
I’ve been on a rereading binge and omg the first time I read this and he got caught masturbating I fucking cried from second hand embarrassment I’m not even exaggerating I legit shed tears and didn’t pick ts back up for weeks. I usually just cringe but ig on that day i was extra emotional. Now on my reread imma skip the first chapter

This was a mid read all around. The uke was a self sabotaging disaster the entire story bc of his trauma and only got character development legit within the last 5 chapters. None of the characters interested me except Helena she’s a bad bitch. I also despise the manwhore seme x innocent uke trope especially more so when the uke is at the beck and call of the dick for brains seme. Ik it didn’t show kyle as a whore but it was hinted at, and don’t even with his brother gayle

Did u not read the part where I mentioned his trauma being the cause of his alcoholic behavior?? I understand trauma = having issues but what I don’t like is how up until the very end minus ab 5 chapters he was all over the place and the character development was rushed.
The author should’ve either extended the story, started the character development earlier on, or have a time skip. Otherwise, the entire bl centered on a self destructive uke that IRRATIONALLY annoyed me and I literally cannot remember any of his redeemable qualities even though I binged and finished this recently. Yknow why? Bc that’s all uke was portrayed and remembered as in the minds of readers when it was told like that the entire story.
And that fucking whore seme x pure uke trope was more directed at the second couple. Robin needs to stand up literally a decade ago. I only mentioned the main semes whorish past bc that’s a personal pet peeve of mine but it was manageable since it didn’t show seme explicit with others.

Well then let me enlighten you. First of all, Iliyan's character development is shown throughout the whole story, not the last 5 chapters. He changes from someone who was selfish, callous and cocky to someone who actually feel bad about how he talk to Chris about his sick sister. When out of his way to apologize and offer to pay her hospital fee to make admens for his rudeness. He realized his mistake and want to become better. That's character development.
And it continues to season 2, where he decided to stop being an alcoholic because once again, he want to be a better partner for Kyle. And instead of holding on to the resentment toward his shitty father, he break free it from it, from all the past trauma, trust issue, abdonment issue. That's also character development.
And those could never happen if Kyle wasn't by his side to give him all the strength and the encouragement he needs to overcome his devils. That's what Kyle is - a great boyfriend who see through Iliyan's spiky facade and genuinely care about him, not a manwhore. It was never hinted that he fuck around. In fact, it explains the reason he has that nickname was because Helen treated him like one. So check your reading comprehension on that one.
The story explains very well HOW Iliyan can't help but become self-destructive, HOW trauma and addiction can affects one person and their life and HOW can our mc break free/move on from it. All that require character depth and Iliyan sure as hell has it. Therefore readers can sympathize with him, root for him, etc. I mean the man didn't even like alcohol in the first place.
If you can't get i then like the first reply said, you just don't have the EQ capacity to understand it. And that's okay, just don't blame the story and the characters for your shortcomings.

Rape is totally on the table bc if the author was comfortable putting rape once they’ll do it again. I didn’t read this but kept up through tiktok vids and when I finally thought the SA was finished I decided to read it straight from around ch 80 when it got fluffy. Istg the author better not be deranged enough to include a SA scene especially since they been hinting he’s pregnant…

This is so fucking ass all the characters are unlikeable as shit. Dick for brains seme, kissing and getting hard for others hypocritical uke, and busy body neighbor. I love how uke said “I wish we can be more honest with each other” then proceeds to not express himself and keep the fact he got kissed and a hardon from the neighbor a secret. Seme basically assaults uke and thinks a simple sorry is gonna fix it?!? He seemed more upset his food was salty that the fact uke was mad at him. Ugh wasted my time glad I dropped early in

Dropped at ch 1. I thought she regressed each time smarter and more firm in wanting to take revenge on her “family” but the first ch showed me she was naive till her last life.
How in the hell does it take 7 lives of abuse and death for someone to get it in their thick skull that they are not wanted??? I get wanting to hold out hope they can change the first couple of lives, but not 7 whole cycles.
It’s crazy how she had to die 7 times to come to the conclusion that her family will nvr love her. Feelings like that don’t change in a split sec and I can bet in her final life, she has some moments where she STILL hopes the father or brother changes and gets disappointed like a dummy

I’m dropping at ch 6 bc I can’t stand her insufferable attitude. When that rift appeared at the station and a mother lost her child, this bitch was sitting down, yawning and complaining about being trapped in safety while others don’t have that luxury and still had the audacity to say “I miss my bed… I mean my mom” when it was all over like this girl does not gaf if anyone lives or dies she’s basically a lazy villain. She doesn’t have to help for whatever reason but her lack of empathy made me want to punt her

