Was I the only one who cried at that bastard's letter? I can't ever forgive him for doing that to Zhishu but the feeling of longing and remorse that was expressed in the letter haunted me. It pops up in my mind from time to time. The feeling of regret and not being able to make up for your wrong choice is scary. It forever chains you in the past and what could've been.
Me too I feel sad for the bastard the feeling of guilt and remorse will haunt him for a very long time, worse is he might not move on until the day he died. I believe Zhisu still loves him and doesn't hate Jiang after all the time he has abused him because Zhizu loved him unconditionally including his flaws and all that's why he decided to wait for his death beside him but Jiang pushed it too much that led Zhisu to leave. Zhisu loves him but he regrets that he loves Jiang if that makes sense.
When he goes pessimistic*
Ah shit here we go again