This chapter melted my heart bc the mc before kept feeling like he sex was something he should do in return for the money given, but here, in this chapter he doesn't see the money as an exchange, but as a kindness––and to see his touched blushing face lean in for the kiss just was so gentle and beautiful; a look like he was starting to feel love and affection and I am melttttting so cute!
I've had people try to pay for me before, especially when I was living a little rough, and I always worried like they would expect something in return, or I would have to pay them back later (which I normally insisted and followed through on even if it took some time), and I always felt like shit for their pity for me, but also need the money too. I was stuck with thoughts like why are are giving this to me for free??? This story resonated with me deeply. When the mc doesn't have enough money to buy the convenience store coffee, I felt that. I've been there. Now I earn much more than I did before (but by no means sugar mama material), and if I buy someone something for them, I'm really doing it because I want to help them, because I see myself in them, because I had been there, crying at the cost of my car not working when I had to get it repaired, living in my car and crashing on couches, saying I was on a diet so friends wouldn't know I couldn't afford to eat out with them, and wondering how I was going to buy food for the month. Now I'm on the opposite side, I still have a weird feeling like I'll be broke next month but I'm willing to cash it out for others in need because there were people who did the same for me and I wouldn't have made it far without them. In this case it's probably a deep part of the seme resonated with the mc, whether it was romantic or empathic, which made him want to spoil him. But I remember and still get really squicked out when people offer to pay for me still, so I def get the mc's feelings.
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I have this anxiety reading this flashback from Margrave's point of view bc I know that eventually the fricking blonde magician Helios is going to steal Dian (original fairy goddess, not current mc) from Bazel and it will literally break my heart esp since it somehow ends with her dying and I'M NOT READY FOR IT!!! Want it to go back to the main plot please bc I can see too many similiaries between the current Dian and past fairy goddess Dian(a) and it hits me right in the feelings ╥﹏╥
Actually, since they mentioned the story before I think something is wrong, because if the fairy continues to recriminate, most likely her feeling does too more like the saying history repeats it self, so the current Diane would fall again with a magician, but the fact that the current Diane is in love with Bazel, might be in the past, she did love him but had to do something for him, like sacrificing herself or whatever! Or at least that’s what I hope for!
The only other thing I can think of is that the rumors that the fairy and the magician being together were false made up as myth and legend (the evidence being that it wasn't the magician that pulled her out of the water but the knight) and that some sacrifice was made that he is afraid will happen again!