Remmy's manga / #Shounen Ai(1)

Sigh. I read the comments about this but wanted to see for myself and stayed up all night reading this & also went on to read the raws from ch 100-155 and finish the story. I really wish I hadn’t. *SPOILERS BELOW* Yoo wins ending…it didn’t feel good at all. Everybody got a happy ending but him. They framed it with him being ‘happy’ for them but they also made it clear he was not ‘over’ hee bum.. basically rather than getting a genuine bittersweet/feel good end, he just resigned himself to the fact that the person he loved would never feel the same way about him. He cried and questioned while Hee bum sat there and stared at him awkwardly. He ended up leaving by telling him to go after Jumi so he wouldn’t regret it, like he did. He said this with a smile as if it was supposed to be happy…but it wasn’t. It was sad, and made me feel weird. Swallowing your own feelings of love for someone to cheer for them to be with someone else doesn’t feel good at the best of times. It’s painful even in different circumstances but the way this happened in this particular story was especially so. I saw a lot of people complaining that people were only upset about the male couple not getting together b/c of fetishization but it’s not that at all. I wasn’t rooting for them to be together at all because I thought Yoo Won was toxic & manipulative. If you actually read the story to the end though the more the relationship is explained the more tragic it gets. Even so the buildup & storytelling gave me hope, I thought maybe it was showing me all this because they’re going to fix it in the end. They didn’t. I guess the main reason I’m so upset about this ending is as an LGBT person myself, Yoo Wons ending was all too real. In such a fantasy like story, why does the queer character get stuck with the ‘realistic’ ending? Why does he get the short end of the stick? Why, in stories like these, do we always end up alone? I guess the ending was supposed to be bitter sweet, but it didn’t feel like that at all. Reading this was all right at first but after a certain point it only brought up bad memories & in the end left me with nothing but negative emotions. I wish I never read it. So if you’re thinking about reading this hoping for some semblance of a happy ending, to echo another comments sentiments (that I ignored earlier) save yourself the heartache. It’s not even the good type of pain.