pluviophiliac's manga / #depressing af(588)

so, it’s finally complete!! to be completely honest, i wasn’t a huge fan of this manhwa at first. it started out a bit too slow and ambiguous for me, and the art wasn’t exactly pulling me in, either… but it grew on me! and in the end, i feel overall pleased with the general progression of things—including the ending and its final outcome. it’s been an intriguing read, that’s for sure… and, as you know (if you’ve read some of my other reviews, that is), i thoroughly appreciate emotional complexity and character growth. there was nothing typically ‘black or white’ about this story. i was truly—albeit positively—surprised by this. i didn’t expect to enjoy it as much as i did! i loved the dynamics; the dark ambiance, the subtle somberness and twistedness surrounding the characters, and, in a sense, that refreshing stubbornness of trisha as well. it’s definitely nothing like the wholesome, loving and sweet vibes i’m used to within this genre. and the more i read, the more i liked it! i don’t think this is something i’ll reread someday in the future, but that’s okay with me! it’s still a perfectly decent story, st least by my standards. :)

i’m completely OBSESSED with this. it’s dark and awkward and wholesome and i just love it. so different from everything else i’ve read! i don’t doubt i’ll be rereading this someday in the future.

haha, this one was wild! i absolutely loved it. since it’s been a couple of months since i completed this manhwa, i’m a bit foggy on the details. however, i do recall having this sense of appreciation for the ending as it approached—simply because hyun-je’s ‘core’ didn’t do a 180 degree turnaround like MLs like him often do, but instead we got to watch him mature and gain insight about himself (and understand the consequences of his actions) as the story progresses. i really liked that part! made the story somewhat more realistic. one can’t expect people to change, because they won’t. and, in all honesty, they CAN’T. we are who we are, and he is who he is! we just gotta learn how to tolerate, appreciate and love people for who they really are—flaws and all. but still, i believe he learned how to be (somewhat) considerate towards seung-min and a bit more respectful of his boundaries as well. at least to some degree, i think… if my memory serves me correctly, that is. (lol.) as complex as his character was, i still thought it made sense overall and that they both got a decent ending—a ‘work in progress’ ending, i guess? or maybe an ‘open ending’ would be the preferable term. whatever. i actually kinda liked seung-min as well, though! i found his character surprisingly relatable, honestly. loved watching these guys grow closer together—and apart, i guess… (whenever the occasion might’ve called for it.) and even though they had… ‘some’ toxic moments, i still liked that they managed to reach some sort of middle-ground eventually. sheesh... at least they both seemed to be happy by the end of the day!!! as a reader, that’s all that really matters, anyway. just because i wouldn’t necessarily want to be in a relationship like theirs personally, it doesn’t mean everyone else feel the same. it doesn’t mean someone else can’t be happy ‘their’ way. it’s not MY life, after all. heh. #YOLO but anyway!!! it’s a shame i can’t really recall as much of this manhwa as i would’ve liked. ughhh. guess you can’t have everything. and even though the story’s technically marked ‘complete’, i’m still hoping for a couple more bonus chapters to wrap things up at some point!!! that’d be great. loved those vacay chaps. ^^

i absolutely love it! so creative, beautiful and intricate. i’m really curious as to how everything will end up, lol. i have high hopes!!!

bro, this was SO. FREAKIN’ SWEET!!! i thoroughly enjoyed witnessing their development (and devotion) as a couple. is this something i’ll reread in the future? probably not, but that doesn’t really matter. it would’ve been nice to finish things off with a couple more bonus chapters, though—just to see how the whole ‘family ordeal’ unfolds… but still, things’ll work out just fine without it, too! :)

so in love with this manhwa!!! and its characters. how exquisitely vengeful and beautifully disastrous it is.

heh, i like it! it’s nice seeing keira’s character development throughout the story. and i also quite appreciate the fact that we seem to have two love interests. honestly, i like them both… personally, i’d go with erez. ;)

i seriously can’t. riftan’s so RIDICULOUSLY sexy. it’s not fair. ;-; i love how he always tries so lift maxi up by complimenting her and treating her especially nice. really looking forward to the day when she has some self-esteem of her own. that girl deserves the world. edit: AHHHHH, THAT’S OUR QUEEN!!! she’s finally starting to come out of her shell, and it’s so. so damn beautiful. <33

