lovvlai's manga / #suicide(6)

23.5. i like it!!!!

ymz, huh. i think i like her stories..it is like relaxing and about the two characters.. --a guy gets confined into an apartment when he helps carry the guy to his house. he decides to stay...

after the death of his senpai in highschool, he becomes depressed even though he is afirst year in college already. he has dreams about his senpai drowning and thinks his senpai is near him. he visits a shrine to get excorcism and meets a guy who claims that he can help him. he was in love with his senpai.

31. from what i understand.....P has a past/trauma where his parents was eaten by a bird alive and he saw the whole thing. P became a 'genius' artist and has this violent urge inside of him that is not 'normal'....so he would express that feeling into his drawings..otherwise he would kill/crush birds. he met I in college along side with R. I fell in love at first sight with P and has been secretly but giving hints of his interest to P. I think they have mutual feelings for each other...but P could not accept the 'love' because he wasn;t normal and is 'tainted'. but i guess one day his emotions/urge was so strong that he wanted to draw on P's body and that was the beginning of the mistake. P, I guess, wanted to monopolize/cage I so he drew on him..but realize that I was not a caged bird (not what he wanted) but a free bird. the moment he drew on him, he became tainted and cage..which P felt so much regret and say that he would stop seeing I perform on stage...and that broke I down and he stopped dancing. years later, I try to find a person similar to him and P and hook both of them up. they both are the same type of people (but idk how they jjust are)...and both commit suicide. but P still managed to survive and uttered his last words "i love you" to I before dying. I starts to dance again freely but with P by his side (his tattoo is proof of that).

9. not even sad, not even heartbreaking. but a horror story of a fragile, empty kei who fucks up everyone's lives. a story about twins. one who loves his brother and feels empty by his unrequited feelings. he is so weak, he needs to fill it up by having sex with multiple guys at school and bring them home. he even seduces his step father and have sex at home while everyone is gone. he feels that no one understands him and he wants to hurt his brother to feel the same but is scared to expose his true self. when his brother finds out about him being gay and having feelings for him, he suicides at school where his brother can see him. the other twin then jjumped but was in coma state. now he has sex friend to fill empty void.