I mean it is said she does cares but "blocked her feelings" because of what happened with her dad, I mean I bet you are not crying cuz every day a kid is raped and killed in real world or will take home any homeless person you come by on the street, you will look the other way and continue with your life, and I am not judging you either, all good if the person wants to be the self sacrificing hero, but she clearly doesn't, it's human to feel empathy but letting yourself stop and think will enhance our instincts to help, and will only make you feel bad by not helping when it wasn't your fault or job in the first place, and even worse can lead to a action to make yourself feel good, and them you feel like you did your part when in fact you didn't change shit and didn't even do your part either but will feel entitled to judge others and do nothing when it's convenient

You clearly forgot that another one went to safe the kid. Why would she go in there making more ruckus for herself and maybe even endanger her anonymity when someone is already saying the kid? And any normal person would miss your so called "luxury" of hers. She is waiting to go home after something unexpected happened and just wanted to rest. If you cannot fathom that others might miss a bed they can comfortably sleep in instead of their mother that is angry at their notes and might get into a fight with them then you shouldn't even look into most of the adventure genres.

Did u even finish reading my cmt before ur panties got twisted? I said she doesn’t have to help bc its clear she’s lazy but her lack of empathy to the situation is what made her insufferable. And the luxury I was talking about wasn’t her missing her bed in a stressful situation, but complaining about being trapped in a safe space that I’m sure many others weren’t able to get to. She could shut her trap about being trapped when she could’ve gotten away from that lady trying to “save” her. Though I explained it AGAIN I doubt you’d understand with ur lack of critical thinking to my initial cmt hell u might not even finish reading this cmt

I do block out the tragedies in real life bc I do not have the power or money to change it but that’s the difference between me and her. She does have power and money to help but doesn’t and that’s ok. So why can’t she at least have empathy for the mother? bc like u said, ppl look the other way when they can’t help, and she can help but ignores it so shouldnt she at least worry ab the safety of the child?? Unless she truly does not care if that child dies.

No she can't, just as you "can" put at least one or two people without a home in yours, she can help others and suffer the consequences, that's the catch, there is consequences for being hero, she is powerful but not powerful enough, not fisicaly nor mentally to shoulder the world on her back and once people know she has the power to make the difference, they will eventually ask for more and blame her for not wanting to sacrifice herself, that's the whole point in this story,
She is clearly actively trying to not care about others, because she knows once she does she will feel responsible, she will worry, she will blame herself and eventually do nothing will not be a option, and them she can or "help" when is safe for a moment to feel better (and in her case risk her and her family peace and life) or fully help to the max of her capabilities and make the diferente (destroying her and her family peace plus putting her life in risk)
What you are asking is for her to feel bad for not going out of her way for something is not her responsibility nor her fault
You are literally saying "it's okay to do nothing as long as you feel bad" this kind of "self punishment" doesn't help anyone and in the end just serves so you can feel better about yourself (ironically)cuz "it hurts my heart" so you feel like you are on the side of the ones who are sacrificing themselves to make the difference, hypocrisy is what we call, and more than sociopaths who can be reasoned by logic, human hypocrisy is way more dangerous
I mean in this case it is fiction but you are judging and blaming the wrong person cuz she doesn't follow your distorted morals
Hypocrisy is how humans survive in this world and everyone has it on one way or another, the problem is thinking your way is the "right" thus blocking you to evolve as a person and have empathy for the ones who think or do it differently

All ur yapping just to basically say what I said: she’s a lazy heartless villain bc she doesn’t have a sense of responsibility. Like u made her out to be more evil than I did and I actually agree. She’s a perfect villain: heartless, uncaring, self absorbed, selfish, and most cruel: being ok with the death of a child bc it’s not her responsibility to save them and the risk of her being hurt is no good

....I literally made paralels with real life situations....the only posible way for you to come up with that conclusion is if you are currently housing streats people, has several human projects and is so rich it doesn't afect you so you think helping others is a small gesture and people who doesn't do the same are "heartless, uncaring, self absorbed, selfish, and cruel, being ok with the death of a child bc it's not her responsibility"
If that's what you think then it makes sense you don't see why that's exacly what makes her a humane and good character
Maybe you are not a hypocrite but just so you know immaturity comes from undeveloped aspects and you can be sure that this type of dilemmas is a everyday thing for me, I thought that for it be a manhwa you couldn't make the connection with reality as we are used to self sacrificing saints and that's what I was trying to make but maybe you are just innocent and can't understand why people are "bad people" even after explaining, I mean I keep forgetting that I am speaking in English and there is a lot of English speaking countries whose quality of life is so good people can't understand violence, pain, hunger or fear, if you don't have much to loose by helping others I can see why it would be unthinkable not do so, if you never even saw someone be killed death must be a distant concept and if you have access to mental health facilities I doubt you would understand wanting to keep peace at all costs
I wish everyone could effort to be as noble as you, believe me we have our reasons not to be
Woah I let this marinate for 6 months bc I was so upset glasses guy was gonna miss his entrance exam and ruin his life but ended up forgetting ab it for so long I didn’t realize it ended already. It ended too fast I need more side stories and love when the main stories are shounen ai and the side sides are explicit bc the buildup makes it worth it