anxiety's manga / #Interesting(170)

discovering homosexuality ! honestly really like this one !

jeoh sells himself, and he dreams of someone intervening - a god. one day, after being driven to/from a regular client, red shows up and shoots the driver in the head. jeoh was there i believe, but not sure how he got out of that? iin any case, red hides at jeohs place and blond client arrives first. he waits for jeoh, and kind of forces his way onto him. red intervenes and kidnaps the both of them. red sympathizes with jeoh, and lets him sleep in the same room when jeoh mentions he is afraid of the client. he is somewhat trusted by red, or rather, red doesnt see him as a threat. he has no intention of killing them, and we know this because he's following the orders of his 'chess' teacher. she is in a difficult position, claiming that her husband is abusing her (i think he actually is abusive iirc) and she can't escape this situation. enter red head who does her dirty work, but he's awaiting his orders on what to do with the two captives. new detective is on her tail, and she kind of ghosts red and he gets agitated. she really just is using him it seems like. jeoh toys a lot with red beyond having sex with him, messes with his stuff and releases the client so that he beats red up only then to knock him out w ethanol lol. red isnt amused == so, turns out, chess teacher was also a sex worker (like jeoh) which explains why red sympathizes. in fact, she got married to her husband because she saw that as a way out. she didn't love him and was in fact very afraid. (red knows her bc he went to her district/work place when he was still completing his service and came back for her - though he was visibly disinterested in sex he was hooked onto her) he noticed how frightened and trapped she was, having no choice, and vowed to free her by killing the mfers (we love a vigilante) in chp 16, we see him having nightmare and crying - which is right after the flashbacks so i guess it has to do with the fucked up situation he found himself in bc of his love. he also gets a HARD ON when he kills (?) blondie so maybe he's a psycho/sociopath???? anyways jeoh's all in lol

poetic ready, almost feels like a seinen tomita was left to himself and seems to drift by in life, following the whims and just existing, until a fortune teller tells him he will have a fateful encounter. he then tries to seek this out, but the 2 men around him were not serious about him, and neither was he. he wonders whether he will ever fall in love, and if someone would ever love him as well.

this is so incredibly written - the characters are mature complex and; the author demonstrates the character's essence clearly through actions and behaviour (boguk being in love with mc and and offering emotional psychological support and wanting to have sex yet refusing categorically to date him saying it would be exhausting AKA KNOWING THEMSELVES AND THEIR BOUNDARIES AND HONOURING THAT) - and this corresponds to