bokutotiddies's manga / #sad(44)

ugh what the fuckkkkk. idk. i cant feel satisfied with this. im obviously happy that he was able to escape that fucking situation but like. its only bc his abuser literally told him to go? ik its difficult for victims to choose to leave themselves but idk it just sucks that it had to be like that. also i think the issue w mamayo treating yumi like some precious china was never resolved? like yeah they both came to the conclision that its bc of him that yumi has this horrible tendency to put up with abuse with a smile in order to avoid looking "pathetic", but other than them now dating, mamayo doesnt really change. im just so frustrated abt the whole yumi and kan thing tho. after reading azami, i obviously understand why he became abusive in the first place but this is too much. like its irreedeemable and i hate the person he became. its tragic that he was pushed to that in the first place. i feel so bad for yumi he did not wrong in this at all. ugh. i just feel so conflicted and unsatisfied. i cant give this more than a 6/10.

end of s1: hOLYYYY SHIT i shouldve just waited a few months to read this i cannot fucking believe this is how it ended. ughhhh my god THIS SHIT IS SO FUCKED UP. I HATE THAT MAN SO MUCH. my beautiful poor baby juha and MY SON DOOSIK DESERVE THE WORLD AND HAPPINESS TOGETHER. FUCK. shit got me FUCKED UP. pilwon deserves death thats all ill accept as an ending for him. the author better not be considering setting him up w doosik's friend bc he deserves much better than that and i could never support them tbh.

