bokutotiddies's manga / #angst level: extreme(14)

this was so perfect. i fucking SOBBED like a baby reading this. i was in tears the entirety of chapter 3 and 4...my heart was so heavy i could feel my chest growing tight. this was unbearably good. i am so in love and also in so much pain for this story. yuki was the best boy ever and honestly he deserves better than akira but its fine bc that mf realized his mistake. even if yuki did lowkey take him back too easily smh he shouldve made akira SUFFER -__-. anyways i already miss this story even tho it caused me so much suffering i will 100% be reading again, its for sure one of the best things ive read thus far. such a lovely story and i loved seeing them grow old together. i would do ANYTHING to get more of them throughout the years. im thinking of even purchasing this if possible tbh. the symbolism with the white line was so wonderfully childish at first but then became so heartbreaking towards the climax. the last imagery with them disapating in heaven along a line of smoke was so bittersweet. ugh such a beautiful story i loved it to bits. 32982/10

halfway point - yo. the author of this story is so fucking mean. literally i just know that she lives to hurt reader's fucking feelings. i genuinely cannot keep reading this is hurting me. i have way too many fucking emotions and i hate everyone except for seth even tho i already fucking know hes the only one whos gonna get hurt in the end. this is bullshit. fuck sam bro. fuck him so much. i dont even feel anything towards him im not even interested in him whatsoever. his scenes w henry are so frustrating and make me angry ugh. he only likes being "needed" by henry its not actual love. he also put him thru so much that its ridiculous to expect him to still only have feelings for him after all this time. i think seth is kinda stupid for even getting involved in all of this mess KNOWING that henry isnt emotionally available and is still heavily confused abt his first love and persisting even after being rejected. this is so frustrating to read idk man i hate how this makes me feel but i guess i asked for angst and thats what i fucking got LOOOOL. chapter 50 - ive accepted defeat. whatever. i just hope sam redeems himself enough that i dont completely hate him. they better give seth a cute ass mans who actually DESERVES his love and sufficiently provides the same amount back. last chapter - im exhausted lol. i hated this entire experience. can say with absolute certainty that i would never ever even dream of rereading this. i hated it. it was a good story i guess and perhaps even maybe realistic in some sense but i hated it. we didnt even get to see seth move on in the epilogue. tho i desperately wished he would stop appearing only to get his heart broken. ugh what the fuck. i cried so hard. this was bullshit. they werent even a good pair (probably the most realistic part) and til the end they had such terrible chemistry. i havent liked sam since like the 5th chapter. i still despise him now. idk man i wanna sleep this story off it was so annoying. there were SO many points that i almost quit but i held it together in the hopes that seth would somehow find happiness. i couldnt have been more wrong lol.

okay. i loved this. im feeling so many SO MANY emotions rn for all the characters and im just mostly upset that its over. god. i dont know. im most perplexed on how to feel about yul. i understand that he was definitely fucked up and he was insane to go to the lengths he did. even in their relationship he was overly possessive and literally provoked a guy into harassing her knowing that she had severe issues with men. thats AWFUL and i know that. but i cant help but feel so fucking bad for him. his home life was abusive and refused to nurture him and he was bullied for no reason bc of his face. i can understand wanting to keep safe and being possessive of the frist person that was kind to you. mostly im just so glad he didnt die. its been a little while since ive cried so hard over a fictional character, but yul really made me sob. i just pity him so much. hes also so beautiful but terrifying at the same time i spent far too long staring at the panels of just him, even when he was yuri (especially her fits, they were sooo cute). i think it says something abt how great of a character he is that i loved him so much despite everything he did (maybe the fact that he looks exactly my type also has a role in that yikes). i really wanted him to have a happier ending. it was left pretty ambiguous but i suppose knowing that he was able to move on is enough. i swear its always the characters i care most about that are given ambiguous endings. i really liked yujin a lot, even from the beginning. he was adorable once he fell in love w her and after the timeskip but i loved the brief banter we got from them in the beginning too. i was able to root for him and sian even while lowkey rooting for yul bc of how great yujin was. sian made me a little angry at times but i did like her character development after the timeskip. and i think given everything she went thru she has the right to be a little weird. the art is gorgeous of course and im really happy that i was able to read the majority of it on lezhin. i enjoyed this sooo much i started worrying about it ending from like chapter 20 loool. i was also surprised that this wasnt a BL tbh i went into this thinking it was. i was also expecting smut, which HONESTLY wouldve been the only thing to make this story better. overall, 9.5/10 i really enjoyed it a lot and i wanna reread 100%.

