bokutotiddies's manga / #abuse(2)

ugh what the fuckkkkk. idk. i cant feel satisfied with this. im obviously happy that he was able to escape that fucking situation but like. its only bc his abuser literally told him to go? ik its difficult for victims to choose to leave themselves but idk it just sucks that it had to be like that. also i think the issue w mamayo treating yumi like some precious china was never resolved? like yeah they both came to the conclision that its bc of him that yumi has this horrible tendency to put up with abuse with a smile in order to avoid looking "pathetic", but other than them now dating, mamayo doesnt really change. im just so frustrated abt the whole yumi and kan thing tho. after reading azami, i obviously understand why he became abusive in the first place but this is too much. like its irreedeemable and i hate the person he became. its tragic that he was pushed to that in the first place. i feel so bad for yumi he did not wrong in this at all. ugh. i just feel so conflicted and unsatisfied. i cant give this more than a 6/10.

PAIN, BUT IN THE BEST WAY. man i have way too fucking much to talk abt. okay first of all - I NEED TO TALK ABT THE CUTEST CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT IVE EVER SEEN ON A MAN. chi hwan is so so so adorable now. and that is smth i never foresaw myself saying even just a few chapters ago. he goes from being a murderous, opportunistic selfish asshole (he really isnt THAT bad tho just really sketchy) to an absolutely anxious and smitten puppy. i really didnt think id ever like him at some point but tbh he really just has a tragic past. idk if that excuses the senseless murders tho. oh well, hes a gentleman to my bb so ill overlook it LMAO. hes also really great at apologizing and being considerate of sooin at a level of maturity that is really attractive. at first i was bummed that sooins saviour wasnt as willing to love sooin as vice versa, but the role reversal in the second half really stole my heart. he is so wonderful to him and the fact that he needs him just as much, if not way more, than sooin needs him is so sweet. tbh i think sooins the one who needs to figure out exactly whether he truly loves chi hwan or if hes just extremely grateful to him and likes how loved he makes him feel. bc for chihwan its just pure love baby. sigh. speaking of - the role reversal??? brilliant. breathtaking, genius, never been done before. from selfish, powerful vampire and weak pitiful human to submissive link and confident, happy vampire. what a fucking glowup. and i mean SUBMISSIVE bro. the switch in chi hwans attitude gave me whiplash but in the best way. i dont think i have ever seen a seme cry out of love and anxiety for his lover in a story before. hes so sweet and in love. and seeing sooin so confident and honestly powerful was honey for my eyes. i love sooin so much hes so lovely and he deserves only the best in the world after the absolute hell that he was dealt. im not even gonna touch on the topic of that abusive fucker - just mad that they made such an asshole exactly my type in terms of looks ugh. the choi guy was really really pretty and i honestly pitied him at first but idk at some point i started to fully dislike him. his own greed caused his downfall but idk if the amount of hate chi hwan has for him is justified. regardless, he has too much innocent blood on his hands. listen - this story sent me into a whole vampire spiral. its not often but occasionally ill come across a piece of work that captures the dark aesthetic and sultry ambience of a vampire piece so well that i just fall completely down the rabbit hole for a little while and make my life abt emitting the same vibes. this time, i made a whole vampire playlist on spotify and browsed some goth lesbian clothes/decor. the first 10ish chapters already convinced me that this was going in my favs list. theres something abt this story, especially the first half, that does such a great job of capturing the vampire essence. its so sexy and interesting. idk maybe its the inimate touches and blood, the brooding mysterious men and their lengthy misfortunate histories. whenever i fall back into this, its the most bi-curious i ever feel, which is very interesting. like i really wish i had a goth gf right about now so we could gush over this shit and make out. lots of homoeroticism in vampire lore. i love it. i havent felt like actually turned on by yaoi in a while but did the job lmaooo. the v first sex scene was really hot. yeah anyways 10/10