bokutotiddies's manga / #sad(44)

bro how is it gonna end just like that dklfsdfks. they rly said lets spend 5 chaps on everyone else's backstorys and wrap up the entire plot in half a chapter?? what abt the graduation? and do they end up living together afterwards? tbh i really liked the story even w the lack of proper romance but the ending is kinda ruining it for me. i hope some extra chapters or side stories get released bc thats a bummer. the concept was really cool and i liked everything leading up to the ending but whatever ig.

ayyy hara-sen finally got himself a boo. even if its mad illegal LOOOL. at least he waited until he graduated jdlfks but what is that, more than a 20 yr old age gap? yikes. i kinda hated hara-sen in doukyuusei but hes actually pretty endearing. hes been hurt everytime he pursued love in the past, tho lowkey its his fault for going after ppl he knew were either taken or in complicated situations. but he looked past the one person actually pursuing him. overall, pretty good. the second couple rly added some spice to it. it was kinda painful to see actually. after reading more abt them its nice to see them in a normal relationship but damn theyve been thru so much. overall poor harasen lol. tbh even their relationship kinda dwindles out after the timeskip in the next story tho. poor guy sldkfjs. also, they both def have top vibes.

this was so good. definitely my fav in the entire series so far. ugh i lowkey wanted to read this bc it had yaoi in the tags, but i wasnt expecting to have my damn heart broken ugh. i love them together so much it was so fucking painful to see them apart. and sajous mom was the best person ever, it literally shouldve been his dad that died fuck him. hikaru shaving his hair off hurt me so much sob but they love each other so much that its okay. the wedding was adorable and im sad its all over now. ugh theyre such a great couple. reading more analysis on their fight and it makes so much sense why sajou felt the need to break up, and how it truly came full circle when he finally managed to stand up to the embodiment of his own internal homophobia for hikaru by standing up to his dad and choosing hikaru instead. sob so good ugh. i def wanna reread this when the official translations come out. i hope they animate this blanc too bc its really great. i have to say, this entire series is really endearing but not in a way im used to. usually i wouldnt really love these kind of reads (prior to blanc i mean) and was even sorta underwhelmed after the movie, but i really ended up liking the whole aesthetic by the time i got to here. not just the artstyle and the dialogue but the realness of their relationship. i felt like i couldnt tell how much they liked each other in the first story, even if they said they did. blanc was so necessary to prove to e/o how much they truly meant to one another. they practically fell in love a second time. anyways i didnt realize just how long this series would be when i decided to watch the movie but it was worth it. 9.5/10 (-0.5 bc of the translations/scans affecting the reading experience tbh otherwise 10)

bro . BRO. this is like a fucking 20/10. so fucking good. i think this is my new fav bl. what the fuck. this is incredible. i thought it wouldnt get better than the og story but this is SO MUCH BETTER. holy shit. it had everything. first of fucking all, these are the hottest men i have ever seen. bro this author really does always hit different. anyways - there was some GOOD ASS ANGST. THE BACKSTORY WAS SO FUCKING SAD. minato is a super relatable and great character (and slightly toxic but its due to his upbringing) and it was so great seeing how he developed over the course of the story. shizuma is dare i say the best fucking top i have ever read? hes incredible. i did think he fell in love too quickly but he is so loyal and committed to making sure that he brings out the best in minato and treats his partner like literal royalty. hes perfect. and hes a vet! ugh my dream man. hes bi too so sorry minato ik ur mad insecure abt this but i will go for ur man if u dont want him. hes just so reassuring and understanding i dont understand why men irl arent like this.i get just as possessive as minato, even if i dont have the excuse of a traumatic childhood, so i really do understand where hes coming from. once again confirming my hypothesis that opposites make the best couples. anyways theres a sequel to this so i am excited i cannot get enough of these two. OH BTW THE SMUT. HOLY SHIT ITS SO HOT. LIKE WOWOWOW.

