Just binge-read this and I love it. I can't help but empathize with Si-eon. I'm in the same shoes as him. More like a go-with-the-flow person. I will devote myself and be loyal but I just don't feel the thing they describe as love, I don't know like maybe a "thump" in my chest, and I just end up hurting them. This story has given me so much enlightenment, new perspective, and my oh my, just pure bliss on kind of understanding myself as well. Definitely one for a re-read whenever I am lost again.
Love for Sale