kenken's Things

#SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.com/mikizue/a-kuroken-soundtrack-slowed-reverbed?ref=clipboard&p=a&c=0&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

the song is at 35:46

it's korean and slowed song so i don't know who sang it and it's like a playlist that doesn't mention the song title individually
pleaseee if anyone can tell me I would be sooo greatfullll

searching for some penpal! preferably within asia since I'm also from asia
but I'm okay with others too!

Sooo yesterday I met with my boy friends. not BF but just a friends that's boy.
someGoddamn how we talk about my love character wich is kenma, and why I love him because he's so smart, calm and collected.
and then somehow the conversation change to
"most boy don't really like girls who's smart"
"they preferred the stupid and silly girl type"

I'm BEYOND confused
....
SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN WHYYYYYYYY

I asked them why they didn't answer.

please I stayed up all night thinking about this and I still don't understand

I get wayy to attached to someone. idk if I have attachments issues or something like that. but my condition is already not in a Normal scale.

but then one day
I told myself that
"nobody really wants to hear your story or care about you, you dumb shit."
that's why I've been silent this whole year

is this toxic?
probably

well I mean it depends.

for me,
this works like a lucky charm

I've been expecting less from people,
keeping a safe distance
and really just not depending on someone else again

this made me feel way more safer.
I've used to be so anxious about my social life
like
what if my friends hate me?
what if they found out something about me that made them dislike me somehow
or not wanting to be my friend anymore

it's like
the closer I get to someone
the more I get anxious

sorry for messed up grammar

I- Why-????
can we all agree that love is equal no matter what-
I-
I seriously can't even