this was alright. i dont really love the main couple tbh. also the plot seemed just a bit messy. like the motivations behind each character werent really fleshed out that well. siwon falling for siwoon was paced well but siwoon was so absolutely shit at communicating abt anything, even when siwon would ask multiple times. tbh every character other than siwon was kinda awful. i also love taemin, like the og taemin, sm i really wish there couldve been more of him. he was so hot too, literally hotter than the actual seme. also smth that felt so unfufilling to me is that the siwon who commit suicide never got justice. yes they got that recording of his piece of shit brother confessing but the fuckers who raped him never paid for it and his death was wholly meaningless. a fucking person died and no one even mourned him. he was so nice and sweet to everyone too. thats ... really messed up i dont like that. even the main good guys in the story didnt give a fuck abt him. my fav part of the entire thing was seeing taemin beat up siwons bullies and create a hardass reputation for himself, that was great. anyways yeah this was pretty meh. 6/10

ao haru ride was definitely a ride to say the least lol. i liked the anime but honestly i cant understand why they decided to animate such a tiny portion of the story and literally none of the main plot. the manga was so GOOD and the character development for both kou and futaba was done so so well. i have to say the star of the show is kou of course. this man had me experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions everytime he was present. i have many many mixed feelings for him but overall im extremely happy with his character at the end and i support them w most of my heart. touma is too lovable and wonderful for me to forget about him tho. hes the best boy ever and i hope hes able to find happiness somehow. he really didnt deserve the pain and anxiety he experienced through getting involved w these two but he is the one who decided to persist so its on him. theres definitely way too many things to say abt the plot. ill do jot notes ig: - futaba is very admirable and mature. definitely one of my fav fls. shes very persistent and bold sometimes, which can get annoying to watch but if she wasnt as headstrong as she is she wouldnt have achieved eveything she set out to accomplish, which is inspirational. she goes after everything she wants w all heart. how can u hate that. - kou's backstory is really dark and makes him probably one of the most complex shoujo characters ive ever read. his guilt towards narumi broke my heart and made me borderline hate him, but honestly it just proves how good of a person he really is, even if he did it for himself. you can say what you want abt kou but he is extremely loyal and faithful to his friends and loved ones. his journey back to "tanaka kou" was so fulfilling and watching his personality blossom was so fun. but he really did make me hate him for how he turned down futaba. but yknow what? i have never seen a male lead repent for his actions and suffer as much as kou. the love of his life literally dated a 10/10 in front of his eyes and all he could do is watch from the sidelines. those moments made my heart clench for kou but also flutter for touma. now this is what it means to have two amazing male leads and an effective love triangle set up, even if kou always owned futabas heart and we all knew that deep down. i love these 3 characters so much and i have to say that ahr is def one of my fav shoujo stories thus far. 9/10.

fuck. ive been in tears for the last two chapters. this is so ... upsetting. i cant stop thinking abt how short life really is. its so short yet we deprive ourselves of the things that truly make us happy for the sake of others and society's perception of us. god its so fucking unfair. im not even part of this minority group but my heart sobs for anyone who has been in this situation. they grew old and had their own lives but still loved each other even after all those decades. god. its so painful. minseok never got married or had his own children. he waited his entire fucking life. ugh. UGH. i hate this so much. it was so happy and cute for so long that the last couple chapters hit me like whiplash. life is so fucking fleeting. damn i didnt think that id have an existential crisis before noon today. this is why it hurts sometimes looking at old people; wondering what regrets they have, those they had to leave behind, the thoughts that have lingered in their minds for longer than ive lived. its just too sad. i feel like i need to live my life to the fullest while im still young and in my prime. fuck. anyways. this was really really good. it kinda phased me for a bit bc it is quite literally based on vkook - you cannot argue that it isnt, ive read far too many ao3 vkook fics to know all the cliches - but i got over it at some point and started getting absorbed in the story. old timey stories always kinda hurt bc they make me realize how quickly life can pass by. anyways minseok is the loveliest person ever and i hope he lives a very long and happy life even after all this and they are reunited in their next lives and are able to get together openly in uni and say they love e/o proudly. :,) 9/10 oh god im back bc i just played the song unchained melody and read the lyrics and im stupid for kinda skimming over them while reading but i see all the connections now sob, this is so much more painful now.

