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I had a disgusting relationship with my cousins (with 2 years age gap; me being the oldest) back when I saw 8-9 years old. We all live in the same huge house back then so when our families are out at work or just out of the house, our curiosity would heighten. I never really told anyone this story but I felt like my anonymity gave me the courage to do so and this felt like the right place to say it.
My cousins once told me that they found their parents doing something. Basically, I got curious and I asked if we could try it. I really felt like a disgusting predator and I still hate myself whenever I think about it. So we did it and although it felt nothing, it was still new to me hence why we would do it every time we would play.
Once, we got caught by their mom. Their hands were on me and mine on them under a blanket. She asked what we were doing, I know she knew but decided to not do anything about it. I thought there wasn't anything wrong about it, so we did it for years until my family decided to move out and I never contacted them again. I had a fucked up life, me and my cousins, and still there's nothing excuse for what we've done. I kept quiet for years, but recently I started forgiving myself since I was just a child back then too.
I hope this kind of thing doesn't happen to anyone else and I hope that everyone would keep an open mind to these types of story because sharing it would always feel like taking a piece of one's self and laying it forward and naked for the world to see.
u were both young and didnt know any better , dont blame yourself your parents should have been carefull and thats on the importance of seuxal education
Same, we lived in the same big house, our age gap was 4 yrs and i was 7 yrs old or 8, and told me to do the same as the porn we watched (didnt know what it was called cos itsy first time i knew about it but it was a pilot and a flight attendant doing something....), out of curiosity and did it when our guardians arent home, it felt good actually, we did it several times (i think my cousin was my first crush, my other siblings also admired this ***** cousin of mine) , i didnt know how many times we did it or what date was, but then i again suggested to do it but refused and punched me (wtf?).
I understand what we were doing when they moved out and i really hated myself for giving in for that. (i think im intelligent lol jk my classmates just kept talking about it)
After 2 yrs they came back to visit us, we were playing and then suggested that we do it again but i refused in an indirect way and act like i didnt know anything.
I kept it silent for years without my parents knowing or anyone, except for my cousin's friends in our neighborhood, i really want them to forget about it, (back then, i thought of them killed so that no one can know about it, wait am i a-.....), it really wasnt a good memory for me.
Thank you, i thought about it a lot and wanted revenge.
HAHA Jk
I've been thru the same girl yeah it is pretty disgusting and you don't know who to blame
These are no high schoolers..
THESE ARE SPAWNS OF SATAN WHAT THE FUCK