
It's an interesting plot.
There's so much mystery here about the mc, and i love that part and it is what keeps me glued to my phone because i really want to find out the exact detail. And the ML, love the guy. He's a green flag compared to all other psycho's i know. He have valid reaction with his phobia and trauma, because it would be really hard for him as a CHILD to experience such thing first hand. And it's a harsh reality that traumatic experiences during childhood scar you for life.
ML clearly knows he likes mc and is actually openly communicating that. The reason he gags is the fact that mentally he can think clearly and feel that he likes mc but his body reacts negatively towards male guides because of his trauma(not specifically because of MC but the general term of MALE GUIDES).And when they did it in the car, note that he said that he's trying to get used to it...the ML is clearly doing his best to overcome his trauma because he likes MC and wants to do more with him. Unfortunately the trauma he has is still embedded and remembered by his body instinctively rejecting triggering stuff and situations similar to it. And those fluff and effort of his made me really like him. And I don't blame the MC for not seeing that because it does feel shitty to be wanted by the said hero that you really like, then get treated so nicely the next second. This is a trauma for him too that he needs to overcome along the way, and I'm all here to witness their story...so good, one of my favorites already.
(I tried to explain some bits, because i also wanted to share that having a trauma affects your relationship with people despite wanting to have an amicable or peaceful connection with them. But when trauma comes in play, it messes up a lot of things out of one's control if it is not taken care of.)

OK I read your comment and I have some questions why didn't the ml told the mc that he likes him and explained his situation to him ??
Yes I understand he had trauma and I've nothing against it but he treated the mc like shit in the first few chapters what about that ?? He drags the mc whenever he wants doesn't respect his wishes and just pushes him to do whatever he wants yes I'm happy to hear that he likes the mc and trying to get rid of his trauma but what he did to the mc at past was bad I mean he literally blamed mc for something the mc didn't even do

Same thoughts! ML's trauma is valid and we can understand that, but the way he treats MC is nooooott itttt
He literally almost unalived MC just because of his own assumptions and blamed MC for it. The way he blamed MC for his traumatic reaction and making MC feeling shitty for it is fucked up. If he wanted to work on his aversion towards male guides, I'm sure there's better way of doing aversion therapy with someone you care without making them feel shitty all the time. He could've just told MC but nooo the writer just have to force this kind of misunderstanding to build up the angst lol.

That was a blast. My mouth was just open in shock after shock then another. Like I can't even predict what's going to happen next. I have my hand on my mouth because of how shocked i am, after one twist followed by another. IT KEPT ME ON MY TOES! And the way they both so tried to win the upper hand is my favorite, because one would be faking their attitude then next panel they have that cunning eyes, HOLY SHT! Good read bruh...fcking amazing!
the plot is really on fire right now but...I NEED ASSURANCE THAT ASH RECEIVED HIS BREAD! let the boy eat please! I feel so sorry for the guy. Before we continue the story lets have a recess or something, let the kids rest and eat forgodsake! ARRGHHHHH LET ME CARE FOR THIS CHILDREN!!!!