Kathy's manga / #Psychological(22)

I reread this 2/11/21 where a lot has happened since this story finished in April. I connected with the characters more, maybe because I know more about myself now than I did then. I relate to Taehyun a bit with how he’s afraid of his feelings so he has trouble feeling and figuring out his feelings (because he still has them even if he’s afraid of them and pretends they’re not there) and also how he can be selfish, which he called himself. Taehyun, like me, fears a lot of things, and I also related with Dayeol on how he was afraid. That part where it said they were both afraid struck a chord in me. They didn’t know what to do because they stopped doing what they had been doing. They both feared so much about life. I am so deeply afraid of life. My favorite part of the story is when dayeol lays his head on the desk to watch Taehyun and the part that makes me keep thinking is the part when they sit together after they graduate. I think I get why Dayeol did that, but I also felt Taehyun’s desperation and patheticness in that moment, which I could relate to my own. Because I am selfish and pathetic. In the end, Taehyun is willing to try to like Dayeol because he wants to try even if he can’t exactly feel it or was unsure about it.

i would prefer to never go on that emotional roller coaster again. it...gets dark. all in all, my feels at the end were *lying down in a pool of my own tears* but my feels in regards to the whole manhwa as a whole are it's good, but everything is really complicated and it's a bit dark. like the author said, they might've treated the topics not well since they didn't do a lot of research for it, so just remember that. Btw, the thing isn't bl, the brothers were not in a romantic relationship, but it was still a messed up relationship. the things jaeha did messed up yoseob because it warped yoseob's understanding of life. though it also could be said that the other guy changed how jaeha thought which led him to do that to yoseob. anyway, they were all little kids back then, so noone can be blamed. yoseob should've been taken to therapy all the way from the beginning, though, so the parents can be blamed for that.