sob, this is the longest ive ever taken to read a BL story and i think ive grown really attached over the past 3 days. i love yuyang so much hes literally fucking me (actually too bc same age and aquarius gang) and i related so much w him even if he is way better at socializing than me. not to mention he looks like oikawa so you know i already had a soft spot for him before even starting. hes insanely beautiful too and literally my exact type. i want a yuyang of my own. lihuan is bb and the softest. they were so cute and i'm so happy for them. if im gonna be real honest with myself, the side couples were more interesting as couples, but yuyang is still my fav character probably in any BL ive read so far. yuan and huanwen are the absolute best part of this entire story. they're absolutely adorable and i wish nothing but happiness for them both. the fact that i cant get more content about them is making me want to pull my fucking hair out but its okay bc the ambiguous ending is well suited for them. the fact that they're together and boyfriends is enough for me (it's definitely not, i will be reading ao3 fics and looking into fa for them) but i just wish we got One kiss. just a single ounce of affection outside of handholding. i keep coming back and adding more but: this couple is the first one ive ever teared up for in the scene where huanwen greets another guy with the flowers before yuan reaches. i also teared up for yuyang when his parents finally accepted him. sob, it hurts. but i love them sm. uncle pan is hot as hell and i am v much attracted to both him and his yung ting. lihuan's dad is a sweetiepie and i really hope he is able to feel less lonely and happier soon. the translations bothered me a little bit in the beginning but im so glad i kept reading bc they got much better and i was able to really immerse myself into it after around the 20-30th chapters. i have to mention the lack of smut, which is not a complaint at all but i do wish we had seen them be more intimate. i think im simply just used to seeing sex scenes every 3 chapters but i really appreciate the amount of character and plot development instead. i think i definitely want to reread at some point but not anytime soon. i just miss yuyang and huanwen and jiyuan. sob, 10/10 overall. i loved it. edit: i thought about it too mcuh and now im sitting here with tears streaming down my face because huanwen deserves everything. he lost his paretns at such a young age and he prioritized his remaining family over fun his entire life and was the best behaved and hard working student and person his whole life and when he finally finds love, he still has to experience hardship. it hurts so mcuh he deserves everything and i know that they do eventually end up together but it hurts bc i need to see it and know how it works out. we saw him in pain pining for the longest time i just want to see more of him beign happy. he means the world to me right now and im gonna PRAY that we somehow get a small update on them, even if its really unlikely we will. fuck it hurts so mcuh idk how im gonna get over this. idk why but they really stucj with me and ive been thinking about them literally from the moment i woke up today. i miss them so much it hurts. i searched for fics or fanart or anything but theres really not much out there at all. i hope that by the time i reread, there will be more content for them. fuck.

i feel sick. what was the reason to fucking kill jaeha. there was nothing to gain and he deserved the best out of all of them. why show the same character suffering again and again. i hate this so much i feel so empty. what the fuck was this ending, i wish i hadnt read this. or i wish i stopped 5 chapters ago. this is bullshit. what was the reason to kill him. this is the most unsatisfying ending ive ever read. he doesnt even realize he killed his own brother. and why did he kill all those random people. just, what the fuck. i liked this so much but now i hate it. i wish i hadnt read. this is bullshit i feel awful. nothing was resolved????? it just ended in tragedy? what the actual FUCK. theres tears streaming down my face but i dont understand! what the fuck was this ending.

i loved it!! i was a bit wary starting this bc i had heard that it was toxic, but personally this kind of story perfectly fit my interests. we had the PERFECT amount of jealousy and angst, props to the fact that there was never a second male interest and jiwon and dg consistently stayed interested in only e/o. the angsty section of the plot was so well done and i was so so proud of dg for standing his ground. i also came to love jiwon even though i honestly disliked him for like most of the first half. dg also gave me SEVERE anxiety bc that mf is just too damn bold and it had me slapping my forehead like every 10 mins. i ADORE the fluff it was so much fun and so cute to see them being all domestic in the side story. the other couple was also cute but the smut kinda wasnt my type. speaking of, perhaps too much smut in the story overall but its okay bc all the scenes of dg being a cutie makes up for it. anyways 10/10 i loved it and im sad its over

fuck. ive been in tears for the last two chapters. this is so ... upsetting. i cant stop thinking abt how short life really is. its so short yet we deprive ourselves of the things that truly make us happy for the sake of others and society's perception of us. god its so fucking unfair. im not even part of this minority group but my heart sobs for anyone who has been in this situation. they grew old and had their own lives but still loved each other even after all those decades. god. its so painful. minseok never got married or had his own children. he waited his entire fucking life. ugh. UGH. i hate this so much. it was so happy and cute for so long that the last couple chapters hit me like whiplash. life is so fucking fleeting. damn i didnt think that id have an existential crisis before noon today. this is why it hurts sometimes looking at old people; wondering what regrets they have, those they had to leave behind, the thoughts that have lingered in their minds for longer than ive lived. its just too sad. i feel like i need to live my life to the fullest while im still young and in my prime. fuck. anyways. this was really really good. it kinda phased me for a bit bc it is quite literally based on vkook - you cannot argue that it isnt, ive read far too many ao3 vkook fics to know all the cliches - but i got over it at some point and started getting absorbed in the story. old timey stories always kinda hurt bc they make me realize how quickly life can pass by. anyways minseok is the loveliest person ever and i hope he lives a very long and happy life even after all this and they are reunited in their next lives and are able to get together openly in uni and say they love e/o proudly. :,) 9/10 oh god im back bc i just played the song unchained melody and read the lyrics and im stupid for kinda skimming over them while reading but i see all the connections now sob, this is so much more painful now.

