I feel sorry for your past but the way youre hurting Hara who keeps treasuring/pampering/loving you made me hate you, Kaoru, youre hurting Hara the same way your partners to him only in a roundabout way, not everyone can still love people like you who thinks they are protecting their partners but actually hurting them, and thd way Kaoru is projected as someone kind made me disgusted,
wished Hara would have ended up with his fated, cuz while his love made him think Kaoru's selfish actions as cute, can it lasts a lifetime with a partner who doesn't even trust you?
At least he's not hurting him intentionally. He's protecting himself at the same time giving Hara-san the future he should have. He knows, as someone who sees the red string, that everything will fall into place. Kaoru didn't tell him and decided to be with him until the moment he realized that he has a fated person. It is so that if in the end he decided to chose her, Hara-san can be happy even though he is not the reason of his happiness. He decided to keep silent even though he's hurting. After all, nothing is permanent in this world. Anything can change, even Hara's love can. It's just a matter of trust. And he did trust Hara-san, didn't he just let the strings connect? He has faith on his love for him. It's just that Hara-san is so smart. And Kaoru's flaw is that he didn't tell him. One of the things that can make a relationship work is communication. If only they talk about it earlier, they wouldn't have to experience all that trouble.
I dont hate the hag, i just felt disappointed to her but its business and also she housed a sick courtesan so she had generousity i guess, i never hated mao mao's father i also just felt disappointed but now i feel sympathetic to their tragic story.
Hopes that atleast fon shen recover, even only mentally.