aiyaaaaaaaa~'s manga / #Yaoi(3)

I could not cry because tears betrays me mostly and stones of selective incidents is all I carry along to recall of things that I felt from..this happened here as well. prominently I could not let go of their past life persons... I am happy for Yahiro and Yoshitake in present and obviously resentful for the past ones you know cause they are different people because they literally were different in different time dimension..lives are incomparable.. ones life is his everything there is..and then others even how close they can be they still cannot queen the title of the particular life of other persons...so the past is like yo depression check.... I do not want to know my past life if there was a way.. I had wet something in one or two lashes at the end of my eyes and the story ofcourse heart pincher time and again when the past images overlapped and went all transparent passing through like they were nothing but hologram illusions because they really cannot be more now.... certainly at one point when Yosuke was standing against the window wide framed illuminating the vast light like new life metamorph high above the staircase falling down to our Yoshitake at toes and gave him hand calling Mikumo... I certainly felt I certainly felt void of what it is like trying to reclaim and grab and hold onto meant ..to be able to be reincarnated " have the mortal body you possessed.the same memory.the desired the person Infront of you that makes your existence the only reason you're heart is beating and then you don't want it to stop like any ticking bomb" BUT because you know why all this a NO. It will go like never before. Yoshuke had no Big tears yet predictable grief in smile and a forced facade of trying to make Yoshitake revisit and reborn .. clearly knowing how impossible even when he said 'you will remember it soon'. Just like so sure of what will come to him from his lover.. wistful yes I would want to like you do but we cannot right in this world' which actually did work that way when he got reunited to his lover. Forever but somewhere else.. not given that chance to live as you because now some other life is destined to be played by the same you... I felt how cruel... How cruel... Anyways am gonna assume they can continue being YosukeandMikumo in hella inseparable love and like human in heaven... Like they should have if not they died tragically... Life is so unfair

Wouldn't say it was a wholesome romance one would want atleast not fujoshisss( like me ) experimenting after so much emotional battles and still living up to lust and finally making to love of their lives... But the seme and uke both had their shares of bittersweet angst and a very unappealing demeanor of using anyone for their own purpose..gosh the women really need to take stand ..coz making love is about being treated good.. they act as if they are committing to some prayers and not fughjgkinggg and discipline the partners...guys you are whores yourself as well... before making it to a home of their own and ecstasic hugs limited to them only you sure did a lot of damage... nice to live wandering unaffected or so on and then the feelings get communicated and reciprocated make sense with the ones made for them