☘'s Favorite

Alright. This novel is not new. Just a few years old. I think it was released in 21 or 22. Anyways, this novel has been revised now. Initially this novel had some aspects which were severely protested by the korean readers such as the resemblance to nth room case and bestiality. The new versions on ridi and bomtoon has replaced the bestiality (dog) with a sex machine so you might not see the dog sex scene in the webtoon. Though it did happen in the first version. I have read it myself. There is no love till the end. The relationship is of kind of mutual dependence where ML and MC are broken because of each other but can’t live without each other as well. ML due to his obsession of revenge and MC due to his trauma. The ML doesn’t regret anything. Well atleast in the first version he doesn’t. He has broken MC but the satisfaction of that is lukewarm. At the end of novel, it is like ML has now taken over MC and now will keep him with him as a toy/plaything or a pet. It’s just like you have something useless but can’t throw it away for whatever reason so you keep it with yourself stored at home.

All of this is happening because Jiwook used to bully and sexually assault the ML in middle school. Jiwook was initially good with ML AND he was attracted to ML as well. However due to the fear of homosexuality and afraid of peer pressure, he started bullying and sexually assaulting ML after ML confessed to liking him or being gay.

The abuse involved sexually assaulting ML with his friends, like forcing him for blow jobs, rape etc. the last abuse ML suffered was when Jiwook added a bunch of vibrators in his ass and bound him and left him in the washroom near library. One guy was on duty of keeping an eye on him but Jiwook never came back. The ML was super scared and was rescued by the security guard at night. That was day ML’s mom came to know about the abuse ML suffered because he hadn’t been to home that day due to being locked in the washroom. Also, from that day MC stopped paying attention to ML just on a whim, he left him in washroom and just decided that he should now study.

ML’s sexual pics were being circulated around by Jiwook so ML’s mom also happened to see them. From then she hated the lipstick and color red I think (it’s been long since I read it) because in the pic ML had some writings written on him with red lipstick. ML’s mom mental health deteriorated and got admitted to hospital.

ML was initially a very sweet boy buy due to the abuse and bullying he suffered, he became twisted and wanted to take revenge on Jiwook. Then when Jiwook lost his memories of the ML, the ML became more deranged because according to him, only he was suffering and stuck in the past which everyone eventually forgot and moved on from.

Now onto the abuse Jiwook suffers, there is gangbang on two occasions I guess. Both planned by ML. First is similar to nth room case, where ML shares Jiwook’s sexual pics to different people who wants to bang him and has grudge against him. The men will beat him brutally, rape him brutally, and even try to drown him in water basin in pretext of washing his mouth since MC vomited after being punched badly. The rape is really bad. When the men are done, they will take pics and send then to ML. The ML’s thoughts were that he will have to clean up the mess they left on MC and that he didn’t think they will go so hard on MC. No remorse though. Just a apathetic sorry to MC because he expected them to rape MC but not so hard.

The second gangrape is done extremely brutally which is actually allowed by ML. ML even wants it to be done brutally to punish MC. When MC is losing his mind due to abuse in the gangrape, ML is like why are you losing your mind already? The gangrape involves beating, using baseball bat (I think) to fuck him, using urethra plug to force him to ejaculate him again again with pain, urinating in his mouth and asshole, it’s extremely disturbing.

MC will keep asking what he did that ML is doing this to him but ML will not tell until the last gangrape. After the last gangrape, MC will awake in hotel and regain his memories. He will apologize to the ML. Now he is broken and damaged beyond repair. He is so afraid to even go outside without ML because he thinks those men will come again and rape him. Thus he wants to stay with ML . Stockholm syndrome is beginning and will fully kick in the side stories.

The dog bestiality scene is in side story 2 but it has already been changed to a sex machine after the protest.

My pet peeve with this novel is that if it’s marketed as a revenge story and something that will depict the pain sexually abused people feel then it does a pretty shitty job at that. ML is shown to have become completely psychopathic. Given he was abused, given he wasn’t given justice, given his abusers were free but the time he raped and allowed other people to become sexual abusers just like him, he no longer comes in the category of victim.

An eye for an eye, if we go with it then how can you guage the emotional suffering someone has suffered. MC was so brutally abused, broken and even stripped of his humanity with the bestiality scene that do you really think they are on equal foot now? What about the people who gangraped MC? Aren’t those sexual abusers? Is there any difference left between MC and ML. Does degrading someone so much equals to the suffering the ML suffered? Kill Jiwook, beat him up but this whatever the writer wrote nowhere justifies anything. The name “walk in my shoes” is fucked up joke.

