tsukineko's manga / #thought-provoking(4)

This was both Beautiful, and Hot! However, I feel pretty conflicted about it, because of the fact that the dad's attraction started when his son was still so young. I'm really glad it didn't turn into a shota, (and that I didn't stop reading, as I very nearly did). Imho his dad really does love him, (not just lust after him), because all that time, he [the dad] didn't touch him nor tell him about his attraction until A) he was an adult, and B) he [dad] realised that his son was into men and had an inkling that his son was into him. I.e. the dad didn't push himself, (neither his body nor his feelings), onto his son until he knew that it would be ok. Even at the end, he asked if he could open the door, leaving it up to his son to decide whether to let him open that door, (nice symbolism btw). Otherwise, I get the impression that he [the dad] would never have acted on his feelings. So, a good dad, who truly loved his son, though unfortunately in the wrong way. Luckily for both, the feelings were reciprocated, and it could be the start of a beautiful relationship. Too bad we don't get to see it!! Edit: I had rated this 4.5 stars, but I came back to change it to 5 stars, as I'm still mulling this story over in my mind, many months later! It was quite thought-provoking for me: If the same kind of situation played out in rl, (and in fact I'm sure it does more often than anyone realises), how can one even be sure that the son's feelings didn't develop as a result of the dad's feelings? I mean, even though in this case the dad took pains not to show his son the way he felt, kids pick up on things subconsciously. Also, there was of course that incident when he helped him to pee as a little kid, which was the main catalyst for the sons' feelings. This is one of the only manga I've rated 5 stars. The art is good, there's plenty of hot smut, it's thought-provoking, and it elicits all kinds of conflicting emotions in me. I'm looking forward to reading more of this mangaka's work... Re-edit: Just to say that if I could give this more than 5 stars I would! After all this time I STILL periodically think about this manga! It's one of the manga that has had the most impact on me. It's quite a feat to create something that's simultaneously so hot and so thought-provoking!

The storyline is kind of similar to my own life, although I was 2 years younger and she was 2 years older than these characters.

As this is ongoing, I've only read the 1st 2 stories so far. I'd give 4 stars for the 2nd story; 3.5 stars for the 1st. The 2nd was quite thought-provoking and dark, as well as strangely hot... interesting... Edit: Ah! Just realised this is by the mangaka who wrote 'Kiwa'! It's very much the same kind of thought-provoking, twisted stuff, but I didn't recognise the mangaka, as the art is so different! I imagine this was written/drawn before 'Kiwa', as the art for the latter was prettier/cleaner.