Rei-san's manga / #Emotional(3)

fucking just first chapter and i'm just clutching my stomach crying my eyes out, screaming and scratching my bathroom door until the paint gotten under ma nails!!!! TTOTT the description/ plot itself is heart wreaking tear jerker!!!! aaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!! TTOTT %^^&&RRRU((&&%%(^(%T*&%*$&$&&&$&^$&$*%*&%*&%& novel link in Chinese : https://www.vodtw.com/html/book/52/52551/32072092.html true comments : 1- Goodjob author for doing this huhuhu it pains me to continue each chapter. every chapter just feels heavy huhuhu 2- over and over again i keep on thinking about the end and the how much this seme has affairs and still act very worried i m just can't handle this i can handle rapes scene at some limits but this is very emotional type and it feels like this manhua is playing with my emotion 3- just take all my tears story. I don't know why I keep reading. Every time I read a new chapter, I just end up being sad. It is a wonderful piece of devastating work. *grabs a tissue* 4- *reading a new chp* everyone we must endure sadness and anger (╯°Д °)╯ 5- （/TДT)/ I can't do this anymore, but I also can't just leave I love this webtoon I am sufering but still loving it 6- I feel bad for him, you know what he also deserves love. it's all this bastard seme's fault he's the one that should die 7-The way Wenxu tosses people like they're scraps. I didn't like the side boy but they've been together for 3 years? Be civil about it and break it off if you dont have feelings but to kick him and then tell him ill contact u later? fuck. IMAGINE if Zhishu wasn't sick but just naturally a more timid weak person, Wenxu would never change his true colors, he would keep him confined isolated by his possessive personality forever, depriving Zhishu from ever feeling treasured. Imagine living a lifetime like that? So it really takes death for Wenxu to think I need to actually be less of an abusive shithead towards that person. 8- "When will you get sick and die?" did he just say this? did he really just say this? the audacity to wish illness and death on someone after finding out? How is this trash functioning without a brain and heart? I dont care who he said it to, but the fact that he said these cruel heavy words outloud? fucks sake, this is the devil in disguise, what a shit human I'm sorry everyone, Zhishu and boytoy that you fell for this low scum, love can be a scary thing, its a sad view but its reality at times 9- Taking the fact that the uke stayed 14 years with the cheating BF, i thought he would use the *even if the last years were hard, i had a good life* BUT NOPE he is regretting everything from A to Z, thats so fucking heartbreaking touching comment: I am angry. For four years he already knows that his partner is betraying him. For four years the relationship has been going badly. ZhiShu is stuck in that place, he has no social contacts, no life of his own, no circle of friends. He is alone. ALONE BY HIMSELF. Waiting day by day that his cheating partner will come back. that's crazy, that's sad. why is he like that? Now he is sick, very sick. Still waiting. No changes. The fact that he started with the treatment later made me very upset. also how he deals with that whole situation. scream, cry, beat your partner up, make demands, just do something, don't be that quite, don't just easily give up yourself boy, you are important too. I am grateful that the doctor is there for that poor lone boy, it makes me sad and mad that he does not love himself. a comment i really liked and agree with: I understand why zhishu is finally leaving after struggling with his decision for so long. He was already on the edge with wenxu’s violence & cheating but he was pushed over when zhishu realised that the 10yrs they spent together, most likely meant nothing to wenxu. He was able to live with wenxu thinking wenxu’s love for him was genuine in the past. But that illusion shattered when wenxu’s didn’t care much about the ring which for zhishu represented the love they shared over the years. I am glad that zhishu is finally leaving coz he showered his love on an undeserving person. And you should always walk out of such a relationship no matter how hard it is to break it up. A cheater will always be a cheater no matter how much they argue against it. And all cheaters are master manipulators. You can only be satisfied with the fact that your love was genuine. It might have been wasted on an unworthy person but your feelings were of the right kind. What the other person does with those feeling is something we have no control over.. but hold your head high with confidence and walk out. We can only uphold our self respect. And trust me... it takes more courage to walk out than to continue in this make believe relationship. I had read the comments before venturing into this as the tag said tragedy.. thinking I will steel myself for what’s coming, but it doesn’t help. It wrenches your heart for the conditions zhishu is subjected to. Your heart will bleed and there won’t be enough tears for you to cry.. the sadness just envelopes you and you feel helpless.. wanting to help someway. It’s amazing how a fictional story can tug at your heart strings so much. Keep tissues handy before you start reading.. and better still if you succumb to episodes of depression or sadness.... stay away. And i think the reason why this fictional story affects us so much that we cry is because these things happens in reality and we can relate to it. I just hope all the cheaters in the world suffers till they die note in comments: I always prefer the novels more than the comics. But for this one i can't think i can handle the more descriptive of this long-time torture.. i mean the manhua is already hurting me to the bones. Anyone who read the novels tells me if it's any better ╥﹏╥ it's equally heart shattering. It HURTSS SO MUCH MORE if you read the novels..... i got my head always thinking about this novel for a whole week... :((( spoiler + explanation of the plot: A wall of text incoming also some spoiler if you haven't read latest uploaded chapter here If you loathed the bastard