bokutotiddies's manga / #i cried(15)

okay. i loved this. im feeling so many SO MANY emotions rn for all the characters and im just mostly upset that its over. god. i dont know. im most perplexed on how to feel about yul. i understand that he was definitely fucked up and he was insane to go to the lengths he did. even in their relationship he was overly possessive and literally provoked a guy into harassing her knowing that she had severe issues with men. thats AWFUL and i know that. but i cant help but feel so fucking bad for him. his home life was abusive and refused to nurture him and he was bullied for no reason bc of his face. i can understand wanting to keep safe and being possessive of the frist person that was kind to you. mostly im just so glad he didnt die. its been a little while since ive cried so hard over a fictional character, but yul really made me sob. i just pity him so much. hes also so beautiful but terrifying at the same time i spent far too long staring at the panels of just him, even when he was yuri (especially her fits, they were sooo cute). i think it says something abt how great of a character he is that i loved him so much despite everything he did (maybe the fact that he looks exactly my type also has a role in that yikes). i really wanted him to have a happier ending. it was left pretty ambiguous but i suppose knowing that he was able to move on is enough. i swear its always the characters i care most about that are given ambiguous endings. i really liked yujin a lot, even from the beginning. he was adorable once he fell in love w her and after the timeskip but i loved the brief banter we got from them in the beginning too. i was able to root for him and sian even while lowkey rooting for yul bc of how great yujin was. sian made me a little angry at times but i did like her character development after the timeskip. and i think given everything she went thru she has the right to be a little weird. the art is gorgeous of course and im really happy that i was able to read the majority of it on lezhin. i enjoyed this sooo much i started worrying about it ending from like chapter 20 loool. i was also surprised that this wasnt a BL tbh i went into this thinking it was. i was also expecting smut, which HONESTLY wouldve been the only thing to make this story better. overall, 9.5/10 i really enjoyed it a lot and i wanna reread 100%.

that was actually so fucking good. and i didnt even realize it til i was like 10 chapters from finishing. there were so many things that almost detered me and so many points i actually almost dropped it at but im so glad i didnt. i really REALLY liked how realistic everything was. people dont act like characters in most manga or manhwa stories, so i was really annoyed when everything didnt work out like it usually does in other stories. only then did it hit me how realistic it was. i probably wouldve acted the exact same way junwoo did in so many situations, even tho while reading it i found him obnoxious and selfish. hes so real. i relate with him a lot. im so glad they ended up with each other and found the courage to move forward together. the story was actually so very dark but also very motivating at some points. i really liked how junwoo was the one who eventually gained the courage to take a step forward, despite all the people who were pushing for him to do it. i hate to say it but i also relate with the hikikomori lifestyle this past year. i havent done anything for myself in a long time and i hate myself for not moving forward. my social anxiety has also been getting worse so thats there. junwoo being told that its never too late to start something was really nice to hear. wooyeon's past made me cry and his ex lover's note was so sweet and inspirational it almost made me get up and start getting to living life. authors note at the end was also very motivational. ugh i'm annoyed w myself for disliking it at the start, i think it was the art style (only for the faces) that i didnt like. and also the bad translations for the first like 7 chapters. i liked how much plot > smut there was. the smut was good but a good plot always beats that. but overall, i really liked it 8/10 (if you asked me at the halfway point i wouldve given it like a 4, thats how good the ending was)

hi okay imma be honest this was one of the best bls ive read and the fact that it was so short is CRIMINAL but the way it had such an impact on me with such little content is incredible. this was so fucking great, from the characters to the plot to the structure of their relationship to the art style to the underlying message shared. im in love. ugh, i love kyousuke so much and i relate so much with the mentality of not knowing whether something is "right or wrong" and being too afraid to pursue anything that seems wrong. but hes also everything i want to be, from his self-assuredness and motivation and work drive. hes inspirational but pitiful at the same time. i cried reading this. i only ever cry for long ass works that have time to play w my emotions but this did it for me within the 5th chapter. i loved this so much. i want to read the rest of the authors works if theyre even half this good. ugh. so fucking good. 10/10 literally. the only issue is that its so short. i could read 50 chapters about them and not grow tired. cant wait to reread.