15/10 for sure. incredibly well-written. i dont think ive read such a political bl yet, but this was a perfect, angst-filled story. even tho my heart was uneasy almost the entire read, im beyond happy that everyone who deserved a happy ending, received exactly that. connor and simon have one of the healthiest relationships ive ever seen depicted and the love between them is something i dont think ill ever experience myself but i grew to adore them a lot. connor, specifically, is my favourite character and i was constantly on standby to fuck up a bitch if anything bad ever happened to him. simon, oh hopelessly in love simon, suffered a fucking ton pretty much all of the second half of the story. like honestly the man couldnt catch a break, but ig thats what he had to go thru to be forgiven for being white LOL. there were a lot of extremely dark and graphic things in this manhwa that made it really hard to digest. rape and murder are always disgusting but racial/homophobic discrimination just makes my heart super heavy and all three of them are a lethal combination thats not good for the mental health tbh. regardless im glad i read this. it was very deep and interesting; i loved what the author had to say on these topics. the artstyle was a little weird and i dont think i ever really got completely used to it (especially bc simon looks like fucking jake paul and connors long hair is so damn ugly please) but its fine the story being told goes beyond shit like aesthetics. gale was fucking psychotic and i still dont get what his deal is but i dont care as long as he leaves my bbs alone. that fucking bitch veronica is a parasite and ruined their lives and for fucking what? bc of an asian fetish? revolting. dumb cunt deserved to die. actually this is one of the few stories where the ppl who should die actually totally did die! quite painfully too. its really cathartic. the entire section w connors family finding out abt them literally gave me nightmares and made me feel so sick. i cant imagine something like that happening. good thing his mom is a sweetheart with an open mind. religion is so fucking bullshit honestly if it makes you think you have the right to interfere with someone else’s happiness. people are inherently hateful and violent and will always seek the weakest amongst them to band together against and hurt. fuck society and fuck what others have to say. its all bullshit. we should all just live our lives as we please and let others do as they please. ugh whatever. anyways this was great, definitely cannot stomach a reread tho.

this was alright tbh. i liked how it ended but ngl they kinda come across as somewhat incompatible. i mean taehyun is so damaged and insecure that he needs to be w someone who is like willing to go the extra mile that he isnt able to himself. i find myself really relating to his feelings abt his relationship; not wanting to risk anything by pestering the other person so we bottle it all up until we resent them and ourselves for doubting them in the first place. ugh. dayeol is really sweet and im glad he ended up forgiving taehyun for being so wishy washy abt the whole liking thing but maybe he also deserves someone who is more cheerful? this is a case of introvert x introvert imo LOL. it never works as well as opposites do in relationships and im speaking from experience. but whatever. taehyun highkey scared me at first but he grew on me and i think hes adorable now. overall it was pretty good, 8/10.

ah this was kinda sad. i liked it though. it kinda managed to capture the despair of life and how truly constricting everything this. people are so narrowminded and selfish towards others. im honestly surprised i havent come across people like that myself. but im only just entering the adult world now so im sure i will at some point. ive been blessed to be surrounded by kind or at least good at heart people til now. my worldview based on my experiences should be rainbows and sparkles but i know better bc of all the media ive consumed displaying how most of the world is the exact opposite. i dont deserve consolance as much as the good people who have been exposed to these parts of society but i wish i had my own angel. im so lonely lol. anyways, this was a good one. it was dark and depressing but the moments between them were really funny and mostly lighthearted. my heart sank when i realized the angel disappeared but im really glad they were finally able to meet once again in heaven. i wouldnt even classify this as shounen ai tbh its more like a friendship that transcends age. 8/10