bokutotiddies's manga / #regret(4)

oh my god so many things to say. i adore both of them so much. at first i really didnt like yoonseul and thought he was super selfish and i was hoping he would end up repenting for all that but i wasnt expecting thiS LEVEL OF ANGST LIKE GODDAMN. i literally teared up at the end bc of how much he was going through just to confess his love to joon. like. i almost turned on joon (an actual sweetiepie who is probably the only reasonable character and i actually really admire his resolve and dignitiy) bc i felt so bad for yoonseul. i dont think ive ever agreed w an author more when they said their three fav keywords were beauty, regret and unrequited love. i have found my type of author hehe. and i LOVE the "regretful ex lover" trope so much. its reminiscent of bj alex actually. but this rendition is so much more satisfying bc joon didnt give in within like 5 mins and actually made him ~suffer~. it was almsot too much angst like i was dying for him to be forgiven. he truly made up for his mistakes yanno. i came to love yoonseul so much tho hes so pretty and honestly his thought process is actually very realistic and two dimensional. also his jealously is TOP NOTCH. like his constant possessiveness is turned on the exact button within me that i wanted. anyways im so excited abt s2 being mature oof.

i loved it!! i was a bit wary starting this bc i had heard that it was toxic, but personally this kind of story perfectly fit my interests. we had the PERFECT amount of jealousy and angst, props to the fact that there was never a second male interest and jiwon and dg consistently stayed interested in only e/o. the angsty section of the plot was so well done and i was so so proud of dg for standing his ground. i also came to love jiwon even though i honestly disliked him for like most of the first half. dg also gave me SEVERE anxiety bc that mf is just too damn bold and it had me slapping my forehead like every 10 mins. i ADORE the fluff it was so much fun and so cute to see them being all domestic in the side story. the other couple was also cute but the smut kinda wasnt my type. speaking of, perhaps too much smut in the story overall but its okay bc all the scenes of dg being a cutie makes up for it. anyways 10/10 i loved it and im sad its over

ao haru ride was definitely a ride to say the least lol. i liked the anime but honestly i cant understand why they decided to animate such a tiny portion of the story and literally none of the main plot. the manga was so GOOD and the character development for both kou and futaba was done so so well. i have to say the star of the show is kou of course. this man had me experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions everytime he was present. i have many many mixed feelings for him but overall im extremely happy with his character at the end and i support them w most of my heart. touma is too lovable and wonderful for me to forget about him tho. hes the best boy ever and i hope hes able to find happiness somehow. he really didnt deserve the pain and anxiety he experienced through getting involved w these two but he is the one who decided to persist so its on him. theres definitely way too many things to say abt the plot. ill do jot notes ig: - futaba is very admirable and mature. definitely one of my fav fls. shes very persistent and bold sometimes, which can get annoying to watch but if she wasnt as headstrong as she is she wouldnt have achieved eveything she set out to accomplish, which is inspirational. she goes after everything she wants w all heart. how can u hate that. - kou's backstory is really dark and makes him probably one of the most complex shoujo characters ive ever read. his guilt towards narumi broke my heart and made me borderline hate him, but honestly it just proves how good of a person he really is, even if he did it for himself. you can say what you want abt kou but he is extremely loyal and faithful to his friends and loved ones. his journey back to "tanaka kou" was so fulfilling and watching his personality blossom was so fun. but he really did make me hate him for how he turned down futaba. but yknow what? i have never seen a male lead repent for his actions and suffer as much as kou. the love of his life literally dated a 10/10 in front of his eyes and all he could do is watch from the sidelines. those moments made my heart clench for kou but also flutter for touma. now this is what it means to have two amazing male leads and an effective love triangle set up, even if kou always owned futabas heart and we all knew that deep down. i love these 3 characters so much and i have to say that ahr is def one of my fav shoujo stories thus far. 9/10.

sighhhhh. it feels good to have read a nice satisfying bl read again. its been a hot minute since the last one. this was really really good and i loved the themes and characters. skyler is an absolute sweetheart and i adore him. yeah, he sucked at first but the amount of regret and guilt he felt made up for it. his mom is the worst bitch alive and i would fucking run her over if i ever got the chance. my baby deserved so much better than the digusting excuse for parents he had. at least hes rich and had a great friend growing up. the more i think abt it it, the tropes were exactly my type. childhood friends x regretful seme x jealously and obsession. damn they really got me down to a t. anyways i had a great time reading this and it made me cry like twice. i teared up everytime skyler started talking abt his trauma growing up. 9.5/10