuse towards yoonbum in the past. One thing I also forgot to mention is how people looked at Sangwoo as “hot” and “handsome” and how he could just kidnap them. First of all, he is a serial killer who is extremely mentally deranged. But That doesn’t matter to the fangirls and people do this even in real life, like with Ted Bundy, he was handsome so girls fell for him dispite him being a killer. I just think that it was so stupid how he had so many fangirls despite the horrible things he did. Now for Seungbae, the cop of the story. I think Seungbae was my favorite character of the whole series. He was one of the best characters in my opinion. Seungbae was the true hero in this story and really the only rational and good person in this story. I loved his determination to get evidence to help Yoonbum. Even if it was illegal he knew it would be nearly impossible to collect good and enough evidence against Sangwoo in a legal way. I did feel bad about his problems from the previous police station he used to work at because it really hit him hard later. It sucked how his previous mistakes held him back even after he was able to drag Sangwoo and Yoonbum into the police station. It was also unfortunate how Sangwoo was able to convience everyone he was innocent but the way he did it was pretty smart I will give him that. You know I was also rooting for both parties because I wanted to see what would happen. Like if Sangwoo was able to get away and what he had to do and with Seungbae, what evidence he would collect in order to put Sangwoo behind bars. It was also unfortunate how the police were able to find Sangwoo guilty when he has already done so much and he got injured so badly that they couldn’t lock him up. Honestly I feel like him dying was the easy way out so that he wouldn’t have to go to prison for his whole life. Not like he wanted to die, really, a fucking pillow killed him. The ending also made me sad when Yoonbum got hit by Seungbae because he was still running after Sangwoo in the end even after Sangwoo died and Yoonbum was free. The Stockholm Syndrome was real strong in the end. Even though Yoonbum had his problems AND he murdered someone, I still felt bad for him considering his past and his mental state. This story really had me feeling bad and hating some of the characters like Sangwoo was a piece of shit but I also feel bad for him. Then it strikes me again about what he did to others and Yoonbum then I hate him again. But then again, even if he had a bad childhood and horrible parents, it doesn’t excuse his behavior. Although I really want to stick by that statement, another side of me says that it isn’t exactly his fault for having some of his problems due to trauma. But then again he could have reached out for help plus I don’t think that his trauma would really influence his murderer tendencies. Yes, his father abused his mother, his mother abused and attempted to kill him many times, but that doesn’t mean he just suddenly starts to kill people? Then again I feel like I might be wrong because I don’t know much about killers and psychology and this is just my ignorant opinion. I think that’s all I wanted to say about this book. I’ve read it currently, about 4 times because it is such an interesting read. I’m looking forward to another series by this author because I would love to see another series similar to this or if not, just another manhwa, any genre, from this author. But, considering the author spent her early 20s on this series (she said this in the author’s note) she will probably not make another series for quite a while because she deserves to live her life and have a break since she spent so much time and hard work making this comic. That’s all I have to say, my review on my first yaoi manhwa.