heres the thing. i hate this already. im like 2 chapters in and its not bc its not a good story i can just tell its gonna hurt me. maybe ill love it idk. but my heart is HEAVILY guarded bc i can just feel its gonna suck. not the plot, again, but the outcome of it. i know jowoon is endgame. so at least ik who not to get attached too right but still. im scared. ok imma go back to reading. joowon seems like kind of an asshole but i like him anyways LOL. this story has an interesting way of making me feel like im in a toxic relationship of my own. which i was, so its literally me just relating to everything. as someone whos been in a toxic relationship before, haesoo's thoughts are painfully relatable. man this shit is so good tho. the "toxicity" is addicting just like a toxic relationship is. its incredible for a story to make you feel that way about characters you barely know. im at 36 and yknow, its hard to really explain my feelings in words but i still like joowon better. taekyung is interesting and honestly the more attractive to me out of the two but i cant like his personality tbh. hes not a victim of all this either bc hes interjecting himself in a relationship that has no room for anyone else on purpose. joowon has issues for sure and its bc of the fact that he evades communicating honestly that their relationship is like that but his feelings are genuine and i can see that he wants to have something real with haesoo but just cant bc of the circumstances. it all hits too close to home and i just see myself too much in haesoo. as someone who enjoys photography, the artistic shots and every chapter cover photo are sooooooooooo gorgeous im so fucking obsessed. i love this shit so much. i might not be rooting for taekyung but i love his pictures so much. i really like his view on things too. hes very laid back but also super introspective. i just wanna say, taekyung pushes every single right button. like he says ALL THE RIGHT THINGS for someone like haesoo or i. i really like how he talks to haesoo tbh. haesoo and joowon are my babies at this point. i love them sm and i think theyre both a couple of idiots but i truly want them to work this out and the happiness that i couldnt. i hope they get it together soon bc im really tired of haesoo having to rely on taekyung instead. pls joowon, just be fucking honest. chapter 58: ughhhhhh it hurts. it hurts sm. joowons at least being fucking honest but haesoo still isnt. fuck i mean ig i understand why but fuck. what the fuckkkk. im so sad for both of them. mainly joowon. i dont get what could happen at this point for haesoo to change his mind. i really hope it isnt like "taekyung chose his career over me so ig ill make shit work with joowon" type of thing. doubt it will be but still. fuuuuck. i have a headache and i cant tell if its bc of this or not. JOOWONNNNN :((((( bb. ik u wont but you really should consider finding something new and starting fresh. sigh this rejection and humiliation doesnt suit you at all. i wish you could move on. yknow WHAT i say that im on joowons side and all but taekyung prescene and impact is so huge like he rly does be stating absolute FACTS. i really hope he serves as the catalyst for them to both change their ways. yknow. what this really gives me anxiety about tho is the fact maybe ill never be able to completely move on and forget everything. just like haesoo cant even when hes had the perfect night with the perfect guy in a perfect relationship. its hard to forget the first person who made you feel so alive. in that sense, i wish he would just move on from joowon but truthfully i dont at all. its the way that haesoo imagines joowon to be at some grand event dressed up and having the time of his life when hes actually alone at home thinking about haesoo and inches away from hitting rock bottom. sigh. why does it all have to be so hard. i hate watching haesoo and taekyung fuck. its horrible to me. ugh. i just realized they never made a character serve as the purpose of making haesoo jealous for joowon and its kind of a shame. i want him to realize how miserable he'd be if joowon put him in the same situation right now. but then again its situations like that which lead them to this fuckin disaster of a relationship. joowon u stupid cutiepie you. i hate you but nowhere near much i love you. mina best girl btw, shes great and funny i wanna be just like her. if hes got nothing else by the end of this at least taekyung has some great friends by his side :,). ahhhhh. im finally done. after countless hours and almost 4 days. probably the longest ive spent reading a manhwa fs. i loved it but i also didnt. im definitely happy with the ending and ofc as an avid joowon stan i never wavered for even a second but it was rough to see taekyung and haesoo in a relationship for so long. they really didnt have much chemistry at all imo. its like what happens when two introverts are together, just so much overthinking and little actual payback. that said, joowons a manipulative and condescending lil bitch for an extrovert sometimes. its ok tho he suffered enough. ive said this before but i relate heavily to haesoo and his character gave me a lot of comfort in a sense. a lot of feelings that ive had felt validated by him and i wanted him to do better for himself. its like yelling at urself basically. overall it was definitely a very emotionally exhausting story and i had to take tons of breaks, read a few comforting stories inbetween and do a lot of analysis and comparisons to my own life while reading. i enjoyed it though. i do want to reread, especially to save the beautiful cover art and appreciate the art a second time but idk if i could go thru the whole taekyung parts again and joowon being pitiful scenes. ive never experienced smut as rewarding as the final sex scene. after everything they went thru, it was well needed and so well done. for the things i didnt like - first of all, the timeskip. i hate that shit, and tho i understand why their characters needed a break from e/o or whatever it made no sense to me that they lived apart for 3 whole years and only now really started a proper relationship. two, the fucking note that joowon wrote. fucking DUMBASS. it was so sweet and honest and it woudlve been fucking perfect but that absolute blockhead ripped it up before it got to haesoo. im so mad. i had anxiety that he wouldnt ever see it and then it actually happened. fucking hell. tbh this got to me the most. third, i wanted them to communicate more. i can obvi tell that haesoo is abundantly happy with joowon and hes super open and shares all parts of his life w him now which is lovely but idk i just want them to be mushy and honest about their feelings for once. they cant just rely on 'i love you's forever to get across all their feelings uknow? ugh these two really do just think too much. relatable tho. anyways yeah idk 10/10 whatever. oh i should say - this is beautifully written. i dont even know how its by the same ppl as fools. fools was also great but it had no where near this kind of depth and realism. i feel like the author MUST have experienced a toxic relationship themselves or smth bc sheesh it called me out way too often. everything was defined so well and the analogies were so interesting and sometimes kinda funny. the characters have SO mcuh depth to them and its apparent from the moment u meet all of them. this whole story just has a life of its own really and thats what sucks you in so easily. good shit, truly.

