❀'s manga / #rape first(149)

typical old school yaoi with rape and small uke and large seme. so there's like the uke and he's just so cute that all the guys at the boys' school love him and these two powerful guys are protecting him but he doesn't know it. he is almost raped but a mysterious guy saves him. he suspects it's between the two guys who protect him even though at this point he doesn't know how much he's being protected. author shows audience it was obviously seme cuz uke's body reacts every time seme touches him. but the other guy says some misleading things that makes uke think it was actually him who saved the uke before. but ofc in the end when uke almost gets raped again, everything is revealed when those two guys come to the rescue again. and it was always the seme who saved him. then there are some smutty extra bits like after they get into a relationship. they are totally out just holding hands in school lol. and they have sex right in front of the other protector guy's face. apparently the guy also likes uke but ofc is giving up.

actor escapes death in mountains and first thing back he rapes the uke lol. then they are somehow in a relationship. contains another story about guys playing baseball and the senpai is kinda useless, just relying on his dad's power and bullying the junior that he likes. he purposely gets hurt by junior to tie his kouhai to him.

kinda weird ending. basically omega stuck on island cuz lost his things. he goes into heat and the milkman alpha fucks him. seme has uke's things cuz he picked them up one day, but secretly doesn't want to give them back cuz he thinks uke will leave. well later that night they fuck again after seme finds uke at the pharmacy trying to find medicine to stop his heat or something. then next day seme comes clean with uke's things and uke shows a ticket for seme's farm? idk i guess it shows uke also was interested in seme or something? idk and they just say see you tomorrow lol

rape sounds so serious but it's the basic forceful seme sex. he gave a rapey blowjob. basically they're models and seme has liked uke a while and is friends with uke's younger brother. uke hears rumours about seme being gay and liking someone. one day seme comes to uke's house to hang with the younger bro. uke is so concerned that seme has his eyes on his younger bro and confronts seme. but seme is like you sleep with me instead then. and forcefully blows uke lol. after that things are awkward and seme kinda hints that he has feelings for uke but uke doesn't get it. uke starts having dreams where he's kissing seme. one night out uke gets hit on by a gay guy and seme rescues him out. then on the way seme kisses uke to give water. at home uke thinks it's the kiss dream and asks for more so they kiss more. but then uke snaps out of it when seme touches his dick and is like wtf where am i. then seme just has intercrural sex with uke and seme confesses openly. uke says he's not sure but wants to be friends cuz seme always on his mind. hopeful ending i guess.

the complexity and depth and seriousness in this manhua is literally like nothing i've ever seen before, and for that i have to say it's BEST, though the story was seriously disturbing to me at times due to rape, suicide attempts, and tons of self-harm and depression. there's no way this retelling does it any justice, but it's a masterpiece in its own way. i would say it veers on the side of babying mentally ill characters, always portraying them as in the right and deserving of help. but i think that's the message of this manhua. to bring attention to depression and mental illness and telling us that we need to treasure those people as well. even when people sink to their darkest moments, they can be saved. good art too, a definite plus! so basically seme hates uke cuz he thinks uke's sister and his dad were having an affair and that's why they both died in a car accident together. honestly it's never revealed clearly why they were together that day, but it seems it was not because they were romantically together. i suspect the author changed plots midway. the focus seems to initially be a hate to love relationship, but somewhere in the middle the author went into full mental illness stuff... so seme and uke have to start living in a dorm with 2 other people. seme super hostile to uke, but uke kinda dead and just taking it cuz he's so depressed and has no feelings, all drugged up too. first big event is a school trip and they are rooming together. seme gets super angry and attempts to rape uke. seme pulls back but uke is like i'm used to it and implies that he sells his body to this doctor guy. uke then says it's ok if seme wants to do it cuz he doesn't care either way? at this point seme already has some unhealthy obsession with uke that's turning from hate to desire, so he does fuck uke. then he takes off uke's wet clothes and sees uke's self harm scars all up and down both arms. uke is so upset and this is where the story turns to mental health. for some reason after this happens uke is like completely broken and he can't go to school anymore. the issue i have with this story is that so much focus is given to the mental health awareness that big plot points in the story aren't given enough attention. like things just suddenly happen and you only realize later like what that's it? it was a major plot point but they aren't going to talk about it anymore? and major events are kinda just glossed over.... after uke stops coming to school seme goes to find uke. finds out uke is somehow connected to his past as the boy who called him one time or many times as a child. confusing here and it should have been a big deal that the author just glossed. author also shows them both realizing this fact, but they never get together and actually discuss them finding out their past connection. seems weird we would not see them discuss it, but we do see them acknowledge it later so i guess they spoke about it more off screen?! just didn't feel like enough was communicated about their past reveal. anyway, while this was unravelling, seme found uke at his childhood rundown house and brought him to a new apartment that seme started renting cuz he's the son of a rich family. he brought uke there and promised to heal uke from his trauma and stuff. but honestly kind of weird cuz uke seemed relatively okay, just dead inside before. the rape thing might have set him off even more but idk. another confusing point cuz uke was not so bad but i guess he was hiding it. there's some serious drama about uke's old doctor being an ex-bf of uke's dead sister. and the doctor being obsessed with the dead sis and kidnapping uke to dress him up as her and pretending to live domestic life with him as her replacement. then seme comes to the rescue and the doctor tries to jump off the balcony but seme saves him. thank god never see him again. then we see uke opening up to seme some more after that and seme going to talk to doctors to get help for uke. once uke feels a bit better he goes to the hospital himself and starts a new round of medications. after this the next big drama is seme's family. cuz seme's mom is already kinda mental from way back due to various factors in an unhappy marriage and then the dad died and she just was upset everywhere idk. i guess it's hard to pinpoint the exact causes of mental illness. so seme brings uke to family spring break gathering and family doesn't know uke's identity so it's okay. but some time later the mom randomly shows up at their apartment. seme is out but uke sits with the mom in silence and waiting. uke knows some shit about to go down and mom saw the hickeys on uke's neck. seme comes back and uke's mom goes crazy seeing them act domestic and stabs for uke but hits seme. seme goes into hospital unconscious for like a week. during this time uke decides to just up and leave?!?!? like ofc we've seen a lot of good mental development from him during this time, but such a weird real life choice. to leave your partner after he is stabbed. but i think the author wanted to show the uke be independent and not always just relying on seme so ok makes sense in the story... so this apparently all happened during their first year of uni, though uke was a bit older and held back cuz of his sister's death and stuff for 1 year or so. seme's mother was forgiven by seme eventually cuz apparently we're supposed to forgive all mental illness shit... and now jump forward 3 years to uni graduation of seme. uke had dropped out. seme has decided to move out and stop relying on his parents for money and stuff. and with that he shows he is free to love uke and be with him cuz he is fully independent now. they had originally promised to keep the relationship a secret until after graduation anyway. in a way this was kinda fulfilling the original plan of fully being together only after graduation. so seme graduating and uke comes to see him with flowers to congratulate him. seme hugs him right away and they go back to uke's house. uke actually bought the apartment they stayed at together before. so happily ever after from now on i suppose. there was a side doctor couple that's also not well explained. probably a lot got cut if this was adapted, and it would be worth checking for an original though idk if i can stomach it. at least not right now. ok so there are some very cute extras in chinese that were not translated. read them and it was worth! very cute normal couply stuff. so sad for all the shit this couple has gone through, i hope they can be together in peace forever.