dude, this one gave me whiplash like craaaazy. still, i loved it! although, it came a point quite late in the story where i really struggled to continue reading. things turned out so depressing and soooo fucking toxic—more so than i ever would’ve thought when i first started out. (i guess i should’ve known, sheesh. just look at the damn title… looking back, there were soooo many red flags i missed.) nonetheless, in the end, i kept going… and i’m glad i did! i was reaaaally close to dropping this… for quite a few weeks, actually. but, as you know, i stuck with it and slowly adapted to the ‘fucked-up-slash-a-whole-lot-more-intense’ dynamic between our two mains. it kept things interesting, though—that’s for sure! i suppose i was just unprepared. (i’m not all that great with surprises.) still, the story had an overall nice conclusion! really, the wholesomeness of it actually surprised me a little bit. but throughout the manhwa, i did appreciate the realism of the characters’ personalities and how they both (i guess?) learned how to set healthy boundaries and respect each other in the end. but before that, it was nice seeing each of them come to their own individual realizations, grow and mature in their lonesomeness and then eventually get back together—stronger than ever—AFTER they’d worked on themselves and talked things out. aaaand, of course, i liked that their relationship wasn’t anything even REMOTELY close to perfect. but hey, at least they’d solidified a much stronger foundation for themselves than before, and they finally had a real shot at being happy because of it. this was the healthy BL romance i wanted at the start, but was unable to get ‘til the very end, haha! (‘healthy’ might be too strong of a word, but at least it turned into something could work for them in the long-run.) anyway!!! it’s been a good run. i’ll be looking forward to the upcoming side stories! edit: THIS SIDE-STORY IS LEGIT. SLAUGHTERING. MEEEEE. AAAAAHHHHHHHH!!! omfg, y’all… siwoo actually violated do-hyeok. like, FULL-ON SEXUAL. FUCKING. ASSAULT??? genuinely, i never would’ve foreseen this. what an epic, twisted role-reversal!!! it’s surprisingly exciting… and satisfying, heh. (karma, anyone…?) revenge sure tastes sweet, ahhhh. <33 that’s a genuinely fucked up thing to say, i’m well aware, but at the end of the day, i 100% know that park do-hyeok caused lee suha soooo much more damage, both physical & emotional, than seo siwoo EVER could’ve done him. what he had to suffer (?) through was NOTHING compared to all the vile things he did to suha; pre- & post-relationship. besides that, it’s not often you get to firsthand witness the infamously sadistic, ‘i’m-the-top-in-this-relationship’ villain slash ex-abuser get his asshole completely WRECKED by said ex’s best friend as a form of carnal retaliation. and apparently, the assault was satisfying enough for him to actually look him up afterwards to get want more of , too…? like, that is undoubtedly and irrevocably FUCKED, bro. so fucking wack, right?! well, anyway… it’s surely, uh… an ‘interesting’ way of discovering he actually enjoys (even PREFERS) being a bottom… and not only that, but a bottom who now forces himself to become completely submissive in bed and let another man fully dominate him in bed. ahhh, the mere notion of it excites me so!!! what really tickles my pickle, though, is the fact that do-hyeok is WILLINGLY doing this much for a man who 1) went uno-reverse and used his own predatory tricks against him, 2) drugged him, 3) violated him, and 4) then went incognito on him—during their very first meeting, no less! that’s a seriously crazy fucking thing to get so turned on about and i motherfucking know it. even more so because i actually know the background and their circumstances!!! i comprehend the true extent of these wicked relationships, and i have an in-depth understanding of the characters in question as well. shit, man—i’m speechless. and horny. heeeelp. lmfao, i should be ashamed of myself. i AM ashamed of myself. more than anything, though, i’m actually more than a little surprised by the direction the story’s taking. it’s like i’m being introduced to two completely new characters, haha! i love it, and i love this dynamic!!! they have surprisingly good chemistry. sexual compatibility, too! (bet no one could’ve anticipated that, lol.) P.S. right now, i’m over here QUIVERING at the mere notion of sporadically getting to see even one more round of this ‘hookup arrangement’ they’ve set in motion… like the sick fuck i am, goddammit. what’s next, i wonder? will they become romantically involved?? will suha and jiwoon figure it out??? or will they just continue to hate-fuck like bunnies in secret until they break it off and continue their lives like nothing ever happened???? fuck me if i know. what an incredible sticky (and needlessly sexy) situation they’ve got themselves in, heh. but either way, it’s an intriguing twist no one will ever see coming—no matter how you look at it!!! i’m all for any available routes heading towards a redemption arc, too, or even a FRACTION of a possibility of future reconciliation… and; well, character development—naturally. i can see the light, good sir!!! it’s shining so bright. <33 P.S.S. dear author, i beg of thee: PLEASE turn do-hyeok into a docile little lamb and let siwoo continue pulling the strings. i absolutely love to see it, and there’s so much unexpected potential in this union. so, so many possibilities… i’m so excited for the future of this story these days—i can’t help myself, lololol. all i know is that THE. SMUT. IT. TOP. NOTCH. QUALITY. and there’s no going back now. keep up the good work!!! P.S.S.S. my dear, (please-fuck-me-you’re-so-hot) siwoo, whom i used to look at so natively… KEEP WRECKING OUR TOXIC REDHEAD WITH YOUR MONSTROUS GENITALS, GOOD SIR. just like he wrecked our precious little suha for absolutely no acceptable reason whatsoever. ahhh, how poetic this is!!! keep doing just like that, darlin’. he loves it. you love it. and WE love to see it. <33 this is the kind of toxicity i yearn for, haha. …i can’t believe i’m actually ‘cheering’ for sexual violence. what have i become, hmm? oh, well… i really can’t help but to like siwoo’s character. he’s surprisingly enticing. and suave. and ATTRACTIVE!!! like, soooo fucking attractive it’s KILLINGGGG MEEEEE. god… :D #final edit: aww, everything’s officially over now… i’m upset by the ending for siwoo and do-hyeok, even though i know it’s the ending that makes the most sense. :( didn’t really expect an open ending like THIS, though… i wonder if there’ll be another side story? or perhaps a whole different story set a couple of years from now?? do-hyeok’s last monologue seems to kinda leave that option open, but i don’t know… maybe i just don’t want to see it end like this. ;/ which is 100% true, too, lol. anyway, i suppose that’s it! i’m just relieved i made it through this in one piece. didn’t really think i would at first, knowing how unnaturally attached to this latter couple i became… vey much unlike how things progressed with suha and jiwoon. quite odd, hmmm. despite everything, it’s definitely been a consistent 10/10 read, though! as always, i love the emotional complexity. <33 #final FINAL edit: OMFG. ANOTHER SIDE STORY. I’M SO EXCITED, HOLY SHIT.

i love this!!! so damn lovely! a really, really great story. unlike many of these manhwas i read, this one felt a lot more realistic than the usual romance; emotionally, that is. it was a nice (albeit minor) change of pace. excellent character development as well! i’ll be in the lookout for any other graphic novels by these creators in the future.