sob, this is the longest ive ever taken to read a BL story and i think ive grown really attached over the past 3 days. i love yuyang so much hes literally fucking me (actually too bc same age and aquarius gang) and i related so much w him even if he is way better at socializing than me. not to mention he looks like oikawa so you know i already had a soft spot for him before even starting. hes insanely beautiful too and literally my exact type. i want a yuyang of my own. lihuan is bb and the softest. they were so cute and i'm so happy for them. if im gonna be real honest with myself, the side couples were more interesting as couples, but yuyang is still my fav character probably in any BL ive read so far. yuan and huanwen are the absolute best part of this entire story. they're absolutely adorable and i wish nothing but happiness for them both. the fact that i cant get more content about them is making me want to pull my fucking hair out but its okay bc the ambiguous ending is well suited for them. the fact that they're together and boyfriends is enough for me (it's definitely not, i will be reading ao3 fics and looking into fa for them) but i just wish we got One kiss. just a single ounce of affection outside of handholding. i keep coming back and adding more but: this couple is the first one ive ever teared up for in the scene where huanwen greets another guy with the flowers before yuan reaches. i also teared up for yuyang when his parents finally accepted him. sob, it hurts. but i love them sm. uncle pan is hot as hell and i am v much attracted to both him and his yung ting. lihuan's dad is a sweetiepie and i really hope he is able to feel less lonely and happier soon. the translations bothered me a little bit in the beginning but im so glad i kept reading bc they got much better and i was able to really immerse myself into it after around the 20-30th chapters. i have to mention the lack of smut, which is not a complaint at all but i do wish we had seen them be more intimate. i think im simply just used to seeing sex scenes every 3 chapters but i really appreciate the amount of character and plot development instead. i think i definitely want to reread at some point but not anytime soon. i just miss yuyang and huanwen and jiyuan. sob, 10/10 overall. i loved it.
edit: i thought about it too mcuh and now im sitting here with tears streaming down my face because huanwen deserves everything. he lost his paretns at such a young age and he prioritized his remaining family over fun his entire life and was the best behaved and hard working student and person his whole life and when he finally finds love, he still has to experience hardship. it hurts so mcuh he deserves everything and i know that they do eventually end up together but it hurts bc i need to see it and know how it works out. we saw him in pain pining for the longest time i just want to see more of him beign happy. he means the world to me right now and im gonna PRAY that we somehow get a small update on them, even if its really unlikely we will. fuck it hurts so mcuh idk how im gonna get over this. idk why but they really stucj with me and ive been thinking about them literally from the moment i woke up today. i miss them so much it hurts. i searched for fics or fanart or anything but theres really not much out there at all. i hope that by the time i reread, there will be more content for them. fuck.
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