seme, I can guarantee that he will have tons of suffering on the rest of the series because Zhishu (uke) left. The novel did a good job portraying how much Jiang Wenxu (bastard seme) unknowingly need Zhishu yet never really shows or says it until the last moment after all of his affairs, and that makes Zhishu think he is not special to Wenxu (because past promises has been broken) Also, why Zhishu didn't communicate his illness to Jiang Wenxu is because not only Wenxu rarely at home, Zhishu think that there's another person ready to replace his position by Wenxu's side when he's gone. See how Zhishu courteously welcome Chen Zui (side bitch) when Zui visited, and that Zhishu keep quiet although he know that Wenxu is cheating on him. It's like Zhishu already at peace although feeling miserable for knowing that Wenxu already have others to replace him. Plus, Zhishu is already felt miserable for having a bf like Wenxu that he thinks death is not so bad compared to living on with bf like Wenxu which is why he's not really keen on getting his illness treated although he have money, because the whole agony of having chemotherapy and all treatment is not worth it if he's going to continue living on without Wenxu loving him. Poor Zhishu should've meet psychologist first before meeting doctors I think when Zhishu got news that the matching bone marrow donor was snatched away from Dr. Ai, he was ready for death and ready do depart gracefully even if he have to die in the house where he and Wenxu lives. The last straw was when Zui dares to act insolent and insult their ring (something about Wenxu letting Zui have that cheap ring. Emphasize on cheap). That ring yields so much meaning for Zhishu emotionally that's why that was severe blow, and of course Wenxu's way to apologize by getting them both new pair is like pouring salt into wound because it imply that the ring is replaceable which further make Zhishu think that he is replaceable for Wenxu. Bottom line, it's all Jiang Wenxu's fault and karma does goes around. Wenxu cheated and hurt Zhishu, only to throw tantrum when Zhishu leave him for good. And by left, it's like leaving him forever (unless you count the spin off novel where they got second chance to redo their youth). I do wonder will the ending be different if Zhishu died in the house, and Wenxu come home only to be greeted by the cold and lifeless body of Zhishu (probably Wenxu will kill himself, though) spoiler: Someone please put me out of my misery and tell me there is gonna be a good ending so that i have something to look forward to in life coz rn i just feel like shit seeing zhishu unhappy and i want so bad for him to be with dr ai :""""") If u want to know, be prepared ┗( T﹏T )┛ SPOILER Sorry mate, no good ending. Zhishu dies, doctor Ai lives on the rest of his life sad and regretful for not being able to save him. And Scumbag lives knowing Zhishu doesn't want to see him again in the current life nor in the afterlife. He suffers a lot (GOOD) and regrets everything he's done to Zhishu. FAAAAAAAKKKKKK IT HUUURRRTTTSSS!! Idk what to do w my life rn.. a poem i kinda liked: I hate people who fall in love. People who sacfrifice themselves out of love. Love which they know, doesn't bear any fruit. But still a fool, they forget the truth. Breaking their hearts to pieces. Just to aid other's. But when they're the one who needs aiding. They get left behind, alone grieving. Okay. That was actually beautiful. *claps* my comrades here lol: Am i a masochist cuz i just love reading tragic stories like this?? LOL if anybody can recommend more like this, its much appreciated!! On another note, this. hurts. like. a. mf. Zhishu is pulling my heartstrings in every direction, somehow he smiles in such situations with a lost will to continue living, this story is exactly as it is: tragically beautiful Whether itll be a sad or happy ending, this story makes me ponder about life decisions itself and maybe some will think this is a cliche sad story but i still think its very moving and thats all i need. omg im so dumb, i meant **masochistic but i think yall know what i meant LMAO IKR LIKE SHIT SEMES??? AND UKES FORGIVES HIM BUT LOVES HIM LESS?? UYGH IDK I CAANT EXPRESS IT DONT WORRY GIRL, I GET WHATCHU MEAN SKEJEEKEBDJD me too!! i just love that my heart is aching so much. hahahhahhahah Same. These kind of story are my tea. ┑(￣Д ￣)┍ we few crave the ache xD right?????? i read more fluffy and slice-of-life now but i always look for stories thatll hurt my heart just right HAHA Yes! Always looking for a tragedy tag lol and then hate myself cos it hurts so bad A NOTE TO REMEMBER THROUGH LIFE: 1- when you get older You realize your true allies is your parents, but sometimes you realize too late 2- Its just fucking crazy that when I was younger I crave for love from my partner but as I got older, i just want to be closer to my parents. Parents are just a sensitive topic for me as they are mu pillar to fall back to, but if I dont have them in this world anymore like Zhishu, i too will feel like i want to die faster to be with them

soooooo many quotes in this manhwa!! also, it get's pretty interesting in the middle. specifically after nicole and jed get together true comments: 1- I just wanna say this whole story has an incredible development from the beginning till the end (except from that last page, it just ruined the whole feeling -.-') Heartwarming, original, with the right amount of fantasy (Shahi's tribe matter), with the right amount of drama (!) and of course with a beautiful and healthy main romance. I REALLY liked it: sometimes I was thrilled, sometimes I screamed (when Nicole gets poisoned the first time), I also cried A LOT (at the end of Shahi's and Derek's -unhealthy- relationship or at the several times Shahi wonders why his mother doesn't love him) and in the end I was pleased with it despite the missing chapters, the last page and the shortness of my fave couple (June and Alchemist princess). So keep up with the good work Seyoung-seonsaeng-nim!!! ♡♡ (≧∀≦) 2- I wish the story was longer for prince June and the scientist princess (don't know her name). They are such a cute couple.