bokutotiddies's manga / #based in the us(2)

fuck. ive been in tears for the last two chapters. this is so ... upsetting. i cant stop thinking abt how short life really is. its so short yet we deprive ourselves of the things that truly make us happy for the sake of others and society's perception of us. god its so fucking unfair. im not even part of this minority group but my heart sobs for anyone who has been in this situation. they grew old and had their own lives but still loved each other even after all those decades. god. its so painful. minseok never got married or had his own children. he waited his entire fucking life. ugh. UGH. i hate this so much. it was so happy and cute for so long that the last couple chapters hit me like whiplash. life is so fucking fleeting. damn i didnt think that id have an existential crisis before noon today. this is why it hurts sometimes looking at old people; wondering what regrets they have, those they had to leave behind, the thoughts that have lingered in their minds for longer than ive lived. its just too sad. i feel like i need to live my life to the fullest while im still young and in my prime. fuck. anyways. this was really really good. it kinda phased me for a bit bc it is quite literally based on vkook - you cannot argue that it isnt, ive read far too many ao3 vkook fics to know all the cliches - but i got over it at some point and started getting absorbed in the story. old timey stories always kinda hurt bc they make me realize how quickly life can pass by. anyways minseok is the loveliest person ever and i hope he lives a very long and happy life even after all this and they are reunited in their next lives and are able to get together openly in uni and say they love e/o proudly. :,) 9/10 oh god im back bc i just played the song unchained melody and read the lyrics and im stupid for kinda skimming over them while reading but i see all the connections now sob, this is so much more painful now.

15/10 for sure. incredibly well-written. i dont think ive read such a political bl yet, but this was a perfect, angst-filled story. even tho my heart was uneasy almost the entire read, im beyond happy that everyone who deserved a happy ending, received exactly that. connor and simon have one of the healthiest relationships ive ever seen depicted and the love between them is something i dont think ill ever experience myself but i grew to adore them a lot. connor, specifically, is my favourite character and i was constantly on standby to fuck up a bitch if anything bad ever happened to him. simon, oh hopelessly in love simon, suffered a fucking ton pretty much all of the second half of the story. like honestly the man couldnt catch a break, but ig thats what he had to go thru to be forgiven for being white LOL. there were a lot of extremely dark and graphic things in this manhwa that made it really hard to digest. rape and murder are always disgusting but racial/homophobic discrimination just makes my heart super heavy and all three of them are a lethal combination thats not good for the mental health tbh. regardless im glad i read this. it was very deep and interesting; i loved what the author had to say on these topics. the artstyle was a little weird and i dont think i ever really got completely used to it (especially bc simon looks like fucking jake paul and connors long hair is so damn ugly please) but its fine the story being told goes beyond shit like aesthetics. gale was fucking psychotic and i still dont get what his deal is but i dont care as long as he leaves my bbs alone. that fucking bitch veronica is a parasite and ruined their lives and for fucking what? bc of an asian fetish? revolting. dumb cunt deserved to die. actually this is one of the few stories where the ppl who should die actually totally did die! quite painfully too. its really cathartic. the entire section w connors family finding out abt them literally gave me nightmares and made me feel so sick. i cant imagine something like that happening. good thing his mom is a sweetheart with an open mind. religion is so fucking bullshit honestly if it makes you think you have the right to interfere with someone else’s happiness. people are inherently hateful and violent and will always seek the weakest amongst them to band together against and hurt. fuck society and fuck what others have to say. its all bullshit. we should all just live our lives as we please and let others do as they please. ugh whatever. anyways this was great, definitely cannot stomach a reread tho.