Lil Mess's Things

fuckkk finally finished school!!! I haven't eaten or slept in 2 days. lol. but one of my teachers took pity and gave me a 100 on everything and that was the class I was most b behind it, like my actual grade was 9%.weiwuedhwiuh4ftdhrv. fucking yesssss. who else excited for this summer? I am bc im gonna get my permit!!!!! these 17 year cicadas r everywhere outside so probably won't be going out tho. anyway how's life going.

can y'all comment ur most stressful times and how you successfully overcame it bc I am feeling sooo stress and avoiding what's making me stressed and I need to at least see a light at the end of the tunnel or I feel like I will die from it. I mean this is just another way for me to avoid it but I need some reassurance that I am not the only one.i need shit like I had to 10 essays in 2 hours, bc thats the level of stress im on rn. and you finishing it all ofc. plss. its all my fault tbh but I just am really mentally unhealthy rn and I can't take it.

wondering if any of you have words that you use only in ur family, word that already exist that u guys use diff or new words. like it might of started off as a joke but it a pretty normal word you use to describe something or just say to each other now.

for my family its "cherry" or "cherry Pepsi". it mean putting something old in with the same thing except its new. this happened bc my mom doesn't like to waste. so one Time my ddad got cherry Pepsi by accident and nobody in our family liked it. memo drank it even tho she didn't like it so it wouldn't be wasted.but when there was a little bit left she kept telling use to finish it but nobody wanted to. the regular Pepsi was already empty so my mom just poured the cherry Pepsi into the bottle of the regular. then throughout that day everyone drank it thinking its regular Pepsi only to be surprised. now whenever my mom puts something that has been left and not being used bc there's a new one and put what left of the old on in the new one, we say she did a cherry or cherry pepsi. the story is actually really funny even tho it doesn't sound it much, that why we still remember it and use that catchphrase. my mom tricked us all and she still does. like when im expecting fresh popcorn that I popped a bit ago and end up eating old stale soft one instead bc my mom decided to put an old bag of popcorn in my new fish ones.

I wanna know if there are other words like that for you guys bc it feels pretty special to me and ik that its gonna go down in our family history and become our vocabulary and it started in my gen.

so, my next door neighbor from when I was younger was my best friend. our families were also close. I didn't;t know if I liked him then bc I was like 7 but our older brother always embarrassed us by saying we liked each other. ofc I always refused bc I was embarrassed. I think he liked me bc he tried to hold my hand once, when we were walking nome from school. I slapped his hand away and awkwardly walked away. then he got someone to tell me he didn't like me (childish ik, but we WERE 7) . I honestly didn't care but he started to avoid me so I thought our friendship was over forever, especially after he and I both moved away. I thought I would n't see him again but we ended up going the same middle school. and I avoid him at all cost but want to know everything about him. he tried talking to me n stuff but I basically ignored him. I think he thinks I hate him or something. but really I think about him a lot and am embarrassed. I hate it. I just want to forget him but I can't. I really don't think I love him or anything, maybe crush (he is fine) but I can't help think how our story is sooo much like something I would read online, like wattpad. maybe I do like him and denying it but I seriously think I may just be obsessed with out story. if we did end up together that would be romantic. then again I don't think I really like him. but I do think about his a lot. idk what is this. I don't understand my own feelings. we have been classmates for couple of years and didn't talk, though I think we are both aware of each other, until I started going o online school. should I just slide into his dms??????????????/ idk I might love him. and I am a teenage with hormones so idk.