bokutotiddies's manga / #i SOBBED(6)

sob, this is the longest ive ever taken to read a BL story and i think ive grown really attached over the past 3 days. i love yuyang so much hes literally fucking me (actually too bc same age and aquarius gang) and i related so much w him even if he is way better at socializing than me. not to mention he looks like oikawa so you know i already had a soft spot for him before even starting. hes insanely beautiful too and literally my exact type. i want a yuyang of my own. lihuan is bb and the softest. they were so cute and i'm so happy for them. if im gonna be real honest with myself, the side couples were more interesting as couples, but yuyang is still my fav character probably in any BL ive read so far. yuan and huanwen are the absolute best part of this entire story. they're absolutely adorable and i wish nothing but happiness for them both. the fact that i cant get more content about them is making me want to pull my fucking hair out but its okay bc the ambiguous ending is well suited for them. the fact that they're together and boyfriends is enough for me (it's definitely not, i will be reading ao3 fics and looking into fa for them) but i just wish we got One kiss. just a single ounce of affection outside of handholding. i keep coming back and adding more but: this couple is the first one ive ever teared up for in the scene where huanwen greets another guy with the flowers before yuan reaches. i also teared up for yuyang when his parents finally accepted him. sob, it hurts. but i love them sm. uncle pan is hot as hell and i am v much attracted to both him and his yung ting. lihuan's dad is a sweetiepie and i really hope he is able to feel less lonely and happier soon. the translations bothered me a little bit in the beginning but im so glad i kept reading bc they got much better and i was able to really immerse myself into it after around the 20-30th chapters. i have to mention the lack of smut, which is not a complaint at all but i do wish we had seen them be more intimate. i think im simply just used to seeing sex scenes every 3 chapters but i really appreciate the amount of character and plot development instead. i think i definitely want to reread at some point but not anytime soon. i just miss yuyang and huanwen and jiyuan. sob, 10/10 overall. i loved it. edit: i thought about it too mcuh and now im sitting here with tears streaming down my face because huanwen deserves everything. he lost his paretns at such a young age and he prioritized his remaining family over fun his entire life and was the best behaved and hard working student and person his whole life and when he finally finds love, he still has to experience hardship. it hurts so mcuh he deserves everything and i know that they do eventually end up together but it hurts bc i need to see it and know how it works out. we saw him in pain pining for the longest time i just want to see more of him beign happy. he means the world to me right now and im gonna PRAY that we somehow get a small update on them, even if its really unlikely we will. fuck it hurts so mcuh idk how im gonna get over this. idk why but they really stucj with me and ive been thinking about them literally from the moment i woke up today. i miss them so much it hurts. i searched for fics or fanart or anything but theres really not much out there at all. i hope that by the time i reread, there will be more content for them. fuck.

halfway point - yo. the author of this story is so fucking mean. literally i just know that she lives to hurt reader's fucking feelings. i genuinely cannot keep reading this is hurting me. i have way too many fucking emotions and i hate everyone except for seth even tho i already fucking know hes the only one whos gonna get hurt in the end. this is bullshit. fuck sam bro. fuck him so much. i dont even feel anything towards him im not even interested in him whatsoever. his scenes w henry are so frustrating and make me angry ugh. he only likes being "needed" by henry its not actual love. he also put him thru so much that its ridiculous to expect him to still only have feelings for him after all this time. i think seth is kinda stupid for even getting involved in all of this mess KNOWING that henry isnt emotionally available and is still heavily confused abt his first love and persisting even after being rejected. this is so frustrating to read idk man i hate how this makes me feel but i guess i asked for angst and thats what i fucking got LOOOOL. chapter 50 - ive accepted defeat. whatever. i just hope sam redeems himself enough that i dont completely hate him. they better give seth a cute ass mans who actually DESERVES his love and sufficiently provides the same amount back. last chapter - im exhausted lol. i hated this entire experience. can say with absolute certainty that i would never ever even dream of rereading this. i hated it. it was a good story i guess and perhaps even maybe realistic in some sense but i hated it. we didnt even get to see seth move on in the epilogue. tho i desperately wished he would stop appearing only to get his heart broken. ugh what the fuck. i cried so hard. this was bullshit. they werent even a good pair (probably the most realistic part) and til the end they had such terrible chemistry. i havent liked sam since like the 5th chapter. i still despise him now. idk man i wanna sleep this story off it was so annoying. there were SO many points that i almost quit but i held it together in the hopes that seth would somehow find happiness. i couldnt have been more wrong lol.

