lovvlai's manga / #Long-haired Uke(4)

sequel to before daylight...goes more into yakuza and bartender's love story...how their worlds are different from each other but they still want to mix in each others lives...bartender competition and get a little more into the works of tatsumi do in the group.

20. long hair feels disgusted when other ppl touch him or when he touches others...he goes to country side and meets a nice guy who kind of takes care of him...long hair guy is reminded of the dog he used to be friends with.

31. from what i understand.....P has a past/trauma where his parents was eaten by a bird alive and he saw the whole thing. P became a 'genius' artist and has this violent urge inside of him that is not 'normal'....so he would express that feeling into his drawings..otherwise he would kill/crush birds. he met I in college along side with R. I fell in love at first sight with P and has been secretly but giving hints of his interest to P. I think they have mutual feelings for each other...but P could not accept the 'love' because he wasn;t normal and is 'tainted'. but i guess one day his emotions/urge was so strong that he wanted to draw on P's body and that was the beginning of the mistake. P, I guess, wanted to monopolize/cage I so he drew on him..but realize that I was not a caged bird (not what he wanted) but a free bird. the moment he drew on him, he became tainted and cage..which P felt so much regret and say that he would stop seeing I perform on stage...and that broke I down and he stopped dancing. years later, I try to find a person similar to him and P and hook both of them up. they both are the same type of people (but idk how they jjust are)...and both commit suicide. but P still managed to survive and uttered his last words "i love you" to I before dying. I starts to dance again freely but with P by his side (his tattoo is proof of that).