fuck. ive been in tears for the last two chapters. this is so ... upsetting. i cant stop thinking abt how short life really is. its so short yet we deprive ourselves of the things that truly make us happy for the sake of others and society's perception of us. god its so fucking unfair. im not even part of this minority group but my heart sobs for anyone who has been in this situation. they grew old and had their own lives but still loved each other even after all those decades. god. its so painful. minseok never got married or had his own children. he waited his entire fucking life. ugh. UGH. i hate this so much. it was so happy and cute for so long that the last couple chapters hit me like whiplash. life is so fucking fleeting. damn i didnt think that id have an existential crisis before noon today. this is why it hurts sometimes looking at old people; wondering what regrets they have, those they had to leave behind, the thoughts that have lingered in their minds for longer than ive lived. its just too sad. i feel like i need to live my life to the fullest while im still young and in my prime. fuck. anyways. this was really really good. it kinda phased me for a bit bc it is quite literally based on vkook - you cannot argue that it isnt, ive read far too many ao3 vkook fics to know all the cliches - but i got over it at some point and started getting absorbed in the story. old timey stories always kinda hurt bc they make me realize how quickly life can pass by. anyways minseok is the loveliest person ever and i hope he lives a very long and happy life even after all this and they are reunited in their next lives and are able to get together openly in uni and say they love e/o proudly. :,) 9/10 oh god im back bc i just played the song unchained melody and read the lyrics and im stupid for kinda skimming over them while reading but i see all the connections now sob, this is so much more painful now.

ao haru ride was definitely a ride to say the least lol. i liked the anime but honestly i cant understand why they decided to animate such a tiny portion of the story and literally none of the main plot. the manga was so GOOD and the character development for both kou and futaba was done so so well. i have to say the star of the show is kou of course. this man had me experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions everytime he was present. i have many many mixed feelings for him but overall im extremely happy with his character at the end and i support them w most of my heart. touma is too lovable and wonderful for me to forget about him tho. hes the best boy ever and i hope hes able to find happiness somehow. he really didnt deserve the pain and anxiety he experienced through getting involved w these two but he is the one who decided to persist so its on him. theres definitely way too many things to say abt the plot. ill do jot notes ig: - futaba is very admirable and mature. definitely one of my fav fls. shes very persistent and bold sometimes, which can get annoying to watch but if she wasnt as headstrong as she is she wouldnt have achieved eveything she set out to accomplish, which is inspirational. she goes after everything she wants w all heart. how can u hate that. - kou's backstory is really dark and makes him probably one of the most complex shoujo characters ive ever read. his guilt towards narumi broke my heart and made me borderline hate him, but honestly it just proves how good of a person he really is, even if he did it for himself. you can say what you want abt kou but he is extremely loyal and faithful to his friends and loved ones. his journey back to "tanaka kou" was so fulfilling and watching his personality blossom was so fun. but he really did make me hate him for how he turned down futaba. but yknow what? i have never seen a male lead repent for his actions and suffer as much as kou. the love of his life literally dated a 10/10 in front of his eyes and all he could do is watch from the sidelines. those moments made my heart clench for kou but also flutter for touma. now this is what it means to have two amazing male leads and an effective love triangle set up, even if kou always owned futabas heart and we all knew that deep down. i love these 3 characters so much and i have to say that ahr is def one of my fav shoujo stories thus far. 9/10.

i read this a few days ago so my passion and fury towards this series has dwindled down a bit but honestly i still feel angry just recalling everything. this story was so fucking annoying. i cant even say the art or quality is bad, bc it isnt. the characters are also relatively strong so its not that either. its the fact that they all suck. except for toji i guess. im sorry, i dont get the hate for toji tho. sure he fucked up in the veruy beginning but that was literally bc he had no proof or reason to believe momo (and kairi DID see proof which is why he was able to believe her so easily, not to mention experiencing the same thing w his brother) so yeah i feel like everyone is collectively too harsh on the guy, especially when he was a wonderful bf afterwards and even threw everything away for her sake (tho he was way too harsh abt it ngl and couldve communicated w her abt what he was being blackmailed to do). he respected momo's relationship and only entered the scene in both cases when kairi was acting out and momo desperately needed someone to help her. not to mention the sad ass life this man has had in the past 10 years. we stan toji in this house and toji only. i didnt think they would pull the exact same thing AGAIN and leave the poor guy hanging and this time she rejected him AND his baby bro wtf. momo is polarizing bc i support and feel for her most of the time but i cant say shes flawless bc she also wavers a lot of the time between her priorities. the difference between her and kairi though, is that she was helping toji with his CHILD and didnt actively show interest in toji himself. kairi is so fucking stupid. its been a really long time since ive cried out of pure frustration but this man made me do it TWICE. its especially annoying bc he pulled the SAME shit in the first part, and went all "i never realize how much i love smth until its gone" and DOES THE SAME THING UGHHHH. he didnt even have a proper redemption arc in this part, literally just cried over her a bit at the end and got the girl. if 10 years of dating doesnt make you committed to a relationship, nothing ever will. i dont give a fuck abt "oh they both have someone theyll always waver for" NAH. THEN THEY SHOULDNT BE TOGETHER. FUCK THAT. honestly ive always preferred momoxtoji and i wanted it even more in this part. kairi is an idiot and i literally dont see these two working out. that dumb homewrecker nurse bitch was so pathetic too. imagine confessing to a kid a decade younger than you (and has a fucking fiance) and trying to sleep w another one. weird as hell bro, disgusting. i dont even have anything to say abt sae i just wished she fucked died in the ocean. shes a dumb cunt and i hope she never finds any semblance of happiness. ugh fuck this series bro its so bullshit. 5.5/10