this was so perfect. i fucking SOBBED like a baby reading this. i was in tears the entirety of chapter 3 and 4...my heart was so heavy i could feel my chest growing tight. this was unbearably good. i am so in love and also in so much pain for this story. yuki was the best boy ever and honestly he deserves better than akira but its fine bc that mf realized his mistake. even if yuki did lowkey take him back too easily smh he shouldve made akira SUFFER -__-. anyways i already miss this story even tho it caused me so much suffering i will 100% be reading again, its for sure one of the best things ive read thus far. such a lovely story and i loved seeing them grow old together. i would do ANYTHING to get more of them throughout the years. im thinking of even purchasing this if possible tbh. the symbolism with the white line was so wonderfully childish at first but then became so heartbreaking towards the climax. the last imagery with them disapating in heaven along a line of smoke was so bittersweet. ugh such a beautiful story i loved it to bits. 32982/10

ive spent way too long reading this and im at chapter 56 but idk if im gonna finish reading this bc of how heated i am rn. im at the part where they make up after their fight and ill be real fuckin honest bro he doesnt deserve her at all. "my punishment"???? hes the one who fucked up though? its not childish to feel insecure abt ur s/o going on fancy dates or 5 day trips w/ other women and being told that you shouldnt talk shit abt other ppl or that he cant deal with you when you express those insecurities is SUCH a red flag. the fact that shes the one who tried to patch things up w him first is getting me so heated. she deserves better bye. ik its not that big of a deal but i almost dont wanna continue reading bc of how wrong this rubbed me. ive been in love w him since the beginning of the story and his lack of personality or whatever didnt bother me but idk this literally made me cry. like full on cry bc she deserves so much better than that. thats the kind of convo that gave me serious relationship and social issues for years now. no one deserves being told that after opening up especially by someone whose opinion matters so much to them. ESPECIALLY bc he was demanding to hear her thoughts just the other day. ugh whatever. this is bull shit and i hate the way the fight was handled. i need him to suffer some more. also, why did he literally not try harder when to get her back when she was at his friends house. i can understand not wanting to lose ur friendship or whatever but thats your GIRLFRIEND BRO. fucking act like it. also what was the purpose of telling the other girl that he wasnt in a relationship??? you can hide ur s/o without lying abt that? ugh. i cant with this. i dont wanna read anymore but im marking it as finished bc ive spent way too many hours reading. that said, hes hot as fuck and id give him the best sloppy toppy of my life. i would let him crack me open like a pistachio but i really wouldnt wanna be in a relationship w him. hes hot as hell though. my entire "men." folder is probably just him. too bad itll leave a bad taste in my mouth now.

no, you dont get it. i sobbed when dandelion died. that shit was fucking brutal. i kept thinking he was gonna be okay until the funeral scene when the dam fucking broke. ugh. ik it was done for us to hate the king even more but did they have to kill off the one purehearted adorable character??? he was just a fucking CHILD TOO. thats....messed up. ugh. i miss him. he deserved so much better his entire life. imagine being born with a heart disease and having to grow up away from your home with your lovely mute servant raising you, to excited come back home only for them to torture and kill your servant and turn out to be awful monsters that lead you to your death too. it hurtsssss he was so sweet.

so so fucking painful. i still dont really understand what kind of dystopian setting they were in but it was so cruel and horrible. i cried so much during the girl's story and after her death. they went thru so much. im glad he was able to live a long life and find some semblance of happiness and family after everything he went thru. fuck bro this world is so awful i cant believe people have to live w such horrible circumstances. im grateful i have a peaceful and safe life but these kind of stories really puts it into perspective for me. 9/10 but my eyes are swollen from crying