Royal Servant
i feel so conflicted abt christoph, he's SO tragic it hurts to think abt it. nothing in his life was ever under his control, even at the end, a whole chapter of his life was just erased without his consent and he'll never know that. there's such a painful emptiness abt him, both before and after the memory erasure and the artist conveyed that well with his demeanor. i know ryan did everything so chris wouldn't be miserable abt his death and blame himself but is that really fair? to make such a big decision for him instead of letting him make his own path? like kyon said, not being able to grieve for a loved one who was there with you for so long is sadder than losing them. overall i now have existential crisis cause of the morality of this situation. HOWEVER I like this story because it's not a perfect, happily ever after ending. rather it's realistic even while being fantasy, it's not the generic "it's possible to have long life spans in this world so everyone lives and everyone gets a happy ending regardless of the circumstances," that's what makes it memorable. ALSO LASTLY I LIKED KARIS AND SIHAN, their dynamic was cute and I love how assertive karis is. tho I was really hoping to see more development from them and how'd they'd actually deal with sihans issue of being paranoid abt karis' safety because yeah karis is understanding now but if that keeps going on, it wouldn't be fair to expect him to understand all the time, sihan also has to understand karis' point of view and heal.
Epitaph (Perfume)