Rryumd's Things

so there's a guy who likes me, i accepted him and we're dating, because i like the attention he gives me. but i don't seem to like him yet. yesterday we had our first date, and he said i love you many times, i felt awkward. this is the first time i'm dating in my whole life, i don't understand. This morning I woke up and felt nauseous, I felt disgusted at the thought of me being close to a guy, me dating a guy, it made me so nauseous. I always feel disgusted if someone approaches me, and it happens if the person who approaches me is a guy.
but I feel fine, and I feel comfortable if the one who approaches me is a girl, I feel more comfortable if I'm surrounded by women... I'm confused, am I a lesbian? but I'm not interested in dating a girl. but, if I date a guy I feel sick. am I aroace?
and i know this is very bad, because i'm in a relationship right now, i know he likes me, i'm a date to marry person, but i can't see a future with my boyfriend right now. i feel sorry for my boyfriend because i feel like this, i can't look at his face because i feel disgusted...
What do you think my sexuality is?

Have you ever cried over your pet?
im crying so hard rn because my cat has an abscess, i thought he's ok because at first there were just bald spots on his fur. but the next day it was festering and seemed to have burst because he was scratching it. i'm sad because i can't take him to the vet, i don't have the money.... now i'm just cleaning the wound with nacl and wound medicine... he's still as lively as ever, but i just feel bad seeing him scratching the wound... omfg why am i so poor?

ok so a guy dm me on tiktok, he wanted us to be moots, i said yes. but he asked us to be friends on discord too, i said yes too. we've only been chatting for about a week, but he confess his love for me??? even though we've only known for a week. I rejected him, but from yesterday he seems to conclude that we are dating. he started calling me babe, honey, etc. he is also 4 years older than me. i feel very uncomfortable, i want to ghost him but isn't that very bad? he started updating me about his daily life, I felt bad about ghosting him. what should i do?