Came for the Yaoi. Stayed.'s manga / #Dead crush(1)

Sakura no Hana ga Saku Koro ni

Complete | Yura miyazawa | 2019 released

Usually not into these plot lines of "I miss my dead ex so much, oh shit, this new kid reminds me of him", but this one didn't tie the new BF too much together with the Ex BF, so it felt so much nicer than any other I've ever read with this trope. This gave me a warm feeling, that wasn't exactly a /pang to my heart/, but it was okay. Like... A belly-rub. It's not a strong sensation, or even very pleasant. It's just... Okay. Nice. It makes your heart feel "Aw, this was nice and slow." The reason this story felt like it was more about moving on, than about being hung up (because he did think of the old Professor quite a bit), was that a)The Uke was thinking much more about how he was being reminded of the old Professor, rather than how it hurt so much he was never going to be by his side again and how he still saw the professor in everything around him (thank FUCK). Wondering if they were similar in some way? How he would shake his head and gently reprimand himself for thinking this. So it didn't become about the professor, anymore. b)They adressed it how he coulda just been into his old Seme. But it was actually believable. Because it seemed like the Uke actually DID fall for the new Seme, because of how he trully seemed attracted to aspects about the Seme which he simply hadn't focused on at all in his Ex. So it was because this felt like a new love, since the Uke was basically falling for the Seme here. Not like a continuation of a past love in a new person. c)When the Seme gives the Uke time, (this seems to work because it's specifically in this Manga) it felt like the Uke was genuinely aware of this, wasn't stressing over it and was taking this shit understandingly. And that the Uke actually looked over everything the Seme was doing with a clear head after that. The fact that it was mostly about the Uke getting OVER his Ex, not being hung up on all the old memories like he was wishing he was back, was what made this story: A) Bareable. So I didn't feel like he was going to be infuriating in the relationship with the new Seme, but also, B) Made this story touching, heart-warming and actually have a point that was worth getting some feels for. It was a pleasant ride of sorrow, where the guy had already been getting over the Ex at his own pace, and now just had that final push of joy into his life that openned his eyes. It was beautiful.