Sono Kuchibiru ni Yoru no Tsuyu
kinda messed up story of a guy running into the guy he raped in hs or smth, and now the guy (who's his bus driver) rapes him back. not my thing. 3/10
Hit Me!
Mmmmmmmmmmmm. Exteme masochism. Bleeding and physical abuse during sex is very not my thing. First ever 1/10? Dunno. The guy was into but boy was I not ?/10
Ten Count
germaphobe x doctor. the vibe was kinda messed up somehow. i read this a while a go so might have to give it a reread. one of my first psychological BL. not really my cup of tea tho. MC has an actual disorder not some fantasy version of OCD and, from what i remember, the story treats this seriously. this is getting an anime adaptation? 6 or 7/10 from what i remember.
Kanchigai Tokidoki koi
Gross. Teacher tries to rape the uke. Seme also has stalker tendencies too but at least he recognized them by the end, but that doesnt really change anything. Ch 5 was so messed up. Guy gets plastic surgery to look like his brother and sleep around with his brothers appearance. Really killed any enjoyment I had for this story. 2/10 for the queasy stomach i got
Mitsuru-kun no Mitsugenai Haru ga Kuru
WARNING: suicidal themes in ch 4 dropped at ch 4. uke in the first story can't handle not giving and serving people, which was kinda unhealthy
Caste Heaven
I tried to read this a long time ago (think I got like 5 or so chapters in) and remember nothing but it left me feeling kind sick
Kansai Jin to Hukumen Satsujinki
dropped at vol 2? i think? read this on MRM a while ago so idk. not a fan of psycho killer confinement stories and read about as much as i could stomach. it was good tho i guess. objectively 7/10 but personally like a 2. .
METRO
WARNING: depictions of suicide in ch 4. Well hey, they're both over 18. What a surprise. Kid gets molested on a train and asks the molester to violate him more. Everyone here is depressed. 4 or 5/10
Kuchizuke wa Uso no Aji
stopped after like 5 or 6 chapters maybe? 2/10
Muchi na Boku to Waruikoto