lovvlai's manga / #dance(4)

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holy shits, is this supposed to be cute...cuz it is for me! first story: a bullfighter madatora? and a person who kills the bull after it is killled. he starts falling in love with the guy and starts to doubt and hesitate when he kills bulls...the seme resembles a bull. second story: a guy who makes shoes for a living...and a novelist? who used to own a high heel. in the end, the dude made a high heel shoe that fits him. third story: a football fan was mistaken as a brawler as a stadium and was banned bc he punched one of the guards...he met the guard at a bar. guard seems to have feelings for him. fourth story: a man writes the novel for an old man who can no longer move his arms. about a dancer... so...was the dancer actually the old man himself? he had dancer body, when he passed away the dude turned on the lights..he loved when lights were on him..he loved himself.

31. from what i understand.....P has a past/trauma where his parents was eaten by a bird alive and he saw the whole thing. P became a 'genius' artist and has this violent urge inside of him that is not 'normal'....so he would express that feeling into his drawings..otherwise he would kill/crush birds. he met I in college along side with R. I fell in love at first sight with P and has been secretly but giving hints of his interest to P. I think they have mutual feelings for each other...but P could not accept the 'love' because he wasn;t normal and is 'tainted'. but i guess one day his emotions/urge was so strong that he wanted to draw on P's body and that was the beginning of the mistake. P, I guess, wanted to monopolize/cage I so he drew on him..but realize that I was not a caged bird (not what he wanted) but a free bird. the moment he drew on him, he became tainted and cage..which P felt so much regret and say that he would stop seeing I perform on stage...and that broke I down and he stopped dancing. years later, I try to find a person similar to him and P and hook both of them up. they both are the same type of people (but idk how they jjust are)...and both commit suicide. but P still managed to survive and uttered his last words "i love you" to I before dying. I starts to dance again freely but with P by his side (his tattoo is proof of that).