damnnnnn. that was really really good. bittersweet ending too. i feel so bad about kirino, he was so sweet and the way his mom reacted to him was awful and i hate that he had to go thru that. he wasnt even able to live a life of his own but instead one for his mom. ugh. he deserves better. you can appreciate your parents without giving up your happiness for them. if they cant accept you despite of that then they dont deserve your devotion. someone who isnt okay with you living true to yourself doesnt deserve a place in your life. he made the ultimate sacrifice and i understand why but i wish he hadnt. on the other hand, mishima and yumeno are really sweet together and im happy they ended up together. the whole yumeno being sus portion kinda had me hating him but its definitely kinda realistic of a guy realizing just exactly what it means to be gay for the first time. yeah, and he came thru when it mattered the most so i support them. theyre a very pretty pair. mishimas mom is the best and so damn cool. that fuckin teacher is so gross and his backstory only makes him seem more disgusting tbh. pedophiles should fuckin die no exceptions. i hope the corpse they found on that mountain or whatever was him. this was great tho really 10/10

ah man lots to say about this. its a really relatable read about depression, anxiety, eating disorders, self harm, discovering your sexuality, fear of independence and lack of routine, heavy reliance on parents and sexual awakening. lots of these things ive dealt with myself and some i have yet to figure out tbh. its extremely nice to seeing this all from a womans point of view, bc everything ive read or consumed so far about these kind of stories where the mc struggles with self care and hygeine or having issues with becoming an adult and fulfilling responsibilies have all been from a male pov and it made me feel alienated as if i just wasnt a good enough girl. but i feel so relieved after this. i mean i know im not alone but i just really felt this authors perspective and im really happy for her finding her sweet nectar or whatever. i mean i have no idea what im doing in my life rn and im definitely still the version of "myself thats trying to please my parents" and i dont think i have the confidence to steal the wheel from her yet but this made me realize that there are two seperate people inside me and i have no idea what the "real me" even really wants. i dont have any interests or hobbies that i could do for a living either. im interested in trying to share my thoughts on life and things but i dont think anyone would want to listen. nevermind the fact i have zero committment towards these kind of impulsive projects. idk. i guess ill figure it out someday though. anyways this made me self reflect a lot and it was kind of a heavy read but i enjoyed it 9/10

agh what the fuck. im so sad. i teared up after somas live performance but it got so much sadder. why couldnt they just be together. ugh fuck why do i read tragedy in the first place. sigh. this was really really fucking good. i always feel like this author makes hits or misses but this is probably by fav thing by them. sigh. im so sad. 10/10 made me feel so many things.

damn im really glad i kept reading this one! it was really cute. i almost dropped within the first like 20 chapters but i decided to stick w it bc of the good ratings and im honestly really happy i did. the story is so endearing and i loved both the couples so much. at first i didnt really like any of the characters and even winter seemed a little bit off to me but i grew so fond of all of them over time. not so much roy tho tbh i know the most "tugs heartstrings" moment of the story was w him losing his memories and stuff but honestly i just found him annoying and untrustworthy the entire story. what he did was so selfish and even in his most human moments he put his own feelings above winter's. hes not THAT bad tho. i loved adora from the beginning and i thought she deserved so much better tbh but i love her personality and she made zoe into a somewhat likable asshole instead of just an asshole. zoe is so mf fine tho i died everytime he would show up. their scenes and the general pacing of their relationship was lovely too. like watching zoe realize his genuine feelings for her and her unwavering faith in his love for her was great. it makes me a bit sad knowing that he'll eventually have to watch her grow old and die tho. i wonder what he'll do after that. especially since winter is human too now so he won't be there either. jane was kinda meh to me at first and i think my turning point for her was when she started to fall for winter but i gotta say watching her beat the shit out sarah was fucking great. really solidified my feelings for her LOL. shes so badass. OK SO winter. hes literally baby. i love him sm. hes so innocent and kind. tbh idk if its just childlike behaviour but he kinda struck me as someone on the autism spectrum? which only made him more endearing but yeah. brought some well needed humour and innocence to the plot. he didnt deserve the things that happened to him. i attribute most of my weird feelings abt the characters and plot to the odd artstyle, since it was definitely a bit creepy in the beginning. idk if maybe i just got used to it or it really did get 10x better but i really like it now. it totally suits the vibes of the story. i cant say everything in the plot made sense tbh but like i just love the characters sm that ill look past it 9/10