bokutotiddies's manga / #depression(2)

ah this was kinda sad. i liked it though. it kinda managed to capture the despair of life and how truly constricting everything this. people are so narrowminded and selfish towards others. im honestly surprised i havent come across people like that myself. but im only just entering the adult world now so im sure i will at some point. ive been blessed to be surrounded by kind or at least good at heart people til now. my worldview based on my experiences should be rainbows and sparkles but i know better bc of all the media ive consumed displaying how most of the world is the exact opposite. i dont deserve consolance as much as the good people who have been exposed to these parts of society but i wish i had my own angel. im so lonely lol. anyways, this was a good one. it was dark and depressing but the moments between them were really funny and mostly lighthearted. my heart sank when i realized the angel disappeared but im really glad they were finally able to meet once again in heaven. i wouldnt even classify this as shounen ai tbh its more like a friendship that transcends age. 8/10

ah man lots to say about this. its a really relatable read about depression, anxiety, eating disorders, self harm, discovering your sexuality, fear of independence and lack of routine, heavy reliance on parents and sexual awakening. lots of these things ive dealt with myself and some i have yet to figure out tbh. its extremely nice to seeing this all from a womans point of view, bc everything ive read or consumed so far about these kind of stories where the mc struggles with self care and hygeine or having issues with becoming an adult and fulfilling responsibilies have all been from a male pov and it made me feel alienated as if i just wasnt a good enough girl. but i feel so relieved after this. i mean i know im not alone but i just really felt this authors perspective and im really happy for her finding her sweet nectar or whatever. i mean i have no idea what im doing in my life rn and im definitely still the version of "myself thats trying to please my parents" and i dont think i have the confidence to steal the wheel from her yet but this made me realize that there are two seperate people inside me and i have no idea what the "real me" even really wants. i dont have any interests or hobbies that i could do for a living either. im interested in trying to share my thoughts on life and things but i dont think anyone would want to listen. nevermind the fact i have zero committment towards these kind of impulsive projects. idk. i guess ill figure it out someday though. anyways this made me self reflect a lot and it was kind of a heavy read but i enjoyed it 9/10