hachi leaf's manga / #Lewd Uke(18)

so far full of great reviews. but i just wanna get this out of my system. the fact that the whole time watabe was uneasy and insecure was because yajima doesn't assure him and keep looking at other men that are his type and keep insisting that watabe isn't his type didn't sit well with me. during those times, although yajima does make sure to show that he's loyal and possessive, it felt like a one sided love on watabe's part - or more like the amount of love isn't equal. i guess it was fixed barely by the end (like a chapter before it officially ends lol the one where yajima says he did all that to his brother because they looked the same - even this one felt like a rushed patch up). this isn't seen much by others since it's brushed off lightly by the manga but watabe who kept saying "don't cheat on me" is literally a sign of great insecurity and it's because of what yajima has been doing and saying. with how they started the relationship and how it's so sex-driven, I can't help but think that yajima only fell in love because of their sexual compatibility. the way he kept insisting on sex, make ways so watabe has more stamina for sex or even add zinc for better sex activity, get depressed if they can't do it, and all of that kinda made that assumption of mine go off worse lol. it bothered me a lot. i didn't feel as if yajima was indeed in love but moreso infatuated and obsessed with the sex. it's good, but I don't think their love for each other was shown equally.