tsundere enthusiast's manga / #jealous seme(2)

bro its bj alex we all know it few notes: — i adored this webtoon when i first read it. it’s one of those series where once you read it, it’ll never blow you away as much after. — the uke, dg, is pretty pathetic. he’s a pushover and he doesn’t have much personality other than admiring alex. the second hand embarrassment is real but that’s not what i mind: it’s that he’s a genuinely boring character alone. several times during my reread, i got irked but how pushy he was about things and the way he acted. so irritating. but, in my first read i didn’t mind as much (or rather i was too caught up in the angst to really pay a closer attention) — the ending/last chapter was incredible, well. that’s maybe too much but it was good and tugged at my heartstrings and i even teared up. it’s so cute. i’ve never been so affected by a webtoon’s ending. it’s not that it’s sad. but it’s because [spoiler] alex ceases to exist. jiwon abandons his job to live as himself and it’s just- read it. — like i said earlier, you really would lose the amazement and adoration for the series aftwr a reread or two (more like you’ll be less impressed which albeit understandable, there are multiple webtoons and mangas out there that ive reread multiple times and still enjoyed always *cough* ameiro paradox *cough*). but still, it’s a rollercoaster and i love it so much! definitely, probably, won’t reread it unless it’s been 10 years lolol

it’s very sad because the ending isn’t happy at all, althought that’s what it looks like. the main character falls so hard into depression and develops something akin to stockholm syndrome and loses himself to the thing making him miserable. this is not a happy story and the ending is good, albeit frustrating/a bad end. you think it is, but the cycle continues. this one of those rare bl mangas that doesn’t actually romanticize incest and shows it as being disgusting and psychologically damaging. the jealousy and possessive tag refers to the younger brother god im thinking about this manga again and it really does make me sad