Unfinished Business
10/21/23 damn they’re both dumb af but so am i cuz i keep reading lmaooo waiting on that regret arc to hit for the seme and it better be good. i need him crying, groveling, crawling until his nails are cracked comments : Y'all don't understand him. Yah think it's that easy to accept? All his life, Jichan was living in a dream where his Mido was as sweet as candy and as caring as an angel, can't even kill a fly. He lived because of that. He's hoping that if ever he finds Mido, they'll go back to what they used to be, he's ready to accept his anger but in his mind, time heal wounds so Mido's going to forgive him and everything's gonna be the same. It's the expectation vs the reality. He just can't accept that his Mido became the person he is right now and the most painful for him is that the Mido right now was capable of doing something horrible as he just did, that just meant that his anger was so intense that he's able to do that. And if you think about it, what are Jichan's sacrifices for? - he also said in the earlier chapters that if Mido wont forgive him, its okay as long as Mido is okay and if not, he will do anything to help Mido be happy even if it means he's not in his life. This chapter is him basically realizing hi trauma from that asshole who claimed that he knows Mido but was actually Mido. He's not over reacting, its a trauma response - Ok ok I seriously believe he's not over reacting. Believing that the sweet child you loved so dearly has grown to be a monster and he hates you. He probably expected the hatred from Mido for abandoning him but who could ever imagine Mido would go this far. He'll how could anyone imagine such a horrible situation. Denial of your entire world falling apart seems like a natural course for his emotions to take. You'd want to try and forget your abuser but he's someone you loved the ultimate soul crusher. I'm just saying his spiraling is warneted.
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