clown's manga / #psychological(6)

automatic one star for obvious reasons, it is not a story about good characters and actively depicts rape but i feel like i have to finish this whole series to be rid of it. the only good thing to come out of this entire series was the gl spinoff with gyerin and jooyeong because the characters weren't insufferable and the sex was actually good and CONSENSUAL. and at the very least the main story had more to it than just bad sex. they at least threw in some consensual shit. none of THIS is. it's just pure porn of one dude manipulating the other into a situation where he can continuously force himself on the other. it's not psychological either, like killing stalking, it's listed as BL. it's insulting. edit: looking at the main story vs the gl side vs the bl side i feel like the way this was written was intentional?? like it was set up to be a shitty story about a shitty situation & shitty characters. but then why not just list it as psychological in the tags.. the main one i understand not doing that and putting it as adult or something, but this one is so much more suited for psych? it doesnt seem to be completely glorified except mayybee at the end so i feel like the author knew what they were doing and wanted to write a story like this without making the relationship seem good bc till the end we saw that minho was miserable and stuck with him out of convenience or pity or something. idk. if it was psychological this wouldve been a good story but its not!!! so keeping the one star

very interesting read, also love how namsoo is drawn bc it makes him look cool lmao

psychological bl. just overall incredibly toxic but it's entirely intentional and not at all romanticized. people learn what an unreliable narrator is and that just because bum is "happy," it doesn't mean it's a good relationship or anything.

this is a very good read imo. i like the way the story is broken up into phases: trying to reconcile with unrequited feelings, struggling with past traumas and seemingly broken relationships, and growing and overcoming hardships with another. there is sa in cirrus's backstory but i'm very pleased to see that it was handled quite well. nothing unnecessary was shown, only enough to imply what had happened, and we focus on the mental scars it left cirrus with. i think the development and pacing was rather good as well. my only complaint is that i wish there was a bit more clarification on cirrus's side, specifically his family dynamics. i understand that his father grew to dislike him after cirrus's mother died and then tried to fill the void with other women, neglecting his child in the process and causing the deterioration of their relationship. i know cirrus wants to bridge that gap between them and yearns to repair that relationship even if it ultimately fails in the end. i'm not unhappy that they remain distant. i just wish that was explored more and that cirrus made more of an effort to talk to him, but i completely understand why everything led to them giving up on each other. overall good read but wished there was a tiny bit more.

it was a good story but... kinda fucked? i mean kakine hypnotized keidai to do stuff and then made him forget about it so he was essentially sexually exploiting him n shit and then just washing his hands of what he did. which the author shows that its clearly fuckin weird bc when he's caught his dad goes apeshit and calls him a freak (rightfully so) but ig keidai is also just weird. is the implication supposed to be that keidai was into it during the acts and went along as he wanted but kakine just made him forget still?? bc thats less bad but still bad. idk it was interesting tho and an overall good story im just a tad iffy how quickly keidai forgave him bc o em gee love!!!