Hidoku Shinaide
Dropped this. I know it's super popular but I never really got into it. First off it starts with rape and blackmail. I really hate the seme. Some say they just pretend the first volume doesn't exist but I just can't do that. But I heard that at some point Maya (the seme) would feel really bad about what had happened and apologise, so I continued reading even though it felt like it would never happen since they didn't talk about it at all. And Maya even made some comments sometimes where he remembers fondly their interactions in the beginning (=blackmail and rape) which I found very weird. Still, I hanged in there but when it actually happened (waaaaaaaaayy too late) it was so underwhelming!! At least Maya seemed to reflect a bit on it but what made me most angry and frustrated was that the uke was all like "what that happened so long ago, now let me give you a blowjob". Aaaargggh I feel so frustrated when they don't stand up for themselves. And it also feels so unrealistic! For something so traumatic it doesn't make sense for him to forget about it. And it was such a missed opportunity to actually have some deep talk, apologies and character development. I also never really found the uke all too interesting. He's a bookworm, kinda cute but also kinda boring and submissive.
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