i read this a few days ago so my passion and fury towards this series has dwindled down a bit but honestly i still feel angry just recalling everything. this story was so fucking annoying. i cant even say the art or quality is bad, bc it isnt. the characters are also relatively strong so its not that either. its the fact that they all suck. except for toji i guess. im sorry, i dont get the hate for toji tho. sure he fucked up in the veruy beginning but that was literally bc he had no proof or reason to believe momo (and kairi DID see proof which is why he was able to believe her so easily, not to mention experiencing the same thing w his brother) so yeah i feel like everyone is collectively too harsh on the guy, especially when he was a wonderful bf afterwards and even threw everything away for her sake (tho he was way too harsh abt it ngl and couldve communicated w her abt what he was being blackmailed to do). he respected momo's relationship and only entered the scene in both cases when kairi was acting out and momo desperately needed someone to help her. not to mention the sad ass life this man has had in the past 10 years. we stan toji in this house and toji only. i didnt think they would pull the exact same thing AGAIN and leave the poor guy hanging and this time she rejected him AND his baby bro wtf. momo is polarizing bc i support and feel for her most of the time but i cant say shes flawless bc she also wavers a lot of the time between her priorities. the difference between her and kairi though, is that she was helping toji with his CHILD and didnt actively show interest in toji himself. kairi is so fucking stupid. its been a really long time since ive cried out of pure frustration but this man made me do it TWICE. its especially annoying bc he pulled the SAME shit in the first part, and went all "i never realize how much i love smth until its gone" and DOES THE SAME THING UGHHHH. he didnt even have a proper redemption arc in this part, literally just cried over her a bit at the end and got the girl. if 10 years of dating doesnt make you committed to a relationship, nothing ever will. i dont give a fuck abt "oh they both have someone theyll always waver for" NAH. THEN THEY SHOULDNT BE TOGETHER. FUCK THAT. honestly ive always preferred momoxtoji and i wanted it even more in this part. kairi is an idiot and i literally dont see these two working out. that dumb homewrecker nurse bitch was so pathetic too. imagine confessing to a kid a decade younger than you (and has a fucking fiance) and trying to sleep w another one. weird as hell bro, disgusting. i dont even have anything to say abt sae i just wished she fucked died in the ocean. shes a dumb cunt and i hope she never finds any semblance of happiness. ugh fuck this series bro its so bullshit. 5.5/10

15/10 for sure. incredibly well-written. i dont think ive read such a political bl yet, but this was a perfect, angst-filled story. even tho my heart was uneasy almost the entire read, im beyond happy that everyone who deserved a happy ending, received exactly that. connor and simon have one of the healthiest relationships ive ever seen depicted and the love between them is something i dont think ill ever experience myself but i grew to adore them a lot. connor, specifically, is my favourite character and i was constantly on standby to fuck up a bitch if anything bad ever happened to him. simon, oh hopelessly in love simon, suffered a fucking ton pretty much all of the second half of the story. like honestly the man couldnt catch a break, but ig thats what he had to go thru to be forgiven for being white LOL. there were a lot of extremely dark and graphic things in this manhwa that made it really hard to digest. rape and murder are always disgusting but racial/homophobic discrimination just makes my heart super heavy and all three of them are a lethal combination thats not good for the mental health tbh. regardless im glad i read this. it was very deep and interesting; i loved what the author had to say on these topics. the artstyle was a little weird and i dont think i ever really got completely used to it (especially bc simon looks like fucking jake paul and connors long hair is so damn ugly please) but its fine the story being told goes beyond shit like aesthetics. gale was fucking psychotic and i still dont get what his deal is but i dont care as long as he leaves my bbs alone. that fucking bitch veronica is a parasite and ruined their lives and for fucking what? bc of an asian fetish? revolting. dumb cunt deserved to die. actually this is one of the few stories where the ppl who should die actually totally did die! quite painfully too. its really cathartic. the entire section w connors family finding out abt them literally gave me nightmares and made me feel so sick. i cant imagine something like that happening. good thing his mom is a sweetheart with an open mind. religion is so fucking bullshit honestly if it makes you think you have the right to interfere with someone else’s happiness. people are inherently hateful and violent and will always seek the weakest amongst them to band together against and hurt. fuck society and fuck what others have to say. its all bullshit. we should all just live our lives as we please and let others do as they please. ugh whatever. anyways this was great, definitely cannot stomach a reread tho.