gaobainu's manga / #Psychological(4)

I hope the tags can get fixed with a psychological one. It started out kinda cute, but right now I'm not so sure if I still want to continue or drop it. I'm holding on to it because the art is amazing, and the plot is something that I have not read in any BLs before. However, I find it somehow uncomfortable to continue on the chapters T__T I don't like MCs thinking, it's like he's letting his dick control him and thinking that doing sex is love, forcing himself (somewhat) is the only way to show his love, etc. I can't really say, but I do know he is heavily infatuated. I just feel bad for ML, he deserves to BREATHE and heal from his trauma :(((