You said you notice girl in a loving way or just because they look pretty ?
Maybe you like one girl or girls ?
Even if you are "gay" I think you are looking for a person with a good background than just one gender. You've noticed it because it matches all your masculine characteristics. It's just a guess reply
Yeah i have the same problem my friend tell me the same. I would like but i can't. From time to time i try and that end every time in the same way. I read Yaoi. I thing i am addict but i prefer that or drug. lol
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Hi, my first Yaoi was Junjou Romantica in anime. It was difficult for me to like because i thinks it was strange and i dont like that. I try again and i fall in love in yaoi. After that i was so sad because anime yaoi dont have much. Few year later i start to read scan in french and it's was great. This year i found MANGAGO but it's was in english ...... reply