This is a fetishized work, because in the end the focus is not on empathy or regret but rather sexual abuse, the degradation and ultimately whatever the author could jam to make it disgusting. Even the thoughts, the dialogues, they are super apathetic. There was a brilliant way to go about this novel if it really focused on the theme of revenge. There are many dark novels/works in the world but this doesn’t even come close to it. It is disgusting porn in disguise of novel.

The people criticizing others who are leaving bad reviews, do you guys even know what the review section is for? It literally asks people to give their thoughts about the work so other audience can know what people thought of this work. If someone wants to say it’s bad or good, they are literally given a section that “here tell people how you felt about it”. That’s the review section. Anything that comes on internet as a means of entertainment or media for people, people do have a right to give their opinion about it. What's so fucking difficult about it? Author and artist can write and draw disgusting shit like this but people can’t even openly give their review? The fuck kind of mentality is that? If you enjoy it then comment that you enjoyed it and be on your way. Stop dictating others to not leave bad review or shut their mouths.

fun theory that the pavlov mention is foreshadowing. the mc will have character development and become more like the experimenter than his dog

That study that showed post pandemic literacy levels are abysmal is so true and this fandom and other bl fandoms should already be case studies. I don't know where critical thinking skills disappeared to when it comes to reading even if it's porn fiction.Most readers don't even read in between the lines anymore. Y'all like parroting terms like manipulation to look like you understand what you are reading when most of you don't do research on the shit. I swear I bet none of you have psychology degrees to back your shit up with years of intelligence. Y'all don't even look up stuff you just say it na hope it sticks.

My question is how is nanjo being manipulated by blondie?? Manipulation always requires a power dynamic of sorts. And bfr someone even says it just because nanjo's a bottom that doesn't mean he doesn't have power let's get that out of the way. The blondie made a deal as a joke and guy just accepted it. He says he likes the redhead but how can you say yes to your cheeks being pounded to 'protect' your beloved?Even if they ain't dating isn't that micro cheating?? Y'all are obsessed with bottoms being victims that you'll pull anything out of y'all's asses. Nanjo is a grown man that could have said no especially to a man he doesn't even like. He wasn't held at gun point. He wasn't coerced. He wasn't even tricked he just accepted a very ridiculous deal and y'all are acting like that's blondies fault. You say blondie is manipulative but don't say red head is manipulative for telling him to have a threesome he didn't want? Is manipulation only applicable when nanjo's the one being penetrated? Manipulation involves power plays, how is the blondie exerting power on nanjo when nanjo can always do what he wants??? Y'all just can't admit that bottoms like him are just stupid.

Blondie has a crush on nanjo. He was being playful and even he thought he'd be shot down when he made that deal so how is he being manipulative???

Another thing y'all need to stop learning about sex from porn. Saying nanjo is being raped is wild. We know he's never bottomed so why would y'all think it wouldn't be uncomfortable even when consent is given?? Penetrative sex for the first time ranges from uncomfortable to pain oftentimes depending on the receivers ability to relax. Nanjo is not relaxed at all through this and it's not blondies or his fault. His body is not used to getting dicked down yet and that's just normal first time things. Penetrative sex is a process tbh it takes time for the body to adjust just like so many things. Also the heteronormative sex positions for the first time in most BLS ain't it. For anal sex spreading your legs is really for the pros. For beginners the legs need to be closed so that the anal muscles can be stretched and open up the hole more so it's less painful during penetration. Doing missionary on an anal beginner is just terrible but that's the creators fault and all other bl creators for their lack luster interpretation of homo sex.

I know I'm about to be called a rape apologist and told to kill myself for thinking like this but do with this information what you may.

to those who read the novel.. could you spoil me how this ends? i already got the gist of why the ml is doing this to the mc, just wanna know how this ends..

okay, now that the translation is here, its even more obvious that monkyeon has some feeling for nanjo, but i wouldn't say love nor passion.. there's just something getting born, and he himself is afraid because his attraction to him is lasting longer that it usually does (apparently). he is a little twisted, yes, but i don't think he is evil, definitely not a red/black flag.
nanjo... his character is so interesting to me. he's definitely a devoted one, or maybe just really stubborn, or maybe his pride is his greatest prize, because tell me why is he doing all this for that twink? why put himself in this position? he's either really naive/innocent or he just doesn't want to recognize that he's getting played by the twink. at least monkyeon is honest with his intentions, and that's why i like (also why many are hating him).
anyways this is going to be a hell of a good ride

Bet my ass this pretty homosexual that came for seunghyun is someone from his past in japan and they know eachother

and here we aaareee HERE WE ARE hahhh he left his brother to die man i still can't believe he's doing all this shit for myeongil while they've only known each other for whaat a few months heonjae baby boy listenn to me you have to stand with ur brother ok he's the only one who takes care of you stop thinking with your dick your uncle is coming for him and you'll probably be the next target

anyone got recommendations for this kind of duo? cunning uke, puppy seme haha