bokutotiddies's manga / #sad(44)

:(((((. this was so sweet. ah man. im glad i didnt read this like a month ago i probably wouldve been a crying mess. and i still teared up this time too. i share a lot of similar thoughts as yuugen abt life and it really moved me when i saw the way his mom was dealing with the loss of her son. we take life for granted so often and push things off for some day later in the future without knowing if that day will really ever come. its normal but its definitely not how we should live. i appreciate the beauty in life and im hyperaware of the fragility of human life but i dont live my life to the fullest that i could. i want to change but i dont know where to start. im too tired to try starting tbh. oh well. as for the read, it was beautiful 9/10

oof. this was an interesting one. slightly predictable but still pretty good. i feel really bad for kister tho, he didnt deserve all of that. i like the ambiguous ending but i wish there was a stronger relationship or romance between him and jonathon. i also dont really get what the deal w robert was. he seemed so sketchy and the whole thing w his dad didnt really get resolved either. oh well, 7.5/10

bro whatttt this is so good. the way the last chapter completely made me feel 180 abt things. they are SO sweet together and i ship the old geezers too LOOOL. the sweetest "dirty" talk ive ever read. ugh this is so good. 9/10

PAIN, BUT IN THE BEST WAY. man i have way too fucking much to talk abt. okay first of all - I NEED TO TALK ABT THE CUTEST CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT IVE EVER SEEN ON A MAN. chi hwan is so so so adorable now. and that is smth i never foresaw myself saying even just a few chapters ago. he goes from being a murderous, opportunistic selfish asshole (he really isnt THAT bad tho just really sketchy) to an absolutely anxious and smitten puppy. i really didnt think id ever like him at some point but tbh he really just has a tragic past. idk if that excuses the senseless murders tho. oh well, hes a gentleman to my bb so ill overlook it LMAO. hes also really great at apologizing and being considerate of sooin at a level of maturity that is really attractive. at first i was bummed that sooins saviour wasnt as willing to love sooin as vice versa, but the role reversal in the second half really stole my heart. he is so wonderful to him and the fact that he needs him just as much, if not way more, than sooin needs him is so sweet. tbh i think sooins the one who needs to figure out exactly whether he truly loves chi hwan or if hes just extremely grateful to him and likes how loved he makes him feel. bc for chihwan its just pure love baby. sigh. speaking of - the role reversal??? brilliant. breathtaking, genius, never been done before. from selfish, powerful vampire and weak pitiful human to submissive link and confident, happy vampire. what a fucking glowup. and i mean SUBMISSIVE bro. the switch in chi hwans attitude gave me whiplash but in the best way. i dont think i have ever seen a seme cry out of love and anxiety for his lover in a story before. hes so sweet and in love. and seeing sooin so confident and honestly powerful was honey for my eyes. i love sooin so much hes so lovely and he deserves only the best in the world after the absolute hell that he was dealt. im not even gonna touch on the topic of that abusive fucker - just mad that they made such an asshole exactly my type in terms of looks ugh. the choi guy was really really pretty and i honestly pitied him at first but idk at some point i started to fully dislike him. his own greed caused his downfall but idk if the amount of hate chi hwan has for him is justified. regardless, he has too much innocent blood on his hands. listen - this story sent me into a whole vampire spiral. its not often but occasionally ill come across a piece of work that captures the dark aesthetic and sultry ambience of a vampire piece so well that i just fall completely down the rabbit hole for a little while and make my life abt emitting the same vibes. this time, i made a whole vampire playlist on spotify and browsed some goth lesbian clothes/decor. the first 10ish chapters already convinced me that this was going in my favs list. theres something abt this story, especially the first half, that does such a great job of capturing the vampire essence. its so sexy and interesting. idk maybe its the inimate touches and blood, the brooding mysterious men and their lengthy misfortunate histories. whenever i fall back into this, its the most bi-curious i ever feel, which is very interesting. like i really wish i had a goth gf right about now so we could gush over this shit and make out. lots of homoeroticism in vampire lore. i love it. i havent felt like actually turned on by yaoi in a while but did the job lmaooo. the v first sex scene was really hot. yeah anyways 10/10

maan this was so cute. the cover intially attracted me to it but the plot is actually so interesting. im like kinda glad on one hand that its so short, so the conflict didnt last for too long, bc like oof amnesia-forgetting-loved-ones angst is the worst angst ever fr. but on the other hand, i kinda wish there was more of them happy and in love. fuck his friend from high school or whatever im glad he gave up but he was scary af. 9/10 only bc its so short

this was really good. heavy and frustrating sometimes but good. i feel really bad for shiro and what he went thru but im glad hes safe and happy w tora now. theyre really sweet together and tora is the perfect kind of person for saving someone. yknow, the type that cant leave others alone when theyre in trouble? yeah what a nice guy. it was angsty but it paid off so yeah 10/10

fuck i cried reading this. its so short but its so impactful. i hate the war so much its so pointless and i cant and never will be able to understand its purpose. what the fuck are we fighting for so badly that its worth the countless lives lost or ruined? its shit like this that makes me so grateful for the peaceful life i have. i can move on from this and spend the rest of my day without sparing a thought for my or my family's well being, but thats not the case for so many others and it makes me so sad. i never want to live like that either tho. 10/10

hmm. honestly, though i understand how it feels to think that theres no one else you could possibly love than the person youre currently with, it really doesnt seem to be a good idea in their case. they themselves agree theyll never be able to get past the guilt. like, it makes sense for him to want to be with her considering she kinda symbolizes the freedom hes never had and plus hes been looking for a reason to get away from his family and their expectations. but for her...like girl. you can 100% find someone else to love. i guarantee it. and someone who wont make you have to give up your family for them. plus you wont feel overwhelming guilt every second youre with them? idk i feel like the kind of love thats needed to make you consider rooting for a couple in this circumstances have to be like passionately and madly in love and they just arent. i cant see them being in a real relationship much less lasting forever? yeah. but it made me sympathize w the fl for the situation. 7/10