bokutotiddies's manga / #Shounen Ai(93)

okay i have to say that i really relate with love's identity issues. this is smth thats been very relevant in my life for the past year but i really feel the whole "who am i really and is my personality just an act that im putting on to achieve a certain image whilst really ignoring the actual me?" way of thinking. i also completely understand the way love has allowed what seems like a trivial issue to snowball into this huge insecurity and wont allow him to make friends or socialize in anyway. as a really socially anxious person myself ik how relieving it is when you can open up to someone abt these things yet also feel afraid to do so in the fear that maybe its all in your head and its really not an issue at all but youve just overthought it to the point that something so stupid and easy to others is so serious to you that its debilitating and genuinely affecting your entire life. i get it. its been a rough year an a half. honestly at least love was able to create a persona that worked for him, i cant seem to change myself at all. but i dont think thats a bad thing. i think that coming to terms w who you are and truly just accepting yourself is the only way to achieve actual confidence. this is who i am, i guess. if people dont vibe w me bc of that then i cant help it bc this is me and theres nothing i change abt that. but at the same time, if its an issue to the point where it was for love, then change is welcomed and it was nice to see peach explain that to him "changing yourself for another person isn't deception, but effort" ugh i love it. anyways im rambling but now that im done, i can actually comment. so - i was PRAYING for some smut bro. this is one of those stories where i wanted them to fuck so badly i was disappointed in myself LOOOL. but damn we were robbed. especially when this particular mangka is like ?? so perverted? shame application??? i literally dropped it bc it was like 98% smut. u couldn't have sprinkled a few scenes here and there??? idk why I'm so devastated but ugh. also the ending was abrupt i agree w everyone else and i would've loved to see more of love and peach, but i think i realized at some point that the story really isnt abt them at all. i think romance is like the third category this series fits into after action and slice of life tbh. the emphasis was on the gang relationships as well as overcoming love's inner demons and uncovering his dark past. i actually really wish there was more of peach, other the fact that he's mad in love w love and is super strong, we literally know nothing abt him. kinda disappointing, especially when the first 15 chapters set it up as a romantic comedy - which i loved btw. i slowly got kinda bored tbh by the halfway point. but i did like it overall. it wasn't what i expected but it was still worth a read, even if it did take me legit an entire day. overall 7.5/10

i wanna congratulate this series for being the first to get me to spend solid money on it. i dropped 7 bucks, and i mightve only spent it on like 3 chapters but its still a feat. now, if it was worth it is another matter. i liked this but i cant say that i enjoyed all of it. i actually found it a 10/10 until like maybe around the 30th chapter? the way hyunwoo and subin's relationship wrapped up and subin's committment issues to his actual relationship is what threw me off. first of all, i understand that the appeal of this story is the realism. from the conversations between friends to the thoughts of someone who suffered an unrequited love, its all very real. i completely relate to the lingering feeling that you feel for someone who meant so much to you, to the point that maybe for a second you consider dropping your healthy relationship for a chance at one w them even if you know itll end badly. i get it, but that doesnt make it a satisfying read. its realistic but i dont really read these stories bc i want to read abt someone who makes the same stupid decisions as me. jun is honestly probably too good for subin and if i was him i wouldnt want to stay w someone i constantly have to feel insecure and paranoid abt. i cant say that any of this is subin's fault either tho. its not his fault that he fell in love w a piece of shit who in turn made him act like a piece of shit to someone who just deserves better. still, my heart soared whenever subin prioritized jun over hyunwoo, even if to the end, he still wavered. ig thats the realistic part of it tho. i dont hate hyunwoo at all and i dont necessarily think hes at fault for everything either. subin forced his feelings onto hyunwoo and made him feel uncomfortable multiple times but hyunwoo was also really inconsiderate abt his feelings and deliberately tried to stomp all over them. he also hid the fact that they sorta slept together and played w his feelings when subin finally began to move on. tbh everyone in this story is an asshole except for jun and dongun. and yeona's ex, hes not that bad either. yeona's a bitch but shes so fucking cool and i aspire to live like her. she was ALWAYS spitting cold hard facts, regardless of who to, and the only person i always agreed w was her. i really really enjoyed the pace and story for the first half but it started to get kinda annoying to me. first of all, how can the fucking official translations be so shit. half of it didnt make fucking sense or seemed so off from the korean translation and didnt flow well. that alone annoyed me so much fucking much. subin and jun's relationship goes from like 0 to a 100 and then back to 0 in like 10 chapters. the flow of the story is so off sometimes, like some scenes were so out of place bc of the sequence and sometimes we'd sit and watch a convo between a main character and a random fucking person for like a quarter of a chapter. for no reason, like they wouldnt even be talking abt anything important. i think im only going off bc i actually spent money on this but i didnt like the ending either. im glad it was a happy one and i think every character ended up in the place that i hoped they would but the uncertainty in their relationship is so tangible that it bugs me. i cant really give this any higher than a 7.5. i feel really strongly abt this series but again, i cant say i feel good after reading it. it was still relatively worth it tho. the art is great and the characters are really fun. tbh the first 30 chapters were probably some of my fave that ive ever read. idk this was a perplexing read. i normally LOVE this trope too, and i love even more when the one in an unrequited love ends up in another relationship and the one who puts them thru suffering is the only one suffering in the end. so like, this is obvi my cup of tea but it just leaves me feeling bittersweet ig. i cant say i want to read more either, bc the more i read the more unsatisfied i feel LOL.