so far its alright! i like the fl a lot, shes very headstrong and i highkey have a crush on her. the ml is absolutely adorable and i cried during his backstory just bc of how sweet and innocent he is. my only issue is with the pacing and the plot sorta too. the pacing was a real big issue the first like 20 chapters almost, i swear every interaction went on for like 4 chapters. and though its gotten better the plot is sometimes kinda repetitive and slow. also, though its got all the elements to have proper romance subplots, its actually kinda lacking in that field. maybe its bc of their personalities but there really hasn't been any development in that field even after 60 chapters - not to mention the ml was introduced after like 19 chapters. obviously the story is more like fantasy and has a focus on melissa and yuri's roles in the novel rather than romance but its a bit disappointing.

aghhh. all i'm thinking about rn is that i'm so glad i waited to read this now and didnt before chapter 50 was uploaded. to think that ppl had to suffer with that ending for 2 years. and it was an end - their lives ended that day. but im so glad we got closure and that they were able to find each other in another life. this is a story i've put off since i started reading bl bc i've heard about how sad and heartbreaking it is, and though it entirely lived up to those claims, it was also more sweet and wholesome than i was expecting. i didnt realize just how in love they would be. especially gusam, he was so fully in love with suchae and it was painful to see how helpless and guilty he felt in their relationship. but what could suchae do, he was just as in love and obsessed with gusam. i hate that they had to resort to that kind of ending, but im honestly glad they died together rather than having to get forced apart. every chapter i would grow anxious that it would be the last time to see them together and gusam would get captured and tortured, but it never came and im so grateful for that. i ended up growing so attached to gusam even when i was trying really hard not to bc i knew it would hurt to see him get wronged. their circumstances were so unfair it makes my blood boil thinking about it. that fucking rapist shouldve gotten sawed into 100 bits and pieces. im so glad he was killed and the detective fucker too, fuck him. though its an incredible story and i felt just abt every single emotion run through me while reading, the end feels so abrupt and incomplete. thought, i suppose that fits the motif of a rain shower. but i do wonder what exactly happened to gusam that day and if that kenma lookalike was the one who actually committed the crime. i wonder if the subplot with him and the wimpy dude was supposed to go somewhere. i guess if gusam had to die without knowing exactly what happened to him, we do too. ugh, this was painful but im really glad i finally read it - 10/10

ahhhh so much pain. so so so so so good. just, such a great concept and and even better execution. its tragic and supposedly ends with death but such a beautiful and sweet story. this is the first time ive thought to myself that a story was gentle. everything is just so melancholy from the beginning but it makes you feel so elated at the small happiness they find within each other and life. they grew to love each other so much its so sad but so damn sweet. ughhhhhh this is so fucking good. 1000/10. just a great read. fuck. i love every aspect i literally flew thru this. from the photographs of the vending machines and the thought process behind those seemingly meaningless pictures to the importance of making art and pursuing passions for yourself rather than others, i love every line in this manga. theyre such kind and generous people, even though their lives are "worth" 30 yen, theyd willingly give every last yen to each other. god it hurts. such a fucking good story. im so glad i read it.

ah this was really nice. i cried at the extra chapter when his mom called him all excited about the possibility of him being able to be recognized as a gay couple. sigh things like this with understanding parents always gets me crying. it makes me think about how i would personally treat my own potential not straight child. ofc like anyone who has kids im sure that ill want grandchildren but if i have more than one child and one of them comes out as LGBTQ to me i have absolutely no problems. tbh the only thing i feel like there would be a loss of is direct grandchildren but that doesnt affect my own relationship with my baby. why would it? i cant fathom people that treat their kids like shit when they muster up the courage to come out to them. ugh. anyways, this was a great read and im really proud of this stranger for the life theyve lived and hope them the best. 8/10