Ethingan's manga / #Angst(2)

Lover Boy

Complete | Zec,제크 | 2016 released

There are so many people hating on Jaeha but describing Eunho as some kind of saint. Personally I think what Eunho did in season 2 is absolutely horrible! And I feel so incredibly sad for Jeaha. Spoilers As "WhatAWorld" said a few comments back: "[Eunho] initiated sex at [Jaeha's] workplace, shames him for actually being willing to do it, when they do have sex, he refuses to use protection or lube, is told it hurts, keeps going bc why tf not, shames him for having a dildo, etc etc etc - basically the same type of toxic shit that happens in other yaoi but I guess its acceptable because he got his heart broken?" And this is to someone who is already broken, sad, regretful and who believes he has no self-worth. Instead of helping him Eunho decides to break him even more. Eunho's toxic behaviour is TERRIBLE! This kind of shaming and using sex as punishment is the WORST! I HATE it! I freaking hate it! I think this hit me even harder than it usually does because it felt so realistic. I think one reason why this upsets me so is because it IS a real world problem. Men have always used sex and sexuality as a way of controlling, shaming, breaking and punishing women. And it's always women, and in this case the one taking the "woman's role" that is shamed the most. What Eunho did is not okay. Using sex as punishment is NEVER okay. It doesn't matter that you are angry and hurt! He also threatened and blackmailed Jaeha. That must have hurt so much considering his previous trauma with sex and blackmail. Honestly, I think I can handle violence. At least then it's pretty clear it's wrong. But what I really can't stand is this sort of humiliation and oppressive mental abuse, as in "you deserve this". Or saying that he needs to give a blowjob "on his knees" just to humiliate him further. Seriously, what Jaeha did wasn't good. But it's still his right to break up if he wants to. Considering Jaeha's abusive childhood, toxic first love and all other shit that he's had to endure in his life I'm surprised he isn't more messed up. He never had a loving family. The closest he got was Eunho's family. He believed he destroys everything around him. Eunho's sister begged him to stay away. I can understand why he didn't wan't to risk destroying the only good thing he had in his life. And while he did end up hurting Eunho that wasn't his intention. He was trying to protect Eunho in his own way (even if went about it in the wrong way). I think that is the difference between the two. Eunho tried to hurt Jaeha is much as he could, in the worst way possible, just because he was angry and resentful. Seeing all these comments rooting for Eunho as if he's some kind of innocent, wronged angel, while hating on Jeaha as if he's the devil himself honestly hurts me. I feel so bad for Jaeha, going through all that but people still believe that the one who sexually harasses him is in the right.

TIED UP

Complete | Mono | 2019 released

Beautiful art! Love the premise of the story and their dynamic. But why, when I finally find a power uke does he need to be so forceful and not respecting boundaries? Non-con not okay. Absolutely love the seme though. Has emotional impact even if it's short, though I hope there will be an epilogue or something because the ending was quite a cliffhanger and very unsatisfying. Aaaargh I usually hate the many toxic semes in yaoi, why is that when I actually find a great seme the uke is shit? Am I doomed to only be able to like one of them? Note to self: 1!?, 5