Misya's manga / #romance(53)

Rudbeckia, a reincarnated young girl from Korea, suffers in her new life from the same abuse and neglect as in her previous. She hopes by understanding the timeline, Rudbeckia tries to change her future. However, her anxiety, depression, and struggle with bulimia make progression difficult. Personal Opinion/Lengthy️️: I can see how a reader might become annoyed by the FL’s behavior, but I implore you to think about Rudbeckia’s life thus far and attempt to understand. She has endured an arduous life of abuse and poor mental health only to be reincarnated in the same environment. I myself, have struggled with poor mental health since I was in middle school and to feel so low that even getting out of bed is no joke. You feel as though you want to rot because that’s how you feel on the inside, rotten and a piece of disgusting trash. It takes an immense amount of strength and courage to overcome; support is ALWAYS helpful because those people will encourage you to take the first step to becoming better. So if anyone has read this far and you’re struggling, I’m sincerely rooting for you. I know you don’t want to be a burden on others, I get it, and it’s annoying to hear from others saying that you’re not. I wish you could believe me if I said so, but I won’t say that. What I will say, or rather, ask is you take care of yourself, even if it’s just getting a glass of water or going to the bathroom, heck, even stretching in bed, please be well!

I want to shove rocks down Ivy’s throat :)

I understand readers’ dislike for the FL reason for weight loss, but let’s be real. I’m positive there are plenty of those who start losing weight for a similar reason; I say this because I’m one of them. The way society has ingrained in our minds that being thin is the only way to be beautiful or successful is toxic AF. Let me also add, that while I’m not trying to speak for the author, but I don’t think this story is representative of the author’s personal belief or opinion either regarding why you should lose weight. We shouldn’t have to concern ourselves with an opinion either. Also, who’s to say that the FL doesn’t change her mind about why she wants to lose weight or decides to just live healthier in a future chap? She has wonderful family, friends, and possibly a partner that love her the way she is! Side note: I wish I had someone like Leo by my side, but I’m a super introvert and don’t like to open myself up too deeply to others. I highly doubt anyone I know irl would want to know either. Oddly enough, I feel safer sharing these thoughts/opinions of mine on the internet. Lame, right?