guy comes home from uni to find his childhood friend totally his type. they have 3 years age gap. that night the uke stays over being all friendly and cuz uke had been using seme's room. uke asks seme about a gay magazine he found. seme gets made cuz he thinks uke is making fun of him? and forcefully jerks uke off. after that things become clear that uke likes seme and seme obviously is attracted to uke and they fuck for real. nothing really happens. but they suddenly promise to start dating......

random bullshit stories i skimmed. focus on sex but sex aint even good....... first is omegaverse. delivery guy beta happens across omega customer in heat and gets propositioned. they fuck. next time they meet omega propositions him again even though not in heat and they get together i guess. deals with some of omega's insecurities being together in public and seme not being an alpha so can't stop uke's heats. bullshit like that. second story is confusing af. uke gets fucked by guy with tentacle ability or something. then gets fucked by 2 snake men or some shit. i don't even know. then he goes back to tentacle guy and loves the tentacle sex asking for more.

very fucking weird and confusing plot, just read for some average sex. omega needs to often have sex to keep heat away. he can't take pills cuz he's an athlete and they just can't for some reason..... so he's been having sex with this guy who raped him when his first heat came and the pheromones made everyone crazy. so seme1 has sex with him a lot to keep heat at bay and uke kinda likes him and this seme definitely likes uke or why would he do this?? just to help their baseball team? lol.... anyway seme2 is childhood friends or something with seme1 and has a huge crush on seme1. he always comes to fuck uke after seme1 to feel like he's getting close with seme1. idk. he also has a collar on uke to prevent seme1 biting uke. uke decides to quit baseball club so seme1 doesn't need to fuck him anymore. seme1 is like wtf u doing. seme2 finds uke and they have sex. uke and seme1 haven't had sex in a long time so uke's hormones are strong. seme2 finds them in the middle of sex and joins in. seme2 removes uke's collar and they both bite him at once. but like wtf why is seme2 even here if he just wants to be with seme1............idk it's a roundabout way of being with seme1...........just weird.

weird crazy shit. 4 stars for level of crazy and uniqueness lol. guy goes back to his mom's hometown after her death. finds out it's an island of only men cuz only people with a special rose birthmark can birth daughters here. idk why they can't bring in women from off island........ he meets a guy who helps him out and lets him stay over cuz he's got no money or anything. then that guy hears about his mom and strips his clothes off and sees his rose birthmark over his anus. rapes him right there and guy starts to enjoy it maybe. seme tells him now his womb is starting to grow. then we see the eldest and youngest bros. youngest bro suggested to like eldest bro but nothing really happens. he holds himself back cuz incest...... they have tons of sex, eldest fucking uke and youngest sucking him off or riding his dick. all to help develop womb. then when it's near developed seme fucks uke and they confess feelings for each other. seme has been standing to the side this whole time after first rape. anyway, they get uke pregnant. uke has babies in the house cuz storm. turns out it's triplets. they all have sex again. uke sucks seme off. we see double penetration with youngest and oldest. youngest is happy to have penis beside oldest. then uke asks seme like why you not possessive of me if you love me? seme says i can't satisfy you by myself and uke agrees lol.

cute nonsense little story. vampire and knight. knight is hypnotized to come kill vampire. he's got some dark mana that the humans don't like so they don't trust him and ostracize him. vampire has a little scuffle with him and then breaks his hypnosis. then vampire sees his sad memories and takes a liking. vampire fucks knight and i consider it rape cuz knight was totally not aware of surroundings even though at the end he said to just do it gently........... then knight stays with vamp and vamp says you belong to me now cuz i saved your life. they're planning to do revenge and w/e but story ends.