nia's manga / #Shounen Ai(5)

I hate myself. I said I wanna read something so emotional, so painful that it would make me cry because of personal reasons. But now that I got it, I don't know anymore. This was beautiful, truly beautiful. First of all, I wanna live in a place like this where people doesn't frown upon same sex relationships, or not totally accepting it but at least not saying anything hurtful. Second, the second thing I hate about myself is that it's too easy for me to bury deep in my consciousness the pain people give me so no matter how many times they hurt me, I'll easily forgive them and go on with life as if nothing happened. The same thing applies to characters. No matter how much of an asshole a person or a character is, I wont wish for them to die but instead, I'll wish for them to have a change of heart or a character development and hope that someday they will find someone who will be with them through thick and thin. Third, I hope for all the characters here to be happy someday. I mean ALL. Even jiang and the side characters. Okay enough of this.

I love both couples. I love how the author and the artist made them. The romance and fluff was enough to make me feel butterflies and feel envious of them at the same time. It made me feel like love is REAL. And not just some chemical reaction from our brain. That we could believe in it and overcome obstacles. The problems, insecurities and mental processes were relatable, it was as if I was that character having the same thoughts. It made me feel like Their problem is my problem as well, making me feel anxious whenever they are anxious, scared whenever they're scared, insecure whenever they are insecure. And it amazes me how someone, somewhere might just experience the same thing and were able to overcome them as well. I'll stop my monologue for now and add some later.