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Anyone have any BL live action recommendations?

My absolute favorites are Japanese "My Beautiful Man", "His (the movie)" and "Our Youth" as well as Thai "Bad Buddy".

I need recs that are ACTUALLY good like acting, plot, filming etc. I know some people watch BL just bc it's bl and I get it lmao, but I really can't watch something if it's cringy/boring. Thank you!!

my stomach hurts so bad guys. like nothing i've ever felt before. it's been hurting for over 1 and a half days now. it hurt so bad that yesterday i took a nap even though i never do in order to escape the pain and maybe feel better when i woke up but, spoiler alert, i woke up and my stomach still fuckin hurt.

it hurt the rest of the day then when it was actually time to sleep i thought i might finally be free, but i woke up today and it still hurts so fuckin bad. what the actual fuck.
i haven't eaten anything weird/different/spoiled and i didn't get hurt. i have no idea what it could be. i can't even eat all i've been doing is drinking water

I've always had an irrational fear that my appendix will burst, but if that was the issue i'd be dead rn... right?

i'm not going to the doctors or anything just felt like ranting idk hopefully it goes away soon or something

So I'm on summer break from uni now and I'm deciding if I wanna go back. Not that I'm dropping out!!! lol just deciding if I wanna transfer.

I was one of those I REALLY need to get away from home kids, so I went to a smaller school out of state. And it was terrible. I mean the classes where ok and I made some amazing friends. But I HATE dorming with others. I feel like there would be no problem if I had a single, but I can'tttt live w ppl I need my own space.

Even though I dormed with friends my 2nd year I still wanted to kms ughhhh. That's not the only problem either the school is really small so there's literally no place to study the library is ALWAYS filled and there's no spaces to be alone at allll not even in my own dorm. And I'm the type that will IMPLODE if I don't have time to myself. I genuinely don't know how I lasted so long.

I submitted a app to a larger in state school and got accepted and I think it's really nice. The campus is gorgeous and huge. I just don't know how I'd break the news to my friends/roomies since we applied to be in the same room next year and I never told them I was considering transferring... But I genuinely might off myself if I have to go back.

At the same time though I might off myself having to live with family since I'll be living at home if i transfer lmao.

The decision is to choose the lesser evil at this point lmao. Any thoughts for a struggling student?

Anyone have any game recs? Mainly RPGs, Visual Novels, or Mystery's!

Some Games I've Played:
- ZENO Remake (SOOO PEAK)
- Zeno Daily life (PEAK SEQUAL)
- Saihate Station (No words amazing)
- Your Turn to Die (Peak Fiction truly ch2 wasn't my fav tho lol)
- Let Sleeping Dogs lie Demo (Super good detective game waiting for the full release!)
- A Date with Death (I thought Casper was sooo cute + art is gorgeous)
- Dead Plate (Mhm Mhm IFKYK)
- Elevator Hitch (I love Puzzles, but FUCKKKK lmao so hard at times)
- Killer Chat (It's ok...)
- No, Thank You (Just like the title NO THANK YOU so fuckin asssss)
- Project Blue (up my ally ig just couldn't do this one for some reason lol)
- Hashihime of The Old Book Town (Trouble following the story lmao maybe I'll try this again)

[I'm more of a let's play watcher so I haven't played many games personally lmao, but I'll mention all the Danganronpa games just because lol V3 SUPERMACY]

Don't get me wrong I've had friends before. Whatever that means...

I'm just confused on how people can trust others completely. I am disillusioned by everyone i have ever met. No one is perfect and obviously I'm aware of that, but I don't think that's a fact that I'll ever be ok with.

That's not to say I'm perfect. Far from it really lmao...
It's just I feel like I will always want to isolate myself cause there will always be something wrong and not "normal" with the way i live and i will always find something wrong with everyone in my life.

If you witness someone do a single thing wrong how will you ever be able to look past that? I'll never forget and we'll never go back to normal. At least not in my mind.

Even if someone seems "perfect" I will never know what they are thinking and they could think I'm terrible and awful. Even that I find fault with.

Is the problem that I care too little? Or that I care too much? Am I just looking for excuses to punish myself by pushing everyone else away?

I think I'm just someone who will never be able to trust others or myself.