ayyy hara-sen finally got himself a boo. even if its mad illegal LOOOL. at least he waited until he graduated jdlfks but what is that, more than a 20 yr old age gap? yikes. i kinda hated hara-sen in doukyuusei but hes actually pretty endearing. hes been hurt everytime he pursued love in the past, tho lowkey its his fault for going after ppl he knew were either taken or in complicated situations. but he looked past the one person actually pursuing him. overall, pretty good. the second couple rly added some spice to it. it was kinda painful to see actually. after reading more abt them its nice to see them in a normal relationship but damn theyve been thru so much. overall poor harasen lol. tbh even their relationship kinda dwindles out after the timeskip in the next story tho. poor guy sldkfjs. also, they both def have top vibes.

this was so good. definitely my fav in the entire series so far. ugh i lowkey wanted to read this bc it had yaoi in the tags, but i wasnt expecting to have my damn heart broken ugh. i love them together so much it was so fucking painful to see them apart. and sajous mom was the best person ever, it literally shouldve been his dad that died fuck him. hikaru shaving his hair off hurt me so much sob but they love each other so much that its okay. the wedding was adorable and im sad its all over now. ugh theyre such a great couple. reading more analysis on their fight and it makes so much sense why sajou felt the need to break up, and how it truly came full circle when he finally managed to stand up to the embodiment of his own internal homophobia for hikaru by standing up to his dad and choosing hikaru instead. sob so good ugh. i def wanna reread this when the official translations come out. i hope they animate this blanc too bc its really great. i have to say, this entire series is really endearing but not in a way im used to. usually i wouldnt really love these kind of reads (prior to blanc i mean) and was even sorta underwhelmed after the movie, but i really ended up liking the whole aesthetic by the time i got to here. not just the artstyle and the dialogue but the realness of their relationship. i felt like i couldnt tell how much they liked each other in the first story, even if they said they did. blanc was so necessary to prove to e/o how much they truly meant to one another. they practically fell in love a second time. anyways i didnt realize just how long this series would be when i decided to watch the movie but it was worth it. 9.5/10 (-0.5 bc of the translations/scans affecting the reading experience tbh otherwise 10)

so! after watching the movie, ive decided that this is wayyy better animated. the story just flows nicer and since its definitely somewhat comedic, those scenes are translated better on screen. i skimmed thru most of this so this is kind of a review for the movie as well but overall i get the impression that its a sweet and wholesome love story. its pretty innocent and theres not really any major conflicts. both the characters are chill and tho im frustrated w both of them at diff points, its def nothing some good ol communication cant fix. the sensei was a perv and they really didnt do him any justice in the movie by not showing his perception of things loool. kuskabe is hot and my type lol. the movie was really good tho. it was really different from anime im used to but after spending some time on the series, im kinda fond of it now. i still dont understand why this series is just as popular as it really is but its by no means bad at all. 8/10

after reading the entire series, i have to say this is the most forgettable one, but im pretty sure this story was just simply fluff. ig its more abt harasens bg to sympathize w him. he was so hot when he was younger btw not sure what happened. kusakabe and sajou are adorable as always and the scene during graduation was such goals. imagine having your first time in the exact seat you met your first love. and that seat being in your high school music classroom. fucking wild. but goals. anyways this was cute

okay so this one was mainly focused on the like side couples and relationships and i can now say w certainty that none of them are even half as good as sajou and kusakabe. the fashion guys ex-lover was sexy asf when he was young but hes an asshole so forget that. harasens relationship doesnt really hit diff anymore after the timeskip. the one w the old ass teacher was sweet but i didnt really get a sense of their relationship either. its all meh aside from the main couple basically.

sob. SO GOOD. i love these kind of stories so much. i actually completely forgot that this is the same mangaka as kimi wa natsu (the one w the film enthusiasts) but i was comparing how similar the vibes were the entire time. now it makes sense. i love this overall vibe so much. its an innnocent, sweet love that leaves me yearning to see some affection. ugh so good. junpei is so SWEET, i love tops like this. also he kinda motivated me to be more socially confident. and bro leo is so damn pretty. i totally thought he was gonna be the one to fall in love first but i guess it makes sense that he isnt as open to emotions due to his upbringing and experience. im glad hes openminded even if im pretty sure hes not actually romantically interested in junpei loool :,). super cute 9/10

really good but ended too soon. i liked it more than i thought i would heading into it. i just like straight men realize they're bi and panic LOL. also, i will always love a good desperate and jealous uke. 9/10

i really liked this aww. their relationship fell into place so smoothly despite both of them being kinda depressing and awkward. their confession was so cute and natural everything just felt so accepted and wholesome. the art is also so so cool and i love the symbolism behind the laboradite. just leaves me feeling kinda warm and happy. 8/10