aghhh. all i'm thinking about rn is that i'm so glad i waited to read this now and didnt before chapter 50 was uploaded. to think that ppl had to suffer with that ending for 2 years. and it was an end - their lives ended that day. but im so glad we got closure and that they were able to find each other in another life. this is a story i've put off since i started reading bl bc i've heard about how sad and heartbreaking it is, and though it entirely lived up to those claims, it was also more sweet and wholesome than i was expecting. i didnt realize just how in love they would be. especially gusam, he was so fully in love with suchae and it was painful to see how helpless and guilty he felt in their relationship. but what could suchae do, he was just as in love and obsessed with gusam. i hate that they had to resort to that kind of ending, but im honestly glad they died together rather than having to get forced apart. every chapter i would grow anxious that it would be the last time to see them together and gusam would get captured and tortured, but it never came and im so grateful for that. i ended up growing so attached to gusam even when i was trying really hard not to bc i knew it would hurt to see him get wronged. their circumstances were so unfair it makes my blood boil thinking about it. that fucking rapist shouldve gotten sawed into 100 bits and pieces. im so glad he was killed and the detective fucker too, fuck him. though its an incredible story and i felt just abt every single emotion run through me while reading, the end feels so abrupt and incomplete. thought, i suppose that fits the motif of a rain shower. but i do wonder what exactly happened to gusam that day and if that kenma lookalike was the one who actually committed the crime. i wonder if the subplot with him and the wimpy dude was supposed to go somewhere. i guess if gusam had to die without knowing exactly what happened to him, we do too. ugh, this was painful but im really glad i finally read it - 10/10
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